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Coward

by LastLullaby 10/5/2012

written by LastLullaby

I’ve gone through this site a bit.

I decided to join because it looks like there’s some hints of people succeeding.

I’ve never managed to complete an exit. I’ve tried to overdose, and hang myself, but somewhere along the way I get scared- I text someone I know in the back of my mind will come, or call someone who will. Someone who will talk me out of it and take care of me for a while.

Last time I overdosed I was Â stuck in kid mode. For a month my boyfriend got me dressed in the morning, made me eat breakfast, walked me to my lectures to […]

10/5/2012 4 comments

Going Coo Coo

by anthropophobia 9/22/2012

written by anthropophobia

I am 23 years old. Â I am a new to this forum. Â The reason I joined is because I feel relentlessly hopeless like all of you. Â I feel I no longer have an escape. Â I have burned all my previous ties with my family and friends, and I have not had a social life in over 2 years. In fact, I do not even leave the house anymore. Â I am alone, in debt, and miserably empty.

In High school I had an extremely fruitful social life. Â At the age of 18 I was slowly covered by a blanket of Â torturous anxiety. The anxiety is strictly social. […]

9/22/2012 4 comments

Why am I still here?

by Need2Vent 9/15/2012

written by Need2Vent

I actually know why I’m still here… it’s because I’m really too scared to kill myself. Â But even though I have a daughter and husband and family and friends who all love me, I’m suffering. Â I’m suffering a lot and I don’t want to continue to suffer the rest of my life. Â How is it considered selfish of ME to want to end my suffering, but not of THEM to want to keep me around for no good reason other than they want me here. Â And I don’t even know why they want me. Â I’m not a great parent (she’s 3 and I can’t even […]

9/15/2012 3 comments

by ket 9/10/2012

written by ket

this is to all who are considering suicide…please don’t do it, there is so much help for you out there and you can feel happy. my mom had attempted to commit suicide about 5 months ago and i still cannot sleep alone, i have visions at night, and my anxiety is through the roof. something like this cannot be forgotten, your family and friends will be forever scarred, and so will you. i know you may be struggling to the extreme right now but there is so much hope, soo much. please don’t do it, please. <3

9/10/2012 3 comments

My plan

by chhris89 9/10/2012

written by chhris89

Okay. Hi. I don’t know what posting here will do, I think I’d just like to share my thoughts on this somewhere. I’ll cover the steps I’ve taken, the thoughts I’ve idled over and my plan.

For my own reasons (which I won’t share, I’m not here to do that) I have decided that I am going to die. I’ve put a lot of thought into this, and death, and am okay with that decision. It has been in the works for a number of years. I have doubts, which I’ll cover, because anyone who can say they’re facing a big decision with no doubt is […]

9/10/2012 8 comments

i cant take the hurt

by 911 8/29/2012

written by 911

i have never been the one to believe in suicide, but the feeling of this hurt is overwhelming. its almost like i cant breathe. im a 30ish something female, and i have a great career, children, family and friends. my husband left me earlier this year and my entire life was flipped upside down. i never saw it coming. i later found out that he was indulging in activities with another female. i was a good wife and my family is everything to me. i didnt do anything to deserve this. i dont eat, i have taken time off of […]

8/29/2012 6 comments

My failure to die

by Blackart13 8/15/2012

written by Blackart13

hey guys just joined up, my story is about my failure to die.
it doesn’t begin in any fancy way, just with a girl, why is it always a girl? it’s been 10 years since i fell in love with her, both of us were nine years old at the time. but there never seemed like a time for us. for years we remained friends, best friends, but as close as we were it just never happened, i could never say how i felt. then she started seeing those guys, just in it for her looks and her body. she was clever enough never to […]

8/15/2012 1 comment

pain… everything hurts, every single memory, each word, all my love gone forever and my life going to waste.

by sowhat 8/11/2012

written by sowhat

Don’t wanna breathe anymore, don’t want to think anymore, don’t wanna spend the rest of my life missing the good times, don’t wanna have a life without my family and friends, Don’t wanna have this life, some days life feels just like a sickness and death seems to be the only cure…Fucking life worth less than nothing.Â

8/11/2012 2 comments

Thinking

by lost eyes 7/16/2012

written by lost eyes

The thought of death sometimes gives me this warm tingly feeling inside. The thought of never having to worry about my life, or about what I am going to do with my life gives me a high. I look at knives and I cant help but pickÂ one up…….I run my finger over the blade to feel how sharp it is,Â As I do that I think what would happen to my family? my friends? my boyfriend? Would I be selfish for leaving this world and leaving them behind? The pain of knowing how much it would hurt others is more painful than actually being here. I […]

7/16/2012 1 comment

I am all out of everything

by ImfeelingNumb 7/12/2012

written by ImfeelingNumb

I never thought I’d ever contemplate Â ending it all. Â Even when I had to deal with tough times before, I knew things would get better.

Now, I finally understand why people feel this way. This time, my problems are so unbelievably Â bad that I just don’t see a way out of this. None of my options are good. No matter what I do, my life is already Â too fucked up.

I can’t go back, I am dying in my current situation, and it’s the only two choicesi have. Because of love, I gave up everything I had and was, and now I’m stuck in a country I […]

7/12/2012 9 comments

Hypocrites

by Kristina 7/5/2012

written by Kristina

I hate being one, and I’m sure you do too. But you know, sometimes it can’t be helped.

