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for u nonfish

by shelleycakes 2/19/2013

written by shelleycakes

im from a little country in the caribbean. my whole life ive lived with terrible social anxiety. i shut down when i try to be around anyone. its prevented me from growing up and becoming anything. im 24 now.

when i was younger i got the chance to live in england w my aunt. she saw i had no life here with deadbeat family. i had dropped out of school and slept through the day.

years were difficult in england. my problems eventually got me sent back home.

i live now w my parents and every day is the same. i never go out and i dont have […]

2/19/2013 2 comments

stand in the corner amd scream with me..

by theworthless1 2/13/2013

written by theworthless1

I can’t stop listening to these songs.. they describe my pain my sadness my anger… The story of my end…

Mudvayne – scream with me

Ever feel like dying, Ever feel alone, Ever feel like crying, Lost child in a store, Ever feel life pushing, Shoving you away, Ever feel like breaking down, Funeral in the rain

Feel life slipping away, Stand in the corner and scream with me, A body full of empty, A head thats full of rage, Better belive it, Stand in the closet and scream with me A mind thats like a fire, Driven by the pain, Better believe it

Ever feel like lying, Down […]

2/13/2013 0 comment

How to get rid of the fear? via I need to man up.

by quickatrigga 2/7/2013

written by quickatrigga

I’ve been trying get the balls to commit suicide but there are so many things I am scared of before, during and after death.

For example:

-the pain

-grief of parents and family

-will it work?

-where i will go after?

My problems: Â (I don’t know why I’m telling you this) what can i say? I’m an attention-seeking fuckface.

-I’m fat and no muscle, only tall.

-bad childhood- divorce, no game with women, abused.

-Hatred towards women and have never had a real connection with a woman(hate mother, HATE)

-I’m broke, 18 years old but dad has no job and mom is a ***** about her money(she’s filthy rich)

-Overall, just tired of people telling me […]

2/7/2013 2 comments

No MoRe TeArS

by Nothin2Live4 1/23/2013

written by Nothin2Live4

The tears they fall unfiltered and pure
Pouring out pain that nothing can cure
Tumbling, cascading like the waterfall
The vivid mark of agony’s call
Those salty drops of feminine curse
Trapped under weight, day by day growing worse
no one to catch them, no one to see
No one else lost in this hell-hole but me
Screaming in terror at the walls closing in
Dropping to my knees, my head starts to spin
Feeling the rage within growing stronger
What in the hell have I done that’s so wrong?
The quickness of breath and tightness of chest
I have endured through it all, gave […]

1/23/2013 2 comments

The Sound of Insects

by sand_dude 1/20/2013

written by sand_dude

I recently watched a film called The Sound of Insects. The film really resonated with me because of the story it told. This guy was fed up with life, and he knew no body was going to come looking for him, so he disappeared into the woods and committed suicide by starvation. It took an enormous amount of will and the guy has to endure a lot of pain. He just sat there under a plastic sheet with a radio, a few books, and bed made of forest floor. I totally and completely felt for the guy, because I was the guy, to some extent […]

1/20/2013 3 comments

Let me fly

by drknght90 1/4/2013

written by drknght90

When I’m gone let my love carry on

Give it wings and let it fly
Help it change lives
I’ve given my all and have nothing left to give.

I’ve no regrets my only fault was not fighting hard enough
And holding on too loosely

Now I’m lost these demons have taken hold
They’re dragging me down into this hell of my own soul
Fuck I can’t get away

When I’m gone let my love carry on
Give it wings and let it fly
Help it change lives
I’ve given my all and have nothing left to give.

I’m alive ! It’s the biggest lie I’ve ever told myself! I died but I say I’m alive!
I’ve taken my […]

1/4/2013 1 comment

Is there anyone out there that gives a damn?

by Lonewolf421 12/29/2012

written by Lonewolf421

Well I’m 21 years old and seriously considering taking my life. I have no friends, have never had a relationship or even a chance to prove my worth to a girl. I stand alone day and night living this hell I call my life. I’m so depressed, frustrated and the feeling of hopelessness that washes over me is the worst. I feel as if this is it for me, this is going to be my life until they put me in the ground. The older I grow the more the loneliness and fear of being alone grows and it’s becoming a harsh realization that I […]

12/29/2012 7 comments

The Importance of One Second

by XxmagicianxX 12/21/2012

written by XxmagicianxX

In one second, a choice can be made to end someones life. In one second, somebody could be saved from an unfortunate death. In one second somebody could sell their life out to drugs, or someone could choose to reject the drugs. I one second, someone could take their own life, but in one second someone could stop them. All of our choices are made in one second, you’re mind is already made up even if you don’t know it. Fate is a tricky bastard, it let’s us think we’re in control, when it really is. It is unforgiving, and it’s partner is death. In […]

12/21/2012 2 comments

I’m not okay.

by leslieeeee 12/13/2012

written by leslieeeee

About 5 years ago my youngest sister was molested by my “mothers” husband. She was only 7 years old at the time and I was 11. As you could imagine I didn’t know what to think at the time. If the claim was true or not, I wasnt there. Of course she told her schools guidance counselor, she needed to tell someone. Next thing I knew, some lady from social services picked me up from school and not knowing what was going on I asked her if she knew. Til this day I really have no idea why she got all in my face about […]

12/13/2012 3 comments

another day.

by im-worthless 11/29/2012

written by im-worthless

another day and i feel just as worse as the day before.

i got up this morning and it took me like 5 minutes to realise where i am, who i am and take in my surroundings.

and when i finally do realise who i am and stuff i feel instantly like shit. Like completely empty. Like im walking around doing nothing.

