I have made my mind up and have a date picked out, contacted social security to get things in line for my daughters and will write my note to my family tomorrow. All I wanted was to be a father to my kids and my ex wives stole that from me, without my kids I have nothing. I have been physically abused my whole life so I am use to this, death will finally bring me peace. Less than 10 days to get everything in order with the bank and aquire my stuff for my way out. Still trying to decide on the place so as to cause as little trauma as possible. I hope I can explaine my thoughts well enough to my family and children. I love my girls and I hope someday they will understand the reason this has to happen. Pray for my children may they find comfort and peace and always have the love they deserve as two little angles that blessed my life.
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Bro! Hang in there.
Your telling me, that because your wives “stole” your children, you are going to end your life, and “rob” your children of a father. That’s what I am reading. Your mind is not made up, it is clouded with darkness, confusion and frustration, it shall pass. Even if you couldn’t see your children until they were 18!!! You would still be apart of there life. How about when they are 28? 38? You want to miss decades of there lives because you can’t see them right now? Understand suicicde is not always successful, I am sure you don’t want your children visiting you in a mental hospital while your sitting in a wheel chair shitting into a plastic bag.
Take this time to heal yourself. Make your environment such as home and work comfortable. When the time comes, which it will, you and your children will be together. But you need to be healthy and comfortable my friend. Start that progress right now!
I hope that instead of ending everything, you will decide to continue on and fight not only for yourself, but your children as well. This doesn’t have to be the way things end. Best wishes.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
Please don’t do that! if my father had ever killed himself and left me and my siblings behind, I would find it very hard to wrap my head around it. Why would he do that? Does he not love me? Did he hate me that much? If you Leave, they are going to be left so confused at the whole situation and angry with you and themselves and jelous whenever they see other children with their fathers. You can get through this. Please. Hang in there.
Hey, fellow contemplator here…You kinda have it worse than me, and I’m sorry that life took what mattered most to you. To me, that’s a legitimate reason for suicide. I’ve only attempted once, and that was last year. The moments before you try to kill yourself are…unnerving. You’re scared of death, you’re scared of not knowing what’s going to happen to you when your heart stops beating. You’re scared of failing. It’s nothing but fear. I’m trying to learn how to detach myself from the fear, but in the end it’s still going to be me vs death. Still no matter what, you have the right to do whatever you want with your body. Life is not a choice, but death can be, and if you choose that, then there might be consequences in the afterlife. I wouldn’t worry because theoretically all suffering is temporary, but I wouldn’t know that for sure because I never died before. You have my support in whatever decision you make…I don’t judge. But you better know that those who love you aren’t going to take your suicide lightly. No matter what, I’m with you.