I am 15 I have sucky grades I broke up with my girlfriend she’s a cheating liar my family is anti gay my sister says I’m cutting for attention and I have no real support no way to kill myself no hope
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I’m 15 going on 16 I had a girlfriend we broke up because she’s a cheat my family is mean about gay situation my sister and I fought physically I realized cutting may not be for my I have sucky grades no love I want to die but I can’t the only suicide method in my house is a plastic bag or razor blade I’ve lost hope :(d
As a kid growing up, I didn’t grow up happy. The pain I go through everyday of my life does not equal to the average kid today or even less. My biological father was my everything to me when I was young. He was the only person I look up to. We weren’t close, but he was the one in my life that gave me hope and happiness. Around the age of five, I was oblivious to see our family problems. I had no idea what was going on. My father told me in the midst of my sleep that he loved me, that he […]
I’d like to reconsider my life. Find someone that I could speak to, someone that I could really pour my soul out to. I need someone that will care for me, caress me, hold me when I’m crying. Not a guidance councillor, not my parents or family, but someone.. A stranger. A stranger that understands. A stranger that will wipe away the drops of water rolling down my cheek. A stranger that will love me. A stranger that will not leave me stranded in a room full of depression. I need someone to look at me in the eyes, and tell me that I’m beautiful.
I am […]
I have been in this depressed state for as long as I can imagine. I am now 20 years old and have been feeling hopeless ever since I was about 11 or 12. I’ve hated my life since then and nothing has gone right for me. This is the first time on this, making this my first post. I have had such a lonely life for as long as I can imagine and I’ve never felt worse than I do now.
I am basically the black sheep of my entire family. I do not talk to anyone, no on invites me to anything (from my cousins), […]
I lived in a broken family. Divorced parents, lots of fights, my mom and brother didn’t get a long, never-ending shouting, crying and screaming. I tried not to say a word, to appear strong, to not make things worse. For years since I was in primary school I felt alone and longed for love. I felt broken inside, so broken to the point that I feel numb and empty, I had to cut myself just to feel again. To feel anything, to remind me that I can feel pain, and I’m still living. The blood trickling down my skin to the bathroom floor somehow calms […]
Hello,
I am a girl that now lives a life like any other citizen and do not have any particular horrible family problem — so far, at least. But I have kept on noticing how my brother seems to be mistreated in the house, as I on the other hand kept on being spoiled and cooed with by my parents. I keep thinking it’s very, very unfair for me to have such attention and for him to always be frowned at.
What makes me think he is mistreated is because every single time he voices his opinions, my father and mother both would reply with […]
So, I know many of us were not able to complete uni/college and some of us are busy in the middle of doing so. Well, I am from a different end of the spectrum and am in a position I never thought any one could be in…I finished my bachelors, in my final year I had a very severe mental break down yet still managed to pass (albeit at the bear minimum).
So whats the problem, you may be wondering? Well, you see…I don’t remember anything from my degree. I literally (I’m not making this up) know nothing. Might as well not have done it. Yep […]
I have never felt like I belonged. I’m different. I’m not weird or anything but I have no interests in life. I never have. I have always felt alone even when I’m with somebody. I stay here because I have responsibilities. Everyday I come closer to just ending it all. I have bad days and then I have really bad days. Nobody understands me, so I pretend to be content with my life to make it easier on my family. Inside I’m dying. I’m suffering. Life wasn’t meant to be lived by me I have known this since I was 12. I am not meant […]
O.k. guys. I have been in a relationship with a woman who has some serious emotional disabilities. Things get heated frequently and I have become very abusive. Luckily for her she left 2days ago. We have been raising our kids together so I have lost a son as well. The house is full of her possessions, presence, and memories. I find myself staring at her empty spot in our bed and i have begun sleeping with her pajamas in my hands. I have no help with bills. Its looking hopeless and the pain is overwhelming. All I know how to be is a family man […]
