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Still Not Dead

by seppuku 9/4/2014

written by seppuku

Nah, will y’all quit worrying!

I’m too full of life to die just yet.

Have you noticed how seemingly every other poster here expresses the wish to ‘die in their sleep’?

Folks, it doesn’t work like that!

I find people tend to know me far better than I know myself.

And it’s not for the want of trying…

I just can’t make myself out.

This isn’t a bleeding poem. I f*****g hate poetry! Next time you wanna post something on here, make it goddamn prose!

I write like this to make it easy for you mentally challenged guys to understand lol.

I’ve got a new phone and it won’t connect to the Internet. My […]

9/4/2014 21 comments

Can never find the right spot.

by Sigh123 9/3/2014

written by Sigh123

It’s 4.25am and I’ve just came home from an hour long walk, the truth is I was looking to commit suicide tonight and my chosen method was to jump off a high ledge and land in the sea, dying of either shock, head injuiry, drowning or hypothermia or a combination of them all. I live in a seaside town so I thought this would be a very easy thing to accomplish but the highest point in the town where it would be possible to die is fenced off with barb wire. I spent a while looking for a lot of other spots but no where […]

9/3/2014 6 comments

Perhaps

by Xuonimo 9/2/2014

written by Xuonimo

Good day everyone,

Terribly sorry for seeming helpless and sharing too much of my personal issues here, but when one is desperate for help they take any opportunity.

I’ve been researching on ways to avert suicide and I came upon this site. I have been battling against suicidal thoughts since I was 11 after a classmate demonstrated, in front of our very eyes, how to slash wrists. (Mind you, she just wanted to show how brave and utterly reckless she was for doing something that makes her feel above others who couldn’t, at the time, even consider harming themselves.) – I followed her footsteps when […]

9/2/2014 3 comments

Sick of myself and everything that happens.

by BrokenClock 9/1/2014

written by BrokenClock

The past seven years for me were filled with promises, hope and trust. Only to end with betrayal, distrust and pain. Then more repetitions. Now I’m so scared it’ll happen again. And Im also made to feel bad for being insecure and afraid. Everything somehow becomes my ‘fault’.

It’s not so fucking easy.

I’m so fed up with hurting. Can I just please lie down and die in my sleep?

9/1/2014 0 comment

I hate my self.

by Recluse 9/1/2014

written by Recluse

I just want a easy and painless way out.

My first and only attempt I took 100, 500mg sleeping tablets and 27, 200mg painkiller tablets to slowly drift away and all that happened was I passed out in my bed then spewed all over myself while I was still passed out then when I regained consciousness my mum had found me and took me to my nearby hospital then I went out to it again and they sent me to another bigger hospital witch they put stuff down into my guts to make me spew the remainder of tablets out.

Note, I attempted on the night before […]

9/1/2014 9 comments

The trouble with loving a Ghost

by theforgottenfew 8/31/2014

written by theforgottenfew

I don’t know if my memories are real anymore because they blur with my dreams of you. I dream of how things should have been. As you torture my mind I cling tighter to those memories and dreams and I feel guilty for loving him now that you are gone. I feel guilty. I don’t feel like I deserve any happiness because you didn’t have any, I feel like I’m betraying you by building a life with him. But I have to. I’m stronger now since I lost you but I am weak, and stupid. I make bad choices and I hurt people. The ones […]

8/31/2014 1 comment

It’s deep…I think. For me at lease.

by StitchedMouth 8/28/2014

written by StitchedMouth

You think I’m fat? Cool. You think I’m a loner ? Fine by me, love the comment. You think I’m ugly? What wait….sorry I was looking for a fuck to give.

It amazes me that people could be so cruel and uncaring towards another person. They whisper and point, my mother always told me pointing was rude as was bullying. It hurts honestly to hear what I already know. I guess the words coming from someone else’s mouth hurts a lot worse. I look in an reflective surface and immediately I feel self conscious.

I hide it. Laugh it off and joke around. It’s not that hard, […]

8/28/2014 7 comments

The most useless human being ever checking out

by Disenchanted7 8/28/2014

written by Disenchanted7

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gDM2QRW-kD0

After falling this far, it should be easy to slit my throat and end a lifetime of misery within 10 minutes. Have I got the balls?

8/28/2014 1 comment

hope

by insecure-wreck 8/28/2014

written by insecure-wreck

Man I hope I get better n if I need surgery to for my spine n the pain will stop hopefully stupid muscle spasms it hate myself it’s very difficult for me not to worry about the future of my well being it scares me cause I want to get better so badly I’m hurting constantly every day it’s something else on me one day it’s my neck another could be my shoulders or any other part of me that feels wrong n out of place I can’t sleep at times n when I do I don’t want to get up because of how pain […]

8/28/2014 2 comments

bad day

by paingoaway 8/27/2014

written by paingoaway

been a while since i been here. hope everyone is doing ok, or at least staying alive. I hate having suicidal thoughts…but here they are tonight, first time in a while. im quite lonley, and i need a better job, or my gf might leave me. I already only have one friend. crap, im scared of being homeless,in jail, or dead. maybe as a 29 year old black male without a good job (although very educated) i have just seen all the good i will ever see in life? maybe…i should just take the easy way out. i hope this mood passes quickly.

