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I’ve been laying on a bed for hours contemplating shooting myself in the head. I had a beautiful life in which I was attending school, a beautiful wife, and teaching music my passion. Now I’ve graduated, I still kinda teach but my best friend since high school doesn’t want me anymore. I’ve done so much to hurt her and I can’t ever tell her how I feel. She wants us to be divorced now so she isn’t reminded of me. I don’t blame her but this is really baring down on me. I’ve cried for two months now about every other night and I want […]
I seem to have a problem. Well, multiple problems, but the key outcome is that I keep screwing up. All my life people have told me how great and intelligent I am. So gifted and kind and well-rounded. Blah blah blah.
Do you detect a hint of disdain in that? The reason for that is, I don’t think I ever learnt accountability or the actual meaning of hard work. All through school, I could study the night before and still rock an A, or a high B at the very least. Hard work to me was just listening in class and occasionally doing my homework. But […]
I dont want to die. I dont want to live. I’m terrified of it all. I’m conflicted, i’m incomplete and I’m suffocating with this desperate need to be loved and yet I do not trust or accept a single persons love.
How do you live when youve lost the desire to live but are haunted by the things you need??
How do you live with emotions that were never tended to.. such important steps that were ignored. I’m in pain and i’m empty. I am exhausted of this world. I’m 20 years old, 21 in march. I’m a light skinned female with, ive been told, attractive lips, […]
I accidently texted my mom “my parents haven’t said a fucking word to me” that was supposed to go to my best friend. Now I’m locked in my room. Terrified to leave the safe place. Thinking about running away, driving away if I can get passed my parents, thinking about cutting, overdosing. Anything! I want to get out of this fucking place! I want to leave these bitches now! After next year I’m done with this shit! I’m going to live with my best friend. I am so fucking done!!!!
I’m sorry
I panicked
I didn’t know what to do
I promised you something
But I broke that promise
I feel bad now
I couldn’t do it
It’s difficult for me
To do that action
And now I feel bad
But I don’t want to bring you down
And I don’t know how to make it up to you.
I just
Panicked
I’ve never done that action before with someone like that
And I didn’t know anything about it
I broke my promise
And
I’m Sorry
Hi, I’m a 15 year old male (contrary to the title I know but keep reading) I was born on August, 8, 1998 anyways I was born to two wonderful people here in my wonderful homeland of Canada. I was (am) being raised in a religious group witch I will not mention because its considered the worst sin to talk about it/give it a bad name. But yeah it’s basically led by a group of old men, and everyone in it is delusional, including my parents. So about the title, yes, I’ll get to that right now, I was a special child born with a […]
That’s it.. tomorrow I am jumping off the 5th floor of the sf main library.
I am one of those people who feel good when I cut and injure myself. I have done this for many years and have Gotten so good at hiding it. I can’t stop doing it. It’s
Like I need it to feel. I just don’t cut anymore, I now slice my flesh off. I know I’m not alone doing this type of thing to my self but I bet I have been doing it longer than most on here. Lol
Hey.
This is my first entry. I’ve never really been good with describing my pain or how I feel. So, bare with me, okay? I live in Montreal, Canada. My parents aren’t married and they have four kids, myself included. This has a lot to do in my life so it’s important that you note this.
I began to feel depressed when I was ten. My older sister, Veronica, was the main reason to my bullying. She always pushed me around and made me feel like shit. You might say that everyone feels like this at one point, right? Possibly. But what made this worst was that […]
I’m physically and mentally tired of having to deal with everything. My foster parents hate the living day lights out of me and i’m constantly reminded by them about how useless i am. I’m told that i’m dumber than a brick everyday of my life and how i cannot achieve anything and will probably not ever be able to make any one proud. I try so hard to help people and make people proud of me but it’s not working. I’ve been bullied ever since 2nd grade and i’m in the 10th now and the hate is still going strong. yaaaaaaay…Â I’m not looking […]
I just don’t think I can do it anymore. I’ve been suffering with dysthymia since the seventh grade almost and fifteen now, but last night I think did me over completely. My family and I got into a huge altercation last night that led to words being said that I’d never thought I’d hear outside my own mind. “You’re crazy, *****, you ruin everything, I don’t want anything to do with you” “You ruined my life” (coming from my own mother). I used to tell myself these things in my mind. Along with fat, slut, stupid, and ugly. But I just thought maybe it’s all […]
To that little girl, smiling from ear to ear, with no worries on her mind and no demons in her head? Where’s the girl whose smile would light up a room, who laughed like there was no tomorrow, who would spend hours jumping in the rain, where’s the girl who enjoyed life?
What happened to me, what’s wrong with me? Now I am waiting to die, every second of every day just waiting. I’ve been waiting for 4 years now, when will it finally come to an end?
“When you grow up, your heart dies.”-The Breakfast Club.
Here is my rant.. Best night of my life.. not.. you want to sit there and lie to me about who your with and what your doing? And you think i should of had respect for her? Uhmm no, what girl goes around with a guy who she KNOWS has a fucking girlfriend?.. I should of beat her ass. I don’t give a fuck anymore. Then we figure it all out and you turn back around and go to her house. HELL NO! I’m not playing anymore. I’m done.. I don’t want to be here.. I’m tired of the lieing of tonight..
Really, I want to get out of this shitty world! If this is what life is supposed to be, than I don’t want to live anymore! Wish I had a gun…
I’m 21, (ya I know I’m young) .. My whole life has been nothing but suffering. I’ve been bullied since I could remember. I’ve had my ups and down’s but have been depressed for many years. It’s at its worst right now. I don’t have a licence, I don’t have a job, I don’t have highschool, I will never see college. I don’t even know what I want to do for my future. I don’t even see me having a future. My boyfriend left me because he “doesn’t love me” anymore. He can’t understand what I’m going through. We still talk. He’s going to be dating someone […]
I’m at that point where nothing matters. Where I don’t hear what people are telling me. I fucked up my friendship with my ex by not telling him something I want to. Every time I almost told him my chest felt like it was getting tighter it got harder to breath and the room started to spin. He knows I want to ask/tell him something and that I’m losing sleep over it but because I won’t tell him he is pissed off at me. I even told him what happened every time I almost told/asked him. My other ex who is one of my beat […]
Once, again my life is continuing on it’s downward decent; although this time it is spiraling out of control more rapidly than it ever has before. I can’t do any of this anymore…nor do I really want to. I am tired, of living, breathing, and existing. I feel as if I do not even have a purpose anymore, but instead I am an empty shell that is carrying on the functions of the person that I used to be. No one cares about me, for awhile I thought that maybe for once in my life someone actually cared about me, but alas I was wrong. I was […]
Dawg. He used to be on here a lot, where is he? Has he finally done it? I miss his wisdom and experience. Dawg was one of the best.