You
know when u really trusted someone and then they say they trust you and all of
a sudden they stop talking to you because of someone else. Honestly I don’t
know what to do anymore. Im getting attacked left, right and center, by this
girl. I trusted him with things that I would never trust anyone with. He played
with my heart and said he was only talking to her because he was trying to be
the good mate. Now I feel like I was used just for his pleasure.but now I feel
down because I really found out who it was attacking me. […]
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Dumps
As of right now, I’m at the bottom of the pit. If you look at my charts, I should be doing okay. But I feel so utterly depressed. I haven’t smoked weed or cigarettes in a month, and I’m not abusing my medicine. I’m also seeing a therapist and have hung out with my friends more often. Well, my clean friends that is.
Of course there’s a dark side though. I started drinking again. It’s not a lot, but I know it’s not good for me. Honestly though, if I don’t have a piece of the old me, I fear I’ll go insane. The thing is, […]
What the fuck? The other day you were saying you loved me and how much i meant to you, you made me feel wanted, loved accpeted, you brought me out the dumps, my rock. But then things went wierd, you started to ignor me, so i message you “just asking but have i done something wrong?” and then his GIRLFRIEND replies from HIS phone, “This is his gf who thw fuck is tthis” and ofcourse im like, his girlfriend? he said he was single, why is she messaging me, he has my number, why is she asking? So i reply “Who is this” as in […]
I am stuck, and there seems to be no one to help me. I don’t know if I should take up Accounting or Management as my major. Accounting is too narrow, while Management is too broad. Seems like the university I’m entering is in the dumps.
That’s it, I have no future.
Everything is ruined.
No one is there to help me…
Choices, choices…
I want to give tuitions but I don’t have the place… my house is a mess…
I’m devastated…
It’s a fight for me not to revert back to the “I want to die” thoughts…
Do tranquilizers and antidepressants combat constant bad luck occurrences?
by Dead Right
written by Dead Right
Do tranquilizers and antidepressants combat constant bad luck occurrences?
As everyone knows that have read my past posts, I have been very depressed and taking antidepressants for quite a few years. For me, suicide has been a security blanket for countless years and has provided somewhat a comfort from some past crappy occurrences that appears to me, to be extremely bad luck. Of course there may be some happenstances that are a result of my poor choices, but I will not admit to that now at this moment. For now it is the cruel cosmos that is to blame for all my unhappiness.
Undesirable things just seem […]
It’s been a while since I posted. I’ve been super busy with my new cashier job… Which makes me want to cut my arms open. I drive 40 minutes to stand in one spot for 8 hours doing the same thing over and over, making min. wage. Everything is all wrong. This life is too much. My family is in pieces, my love life is falling right behind it, I’ve lost all my friends and become addicted to drugs and shit…
They keep telling me I’m crazy and I need help so I just keep telling them to shove it. I may be crazy but I’d […]
May 5 2012 Day 1
Today I had an idea. It is a good idea I think. From this day I will stay sober! There is this really disgusting habit(addiction) I have and I do believe it influenced my life in a way I never imagined. I know I can’t get the girl I love, even if I stay sober now for ever, but I can help myself a lot. I hope my emotional roller coaster will stop. It is not a serious problem, nothing life threating, but my addiction is bad for me. Very bad. I am feeling so sick every time after I lived […]
Seriously, about anything and everything. Suicide related or not. I’ve actually had kind of a good day today… but now I’m really just crashing down into the dumps again (as per usualy, I suppose). I really just want to talk now. About myself or my own feelings orabout one of you and yours. Don’t care… just need a distraction.
I’m kind of new to this site, and not really sure if I can just start an open conversation like this… but… yeah… Just wanted to talk to someone.
Any takers?
~Ashley
This is a true story about a guy who was down in the dumps in his life, his marriage, his family, nearly broke, and he started asking God questions about all kinds of things you can imagine from suffering, to sex, to how to fix his life, and some pretty amazing answers were shown to him….
You can buy the “Conversations With God” series, starting with the first book through to book three or four i believe. It’s pretty interesting take on everything happening in the world.
Another really good book to read is “A New Earth” by Eckart Tolle.
Really quite philosophical and informed.
I hope these can […]