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A burden to everyone.

by thesmithsx 6/20/2014

written by thesmithsx

This is my first post on here… i kinda just wanted to vent everything.

In short, i’m a complete fuck up. I feel like i’m one huge disappointment to my family and friends. Especially my family. I feel like they expected me to be like my two sisters, but of course i’m the odd one out. I’m 19 years old, for as long as i can remember i’ve always been known to be the ‘rebellious’ one, i guess.
I feel as though i’m constantly disappointing and hurting everyone around me, and i truly hate it. I’ve done things i’m ashamed of, things i would never tell […]

6/20/2014 4 comments

The Actual Truth About My Life

by AKidWithAName 6/20/2014

written by AKidWithAName

Maybe suicide is the solution. Everyone always says it’s not, but nobody but me is actually worthless. Every other person in this world has worth and I can see that in them. But then, I look at me and I see nothing but worthlessness. I am not worth anything to anyone and if you don’t know me, you can’t say that “you would be sad if I died”, because I can guarantee that if you met me, you would think I am annoying, stupid, worthless, ugly, etc. Everyone else always has. you don’t have to deny it. There’s […]

6/20/2014 8 comments

Hi there I am 19 years of age…

by whydontidie 6/19/2014

written by whydontidie

Hi there I am 19 years of age I have suffered from depression since I was younger then 10 but I always could turn to my dad always knew what to do but he died when I was 11 and I just went worse ever since I have tried to kill my self countless times and so has others I’m hated by everyone including my family I should of died I have over dosed at 13 ended up in hospital kidney trouble I have cut my self tried to slit my neck few months after got caught knife got taken I tried hanging myself some […]

6/19/2014 3 comments

Euthanasia Cruises

by nozmoking 6/16/2014

written by nozmoking

An old acquaintance of mine used to have a radio show and once in a while he would pull off a fake commercial and let the audience vote on whether or not they thought it was legit. One of my favorites was “Euthanasia Cruises”. For $2500 you could book passage on a luxury ocean liner that sailed out past the 20 mile limit. Then the passengers could do whatever they wanted for three days and nights – eat, drink, do drugs, have sex with each other – whatever they felt like doing and as much as they wanted. Then after the three days everyone gets […]

6/16/2014 3 comments

One phone call.

by what am i doing on this website? 6/16/2014

written by what am i doing on this website?

I was sitting on my porch when my phone rang. It was my friend Mel calling. I could already hear in her voice she wasn’t okay. She said to me. ” am sorry I haven’t been in touch, it’s just that my depression has gotten worst and I had taken in. I got super skinny and been going to doctor allot and they are still running some test. It is just that I have been so ALONE…. And I have tried killing myself a couple of times. “. I felt Horrible. Little did she know I was cutting myself just the week before. And […]

6/16/2014 0 comment

Going tonight

by almp 6/16/2014

written by almp

I was doing great for about a year. Started seeking PTSD treatments but unfortunately not a lot can be done at this point. So I’m taking my life tonight.

I tried my hardest and had a good run. See you in hell.

Good luck to everyone else on here. Live like I couldn’t.

I’m out. 🙂

6/16/2014 3 comments

idk…

by supermajor03 6/15/2014

written by supermajor03

it’s so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself. its not a mental thing– its a physical thing. it is physically hard to open your mouth and talk. the words come out like your retarded and you just cant do anything about it. we were born to die, right? so i might as well just end it now… its crazy how this world can be so confusing. i try to be someone im not so people love me… i fake a smile so people dont question me. i pretend that it doesnt hurt but in reality im in so much pain its crazy. […]

6/15/2014 1 comment

why can i see beauty in everyone but myself?

by julia â™¥ 6/13/2014

written by julia â™¥

6/13/2014 7 comments

Thighs

by Lacie1223 6/13/2014

written by Lacie1223

I stared at my wrists,

Thin, pale scars stared back.

I promised everyone I would quit,

Mainly so they would leave me alone.

Words running through my mind.

Words carved on my arms.

Hate, ugly, fat, unloved.

The words that made me feel so small,

Permanently carved into my skin.

Everyone thinks I’m doing better,

that all the harsh words have stopped.

But they haven’t.

Everyone thinks I’ve stopped cutting,

But no one ever checks thighs.

6/13/2014 0 comment

why me

by jessica_lea 6/13/2014

written by jessica_lea

Why was I the sperm that won?

Maybe if it were not me they would be happy

Maybe then, they would care

Maybe then, they would be able to love each other

Maybe them I am the reason

Maybe im the reason my mum and dad fight

I am not what everyone expect

I am not there little angel

I am a devil indisguise

I am the reason you cry

I do not like rules

I do not like structure

I like being me

However, you do not see

You love to control

You want me to do well

You do not understand I want to be me

You love to know what I do

However, If I told you wouldnâ€™t believe

You do […]

6/13/2014 0 comment

Painting

by Lacie1223 6/13/2014

written by Lacie1223

Shattering heart,

Wounded soul.

How would she deal,

With all of this pain?

Wrists flowing red,

Mind screaming thoughts.