8/27/2014 13 comments

Empty

by AJokeOfFate 8/27/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

I just.. I feel so empty. Yeah, normally its easy to laugh it off and hide behind a mask, act normal, human even. But right now, when I’m sitting at home and in bed, all of my walls come down. I feel so weak and hopeless- and of course my parents choose this very moment to tell me how worthless I am and how I’ll never amount to anything and how I should have been more like my brother. The worst part? I agree with them.
I’m not anything special; I don’t have any outstanding talents- and trust me on this. I can read people […]

8/27/2014 10 comments

Written

by Scarlett Dawn 8/27/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

Happiness has long eluded me. I lost the sensation of warmth in my soul. I cannot feel anymore. I miss feeling worthy. I miss the gentle touch of another humans embrace.

The only time where I can remember being truly happy was during my deployment to Dubai. I got to meet soldiers from other countries, and I was away from Australia that holds a lot of painful memories. I found a picture in the ARA newspaper today and it brought a smile to my face – it had been taken early march when I did a speech for International Women’s Day. Major General Omar showed his […]

8/27/2014 10 comments

What’s the use

by Worthless_afterthought 8/25/2014

written by Worthless_afterthought

Death has been on my mind for quite some time now. a few years ago I never would have utter the words wanting to die, just let me be able to kill myself. now the words just come so easy and i just feel like I am getting so close to the edge. I think it is a possibility that I will have the strength to do it. Everyday is something new that just keeps adding to the pile of shit that is already on top of me. I feel so worthless like nothing I do matters. Nobody has time for me when I need […]

8/25/2014 3 comments

Lost of Enjoyment

by fallenstar23 8/24/2014

written by fallenstar23

As I breathe deep and clear, even though you’re there I feel alone. I stand waiting as I’m here wandering capturing the capacity of everyone’s joy and laughter.

Though the key to myself is lost. I can’t live as before, where it was easy to become a friend to someone.

As I open my eyes I’m slowly becoming tortured by the way I feel with myself. How do I stop becoming this way I ask.

One day though it will become better as for all of us.

8/24/2014 2 comments

A Bitter End

by Broken_Soul 8/16/2014

written by Broken_Soul

For those like me there truly is no rest for the weary.But at the same time if your like me you simply cannot just end your life.not that I dont want to.its that I cant.being alone for all this time has shaped me.in my eyes I must be independant and not rely on anyone else.I must do things the right way the first time or not at all.discipline comes into action if I show weakness.I become so angry with myself for making even small mistakes it intoxicating.I have too much pride you could say.like this for example…I would rather die than be caught off guard.I […]

8/16/2014 0 comment

people never change… what’s the point in hoping?

by katiebear12 8/15/2014

written by katiebear12

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=TXIP6DHrc2I

Everywhere I turn, I find someone who I think is going to treat me different, like I’m a person and not an object to be used. But they all turn out the same. All but one person, who I’m so scared that I’ll lose I begged them not to ever leave me on multiple occasions.

I’m all broken and hurt and I think I’d rather be dead right now than feel this. I’m not saying I’m wanting to die, but it was an observation. Why is love and friendship not easy to come by? It seems as if no one wants me for who I […]

8/15/2014 11 comments

I need there to be something wrong with me

by broken-notes 8/14/2014

written by broken-notes

I am not depressed. Or so I’m told anyway. Great stuff. Except that doesn’t relieve the crushing weariness which makes everyday life unbearable.
Aparently I cannot be depressed as my semi conscious, morose state isnt constant. No, I have days of energetic, paranoid agitation; bizarre periods of un-lucidity in which nothing seems as real as it should and believe it or not, some days of relative normality. Unfortunately however, accordong to some of the small army of doctors ive seen, the presence of these other states exempts me from any kind of medical inerest or help. They were not […]

8/14/2014 3 comments

Back, after 2 years…

by katiebear12 8/12/2014

written by katiebear12

I’m back, again. Most of you don’t remember me. It’s been 2 years since I last posted. Time has not been easy on me. I have a lot of changes, big changes coming up in my life in the next couple of weeks. Already, I have gone through several big ones, like losing many friends and my therapist, who were the only people I had to support me. Now I’m down to one friend that is constantly there for me, though he has major problems of his own. I feel like I’m losing every single thing that means something to me in my life.

My 18th […]

8/12/2014 9 comments

It’s not okay, and that’s okay.

by iamsamijo 8/6/2014

written by iamsamijo

One year ago today I was faced with the most difficult task I’ve ever had to do in my 21 years. With the help of amazing men in my life, I checked myself into the hospital for 8 days where I was diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 Depression. Following those days, I began a long road of outpatient therapy. I learned to value myself, to care for others in ways that would no longer hurt me, and to believe in what I have. I made some incredible friends along the way. This adorable kid we call “Ducky” gave me hope when I walked into the […]

8/6/2014 12 comments

suicide, but not yet

by yagharek 8/5/2014

written by yagharek

Sometimes I think I was born suicidal. No idea whether or not that’s actually possible, but I was certainly born … damaged. I’m choosing my words carefully, I don’t know how much I want to say yet.

But yes. Born damaged and then damaged a whole lot more in various ways.

I made one serious attempt many years ago and one that turned out farcical a few years ago and now … now I am sure of many more things and so I have some leeway, when the damage allows it.

Perhaps I will have time to write the longest suicide note in the world and then, I […]

8/5/2014 5 comments

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