My mind drifts towards the peace i might find if i leave this horrible world. i think about and i chicken out of it the more i think about it.

i love sleeping so much becuase it’s like being dead.

i know people might call me a lunatic […]

11/29/2012 9 comments

I’ve lived enough.

by Jrake 11/4/2012

written by Jrake

I’ve experienced all I need to now, I’ve loved, I’ve smiled, cryed and been torn apart. I’m ready to move on to the afterlife now, whats the point. I have no ambition or drive, or any passions, other then just being with a beautiful guy, but that will never happen, nobody cares for me or my tragic tale and says its a load of bullshit. Everyone these days are WAY WAY WAY WAY too different and freaky and it cause for way too many disagreements and incompatabilities! This world is officially FUCKED and I want out, now!! VERY soon, I will be heading to the […]

11/4/2012 0 comment

Tell me what’s need to hear

by Burning Ether 10/27/2012

written by Burning Ether

I want to give up I want to kill myself. I’ve worked out a couple of ideas jump from the story bridge, take all the pills I have (I’ve got about50) or/and hang myself. Jumping feels like the most reliable. Anyway can someone just tell me to give up, I’m sick of the supporting comments it stops me from acting on my impulses. So please if you’re going to comment tell me to end of everything. Tell me everything’s pointless. Tell me il be a failure and a nobody for the rest of my miserable life and I should accept my inevitable fate

10/27/2012 2 comments

a rant from a struggling introvert

by alteisen99 10/22/2012

written by alteisen99

since i’m already here might as well vent out a little bit. maybe some input may give me a bit more perspective instead of using the option of death to calm me down.

turned 24 last month, introverted, depressed for the past 10 years or so, finding it difficult fitting in the modern world and i find it difficult to connect with people and a deeper level. i feel so detached from everything and everyone. i’m more often than not, isolated from the “real” world and watching other people live their lives to the fullest is making me wonder why i can’t do the same thing. […]

10/22/2012 6 comments

by jael85 10/18/2012

written by jael85

My Night

I put the cold barrel in my mouth,
To quiet the screams that may come out.
My hands shakeÂ when the time nears,
As my eyes cry silent tears.
I can’t help, but think to say,
Will this reallyÂ be my last day?
I wanted to test fate with a littleÂ game…
Russian roulette, now that is a shame.
IÂ sought outÂ a sign to tell me to stay,
To keep on trying until my golden days.
Three out of five loaded, and ready to go
Two left out, now time for the show.
I pulled the trigger, and let out a small yell.
I was sure,Â right then,Â I had been sent straightÂ to hell.
As the minutes passed, I opened my eyes,
Life […]

10/18/2012 2 comments

I… am not… my hair.

by Oancu 10/15/2012

written by Oancu

Not many people know what it’s like to lose their hair.

As you age, you lose hair.Â When you get a haircut, you lose hair.Â I’m talking about a different kind.

It depresses me every time I move my head, wake up, shower…Â there are clumps of hair…Â everywhere.Â Falling out.Â My hair is dying to help keep me living.Â My hair could be dying, while I too, began to die.

If you put it into actuality, I’ve been dying for almost 3 years now, only now has it began to really come through.

I am dying, and I have accepted my fate.Â I have not accepted the fate […]

10/15/2012 4 comments

Fuck

by Janke23 10/8/2012

written by Janke23

I just want to know what I did to deserve such a shit life I mean why me. Is this fate or what the fuck is this bullshit.

10/8/2012 2 comments

Everlasting night

by Ishtar Goateye 10/6/2012

written by Ishtar Goateye

Oh , night you beautiful ,
when darkness is growing
over the Carpathians.
Eternal melody that awake
memories from past and dreams.

This is my deastiny â€“ darkness eternal

Cold night embrace me in her beauty ,
when freezing mist drift
over Transylvanian woods
that my body loses all senses.

Rain into the darkness falls like blood
from the sky on the cemetery where drain.
Eternity , ilusions and dreams –
recognize salvation.

Is light of life thet dying in me.
Is ice of sorrow the crystal in my eyes.

Fate of death and salvation tonight
I hear sing.

10/6/2012 2 comments

Insanity Bound â™¥

by Elly 9/29/2012

written by Elly

Wrapped in a catacomb, bound by my fears
Insanity knocks, as doomsday is near
I open the door, and let it walk in
To take me to ruins, to show me the end

Lucid at times, and fearing what’s next
But insanity reassures me, I’ll enjoy the big wreck
I’ll glow in the torment, that takes over my mind
And relish in darkness, that is so easy to find

I will walk in the pestialance, that grows oh so near
But will not feel the sickness, as I face my own fear
I glance at the shell, that once held my life
And I know now at […]

9/29/2012 1 comment

my story and my plan to die

by lightwithinthedarkness 9/23/2012

written by lightwithinthedarkness

my name is heather im 22 years old and im tired of living. i smile and laugh in a crowd and secretly plan my demise. i dont have the normal reasons why people want to die (if there are normal reasons) im attractive people say. i am a college student and i have a bf. but im just so tired of existing. i fantasize about death almost everyday. im alone in a crowded room, and i cant handle the stress of my past anymore. I plan on overdosing in a forest its a nature center that has trails preston would be so proud lol. but […]

9/23/2012 7 comments

The Battle continues, but I want it to end…

by Spiraldown 9/12/2012

written by Spiraldown

A battle, a fight, another day. Every morning I wake up and the first thing I do is check to see if I still remember how to smile, I’m not sure when it happened but piece by piece my emotions were shattered and I slowly started faking them to get by.

I guess it did have a beginning. I once had a dream, a direction in which to aim for and look forward to, but it fell to pieces and went from being a realistic future to a childish night time fantasy. I tried to fix it, I tried to create a new dream, but every […]

9/12/2012 0 comment

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