this might be my last post in this website. I want to suicide today because I’m tiered of everything I tried to survive but I can’t NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME. I hate everyone I hate my parents , my self everyone. I just want to say thank you to everyone who tried to help me
I remember the day I found out I could actively take my life. It was the first time I realized I could die. It was freshman year. Two kids died that year. I knew them both fairly well. I guess that’s when it all really started. I knew I wasn’t like everyone else, but it seemed okay. I thought I would grow out of it. I didn’t.
I remember the day my life changed forever. I found my birthfather, or rather he found me. I made the mistake of meeting him. I remember shortly after my adopted dad found out he had a daughter much older […]
finally my death comes, my breathing is really bad again…
these are my last word in this site… I need to write something for my family too, I want to thank them for everything… bye…
thanks everyone…
My Name Is: Inuk ***** goodbye…
Unlike most of the people here, I am undecided on whether I want to end my life. It is definitely at the forefront of my mind, but I don’t think I want the finality. But I know that I cannot continue on with life as it is. Circumstances, however, mean that I can’t change it.
I am a single mother to a 3 year old boy, whose dad has minimal contact. Recently, I’ve been finding myself sleeping with just about any man who will take an interest just for a bit of affection, after many major rejections from men this year, and to patch up the hurt […]
Why can’t i be like all the other girls? Why do i have to try to be perfect when everyone else is? What’s wrong with me? Was I a fuck up, an accident? Why am I even here?
I want to just let everyone on SP know that I’m so thankful for you all! We’re all on the same boat and it’s nice to not feel so alone sometimes. I don’t feel crazy here, love ya’ll. xoxo
I can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t need to do this anymore. So why don’t I just leave, everyone hates me. I’m worthless and pointless so why don’t I just end my life while I still ge the chance
My disappointment has now boiled down to an unending hate towards everyone. I sincerely hate everyone around me, of course including me. People around seem to give me so much pseudo comfort that I’ve grown tired of it. So what if I am miserable?My brother’s friends’ girlfriend exclaimed to my brother ” Oh your poor sister!She must have been so depressed. Hasn’t passed that exam for these many years.” I don’t even know that ***** in person and she’s around giving butt hurt comments about me. This should pretty much sum up how judgmental are the people who exist in the […]
I really wish I was never born.. nothing I do is worth anything. I cant make anyone hapoy and everything and everyone I come in contact with turns to shit. I just want it all to end. Realisticly it would be better for everyone in my pathetic life.. I just cant deal with the disappointment I cause everyone. My wife and kids would do better without me……
the shrink doesn’t think there is anymore drug wise he can do for me. he doesn’t think my depression is a chemical imbalance . so as of today i have stopped taking my meds. he doesn’t know this. i guess he will figure it out when i stop seeing him. from my research it seems i will be in for a hell of a ride. oh well. doesn’t sound like any of it will be lethal but one can hope. maybe the only thing it will accomplish is to clarify my desire to be dead. been thinking about it hard and heavy. haven’t procured the […]
I keep getting these constant fears that im going to end up all alone and it seems like it might be true.in 10 years will my parents even be alive and were will I be if there not here to take care of me.im going completely insane cause Ive never worked.i don’t do college . I’ve never been in a relationship nor is anyone even remotely interested in me.no kids.im disabled I want to die but am a coward who cant find the strength to jump off a bridge and the only other thing ive ever tried is overdose . everyone says im doing well […]
I’m tired of being uncomfortable in my own skin. Of being embarrassed of who I am. Pulling everyone down. I’m a waste of space. Everyone moves on. So why can’t I just do it? Step in front of that truck or swallow the pills?
by some garden hoes yesterday keep an eye on your local hoes everyone
I made one of these yesterday, and I thank everyone on here for being so supportive. But, it’s really gotten to me now, I have a suicide plan. I’m going to get a bottle of my heart medication and take it all. I’m probably going to do it before Christmas. I know I shouldn’t and that there is help out there for people like me. I guess I’m just not sure if I want help anymore. I mean, there is always going to be someone who hates me for being me, right? How am I supposed to know I will find someone else like me anyways? That I […]
Can’t sleep
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So many Fucking thoughts about stupid fucking bull shit that I shouldn’t even give a fuck about but I do because that’s me and I’m a fucking idiot and I do whatever the fuck my mind tells me because I don’t know how to fucking tell it no… NO!!NO!!NO!!
Why does nothing ever fucking work out?!?! Why is everyone so fucked over in life?! Why do the ass holes and dick fucks get away with everything and the nice people get stuck with the shitty end of the fucking stick!!!! Omg!!!! Fucking shoot me I’m so tired […]
I am here just to ask one simple thing for the ones who’ve tried it. Can we live (if not happily,somehow keep breathing without killing oneself ) all alone? I mean by isolating oneself from everyone we know. Is it worth living or breathing would just be a waste of time? Going to a far off distance,leaving everyone behind and off to such a place where nobody knows you. Just to earn your bread and somehow live.I am a girl from the eastern part of the world so my problem wouldn’t make sense to most of you. All my life people have compared me with […]
Well, what can I say? I’m actually quite surprised that I’m actually still here today. I used to cut, and I believe I’m one year clean as of yesterday. When I’m at school, it’s as if everyone wants me gone. But when I come online, it’s like everyone in the whole technical universe loves me for who I am, and that’s probably the whole reason I’m still here, because of internet people. You guys are the best, and always make my day. Whether it be by cracking a joke, or telling an awesome story! (: I thank you guys for that. I look forward to each […]
It’s not like I think everyone hates me although I have never been loved by anyone except the people that are obligated to do so. We can’t choose our family someone once told me. If we could…would I have been chosen at all? I know that my absence will be a momentary sadness. I have been alone for so long. Fading in between the lines of their book. Into the crowd, just a forgotten ghost. I don’t even know how to handle company outside of family. Before it perturbed me deeply. But now I prefer to be alone. It is safe, predictable even if the […]
Do you ever feel like you have no reason for being. Almost like you were just left on earth to wonder why you have to live in the first place.
I mean I have tried to feel like everyone happy like things are simple, but WHY i mean I tried college I try to work hard and it almost seems people
go out of their way just to make you feel like shit. Then you find one thing to hold onto and it becomes toxic like helping family or friends. you put your heart and soul into trying to be level headed and peaceful for them and […]
I have so many things to do this week and I’m having trouble bringing myself to do them. I’m just focusing on how shitty I’ve been feeling these past few days. How do I snap out of it? I thought I was feeling better yesterday or at least beginning to feel better but I guess I wasn’t because now it’s coming all back. I can’t afford to feel this way right now. I feel like most of the time I try to suppress how I feel because I always have something to do. Something is always due, and I always have some sort of exam […]