I see people struggling to get through life, and I try to help them. I tell them it will get better. I try to give them hope.

But you know, I don’t feel that way. I refuse for people to get close to me because I’m a worthless *****. I’ve given up hope. I don’t think it will ever get better.

Of course, being the hypocrite I am, I will say that all I want to do is die, but I don’t want you to because […]

7/5/2012 0 comment

I can’t cope

by Crazypandachick 6/27/2012

written by Crazypandachick

I am writing this not so much so people can comment, but because I know writing it down makes it a little easier and I find it alot easier to show/talk about this to strangers rather than feeling like I’m a nuisance to my friends. Also, I’m just going to stick to the main events, seeing as the others aren’t that important.

Last year I had a suicidal friend. He was like a brother to me and after the first time he told me he felt suicidal, I could tell the signs for the future. When I could see the signs or if he told me […]

6/27/2012 2 comments

Just another bad day

by c0029 6/20/2012

written by c0029

So, I get annoyed when people complain about how much their life sucks, but hey this what this website is for right?
Okay so i’ve been struggling with depression for a long time , around 5 years or so. I’m 19 now but even when I was 13 and 15 i would get in these slumps, especially when I was 15 since my entire school hated me and I just kept fucking up with my family and things.
I always felt like i was missing something.. Me and my family didn’t always get along but we do now. No one I know has ever known […]

6/20/2012 1 comment

The Right to Die

by axjb9 6/9/2012

written by axjb9

Whenever I read about suicide, including on this site, there is usually a page that tries to talk others out of suicide. Of course, I understand that suicide can be really traumatic for the deceased person’s loved ones. But that argument assumes that a person has close relations with family and friends. If you do not (and some of us don’t) then your passing won’t be deeply felt by anyone.

Secondly, if you have family and friends and you are suffering and you reach out to them and they do nothing, then you’ve done your job. You’ve made others aware of how you feel and they […]

6/9/2012 6 comments

the end of my rope, as it were

by p. 6/4/2012

written by p.

honestly.

i cannot live this way, with my mind battering me into constant disintigration.

i am living for the peace of mind of my loved ones.Â they’d be destroyed if i killed myself.Â or so they say.Â i think that they’d be shocked (by the unexpectedness of exactly when it’ll happen) and saddened, then grieve, then pick up and continue on with their lives.Â with what they consider to be life.

my life cannot continue like this.Â i am finished.Â i am exhausted.

depression kills.Â put your family and friends on notice: this disease must be *taken seriously*.Â we can never ‘pull ourselves up’, ‘snap out of it’…Â if […]

6/4/2012 2 comments

Addiction and his name

by blind.cinderella 5/18/2012

written by blind.cinderella

I can’t stop thinking about him. I really can’t control it anymore. To be in love with a person who is partly responsible for the biggest and ugliest scar on my hand, the other part is me. I know the world is laughing at me along with him but i can’t stop.

I tried to hate him instead but after couple of days he would do something nice, just a small gesture and i would forgive him and pretend we are starting all over again as friends. I am aware of all the lies, his twisted personality, and self-destruction. I also know he doesn’t give a […]

5/18/2012 5 comments

I lack the ability to be persistent,so it’s the end of the line.

by jackraiden 5/14/2012

written by jackraiden

Up till now, i have always tried to change my life.

I have tried to be consistent, in everything but failed..in everything.

Everything i try from losing weight to even brushing my teeth ends up not being done, and im sick of it, im sick of it all, life is a god damn chore that i don’t want to join, its sucks,i have no one else that understands me, no one, all i have are idiots around me, my family and friends will never understand me and how painful it is thinking this way, getting up to wash your face feels like climbing a mountain.

I will never […]

5/14/2012 4 comments

A checklist, before you go….

by j3ff 5/5/2012

written by j3ff

I am no expert on suicide.Â I found this site tonight because of an article I read, that caused me to do a google search on exit bags to find out more, as I did not even know they existed.Â Â I am not a person even contemplating suicide.

After reading some stories here on this site, which honestly horrified me.Â I felt the need to try to post something that may help some people in some way.

I am not against suicide in any way.Â After watching both my parents die from lung cancer and how horrible it was, I kinda wish they had chosen to do […]

5/5/2012 11 comments

My anticipated Letter.

by twoheadedgirlpttwo 5/3/2012

written by twoheadedgirlpttwo

To all who’ve loved me.

i leave this is in wake of my soul, as it has left my body.

I give you my utmost apologies, that i know will never suffice for the loss or troubles i’ve given you, in my life and in my suicide. I would not leave a note if it weren’t for the urge i feel even now to assure you that it was by nothing you’ve done, that i’m leaving my life this way. To my family and friends find solace in the fact that were it not for you, i would not have even made it this long. You loved […]

5/3/2012 3 comments

Don’t Do It.

by NinyLynnAlpha 4/24/2012

written by NinyLynnAlpha

I’m thirteen. I’ve been a cutter since I was eleven. Today, I was going to commit suicide because I was tired of the constant pain and the drama with my family and friends and everything else. Only five people know I cut. My ex Â andÂ four of my friends. I told one of them this morning that it may be the last time they talk to me and that if there was anything they wanted me to know, to tell me now. They replied back with a three page text about what their life would be like without me. It got me really thinking. I paid […]

4/24/2012 8 comments

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