You’veÂ never heard a story,

Quiet like this.

She loved to draw,

And she loved to paint.

But, she used the wrong materials,

AndÂ it was all to late.

Her pen was a razor.

And her canvas,

Her wrist.

Her canvas was covered,

But she wasn’t finished yet.

Her canvas switched,

From her wrist to her thigh.

She wanted to keep drawing,

To show everyone her pain.

The drawings were getting deeper,

She was nearing the end.

She wanted someone to find her,

With her drawings on her skin.

6/13/2014 2 comments

Happiness

by sunflower 6/12/2014

written by sunflower

i see everybody moving on, everyone whos left me. everyone who was important to me. and i have moved on too maybe physically but not mentally. i still long for those people for the talk for the closeness for the laughs for being in their presence. Some im glad have moved on the ones who were negative mean nasty but it seems as though they are happy… Â then why cant i be happy. fully completely. there always seems to be something. And although Â seeing the people i once considered friends, lovers, family happy should make me happy as well there is a twinge of sadness […]

6/12/2014 2 comments

Anxiety

by zeropercent 6/11/2014

written by zeropercent

I used to be a lively person. I remember it vividly when I was younger I was always happy when asked about where would I be when I’m older and those similar questions. It was the downfall of me when I failed the entrance exam into the most prestigious high school in my town. I always had a high expectation strolling right behind me and my parents. I expected myself to be able to do just about anythingÂ I could imagine of doing.

But reality hits me rock-hard. I wasn’t accepted into the school that my sister went to. My parents claimed that they’re okay with the […]

6/11/2014 2 comments

I dunno.

by lifenevermattered 6/11/2014

written by lifenevermattered

I just started this thing tonight. I needed a place away from everyone else. A place I could hopefully make someone understand but at the same time I hope no one does ya know? People shouldn’t have to understand what this feeling is. It nags at me constantly. Maybe I’m different from everyone else on here and maybe not. I dunno. Don’t care either. I wanted to kill myself when I was 30. That was a year ago but my roommate’s dad died a week before and with my horrible sense of obligation I tried to stay and help. But now? Now I’m feeling that […]

6/11/2014 2 comments

Out on a Suicide Walk

by towerdawg 6/10/2014

written by towerdawg

Damn it, here I am again. Tired of life and everyone in it. Just took a walk to the highway. Kind of empty this time of night. Sort of like me. Anyway, I guess I am living for another day. Living on borrowed time.

6/10/2014 0 comment

pointlessness

by robertpaulson 6/9/2014

written by robertpaulson

So, I’ve been spending the past 5 years of my life on a steady downward spiral. I can’t hold a job more than a year. Failed out of college, failed with relationships with both sexes, and destroyed my credit. I feel like everything I touch dies. I can’t get anything right, and its been that way my entire life. I’m at the point that I really don’t see the point in continuing to be another uncontributing wasted resource in the world. I keep thinking I should pull the plug on it. I can’t really shake it. Have you ever felt like you were destined to […]

6/9/2014 2 comments

What is this all about

by bloo d y 6/9/2014

written by bloo d y

Why don’t people want me to just end it. They call me selfish (and there right) or cry, when I think suicidally, or act on those thoughts, but why am I wanted hear on the first place I make all of there lives harder, all I do is hold people back, according to my beliefs, after death there is less than nothing your dead, there is no mire contious you, no heaven, no hell, just gone. And, that seems like an escape to me, everyone always says death is painfull, and I’m shure it is, when I almoast diced from ODing on PAIN MEDS of […]

6/9/2014 0 comment

I’m honestly not sorry.

by Arandomyoyoer 6/8/2014

written by Arandomyoyoer

Iâ€™m not sorryâ€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦…

This is more or less a Â suicide note that will never be read because Iâ€™m a ***** to put it simply.

But if I ever grow the balls to correct the mistake God, nature or what ever brought me made. But I wanted to finish this shindig on a high note.

And this is quite possible the first and last time Iâ€™ll ever mean this sentence.

Iâ€™m not sorry.

To the wonderful father I have and the mother that was never bad but I always resented.

Iâ€™m not sorry.

To my amazing family I do nothing but complain about because I can only hate someone who values me over […]

6/8/2014 2 comments

Nice teeth

by Phil McLoven 6/7/2014

written by Phil McLoven

Do you ever get the urge to spontaneously start dancing because the joy you feel is so overwhelming? There’s a song playing in your head, you’re beautiful, everyone loves you, andÂ your future is sure to be awesome?

Does that ever happen to you?

6/7/2014 55 comments

Alone

by weareinfinite_13 6/6/2014

written by weareinfinite_13

I used to be popular. Grades and everything was perfect. But the girls I considered my friends weren’t friends at all. They bullied me and I let it go on for quite some time. Ripping my journals, calling me names, making fun of the way I dress, spreading rumor, making me cry, and laughing at my failures. That’s when I ended my friendship with them. It just became worse. I started talking to new people, making new friends and they started making and spreading rumors to them about me in an attempt to stop then from talking to me. I became friends with a couple […]

6/6/2014 2 comments

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