The people on this site are really nice, but when you have a problem, that when you tell someone, no matter how nice they are, they will judge you in disgust and hate you, what do you do? If someone found out, I’d be immediately hospitalized and possibly arrested. I am so scared of being hospitalized again. I was hospitalized once a couple years ago from midnight to 4:30 AM. Worst few hours of my life. Also, I wouldn’t want my family to get upset over this, because I’d just be the family problem again, and if they knew, they’d hate me too. It’s not […]
I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant, I’m only 19, turning 20 in the 7th month of the year. The guy that I may be pregnant by is not the best, but I cant help that. I told my mom and siblings I think I’m pregnant, my mama did not freak out, nor did my sister or little brother, but my older brother told me he’s gonna kill my child if I am. I know I might be young but if I am pregnant the last thing I wanna do is kill it or have it killed by someone else. I actually want a kid and it […]
I have made my mind up and have a date picked out, contacted social security to get things in line for my daughters and will write my note to my family tomorrow. All I wanted was to be a father to my kids and my ex wives stole that from me, without my kids I have nothing. I have been physically abused my whole life so I am use to this, death will finally bring me peace. Less than 10 days to get everything in order with the bank and aquire my stuff for my way out. Still trying to decide on the place so […]
I’m not sure if I’m depressed or I’m just feeling the blues. I am sad, but nothing traumatic or stressful has happened in my life. I deal with constant thoughts of suicide, but I know that my family would be devastated if I died. My mother already deals with anxiety, and a couple of people have killed themselves in my family. But I’m not experiencing weight loss or gain, and my sleeping patterns have not changed. I feel this big sense of hopelessness and pessimism, and people have told me that I’m very emotional and sensitive (although I try not to be).
Hello,
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. My upbringing was not the best. My childhood consist of homelessness, molestation and verbal abuse. I fought very hard in my childhood, as well as my teenage years to become successful. I kept telling myself, if I worked hard one day I would have a family of my own. Deep down, I knew that I had depression and anxiety. I thought that I would have time to address these concerns at a later date.
I managed to make my way through college. Still living in isolated life and fearful of relationships with others.
Over this last year, […]
Does anyone else just feel like running? Running away from home or from life. I thought I was getting better, but I was wrong, last night I had thousands of very familiar thoughts – stabbing, overdosing, jumping….thoughts that I thought were all in my past. I thought of it kind of differently this time though. I would be missed by my family sure, but then I thought that maybe they would be better off without me. That their lives would be so much easier without me. I make too much trouble here, I fight with my mother all the time, which then affects everyone else, […]
I can’t kill myself because it would destroy my family, but I don’t want to live. My mother died 6 weeks ago. It occurred to me then that I might be free to end my life, as I have thought about doing for a long time. She was the main reason I could not kill myself, because I believed that doing so might literally kill her as well. Now that she’s gone, though, I look at my sisters and see how much they depend on me and each other, and I still can’t do it. I have a good family. I can’t act on these […]
If you’re still out there, check your post from 12-12-14 for a comment from wth_ami that he added on 12-31-14. You and I seem to be “in the same place” and his comment applies to us both. I hope you are still with us, and just haven’t been posting. Its strange that I don’t care what happens to me, but after all you have apparently done for your family and country, I think your death would be a tragic waste. If anyone else has had contact with rea3366 can you post some info?
Maybe this is my suicide note, maybe it’s not. I don’t know yet. I’m tired of feeling like there isn’t enough for me. I feel like I’m an accidental extra. I’m somebody’s mistake that they didn’t feel like taking care of. Almost 19 years ago two stupid idiot drug addicted teens decided they wanted a baby. 19 years later here I am wishing they hadn’t.
I will admit that right now there are a lot of things for me to be happy about.. but I think I’m too far gone. Too apathetic to them. It’s not enough. I try so hard to hold on to them. […]
My mom died just a couple of months ago in October. She was my best friend. I don’t have any other friends. Her absence leaves me feeling very alone in this world. I’ve been married for 12.5 years to someone who doesn’t seem to love me and it finally seems to be falling apart now. I need my mom more than ever. My oldest brother finds nothing but disappointment in me. My other brother would screw me over for an opportunity to help himself and his family. The only person on this earth now who loves me and would miss me is my teenage son. […]