I’m struggling with my own life and most of the time i think that everyones life will be a whole much better if i’m not around, so most of the time i feel like self harming or just ‘falling’ of a building because yes they will be sad but after a few days they wont even remember my name, for most of my life i have been bullied for being different and i never feel like i fit in any where even when at home, when i was young my parents kept agueing and then they split up and seeing my mum go pretty much […]
Every day I wake up from a previously horrible day, and I try to stay positive. Â But then…comes this force that drains my energy, and all the hope I ever had. Â I fall deeper and deeper every day, every time I try harder and harder to stay up. Â As for my academics, I work hard (orgo. chem in high school), but then sometimes lose it all in the middle of my classes or when I am doing homework.
I look at other students who are always truly smiling (unlike my fake smile), and they seem to enjoy every second of their lives. And I…I just sit […]
It’s strange…
When you have never met, or even spoken to a person…yet you feel like on some level you already know them.
It may be you feel that way because of things that someone tells you about them,
or it may be because in a way you know what they are going through.
You know them through someone else’s correspondence with them,
because you try to reassure the person that loves this stranger you feel you know.
You feel helpless…because you wish you could tell that person how much they are loved by someone, yet you can’t.
You feel useless because with all the […]
I know that most of you won’t read this or care or anything but, I am depressed. I feel so worthless, stupid and I feel like a disappointment of a human being. I’ve seen amazing people on the news and at school that  do incredible things for everyone and then I’m just there, wasting space and not doing anything.  When I first started to feel this way, I was only 11  and I thought that God hated me and that he was putting me through hell for a test but, that isn’t fair. Its been a year now and I still feel the same crap. The sad part is that if I were […]
He called my name
I walked away
Now im wishing i would have stayed
We walk around
Both looking at the ground
Scared to catch the other staring
But we both move on with out a sound
Remember the first night we kissed
I hope im not the only one who misses it..
I’m stupid for still loving you
My hopes are childish like i am
1 year younger, worlds apart
Here i sit with a broken heart
You said you wanted to ask me somthing..
Now im wondering what
But i lost my chance to hear it
By my own stubborness
Forgive me
For loving you
More then you could ever love […]
This is me and my x boyfriend. I met him at a party he was the first guy i was truely happy with. I love him so much i was willing to give up everything.. even my virginity. but we never made it that far. When he got a job he started to like another girl. Weeks past and i noticed he was distancing himself from me, one day i asked him ” what time do you get off tonight” and he snapped saying “why do you […]
I don’t think I can go on any longer, so I finally decided to do it. I tried suicide once before, but I chickened out and told my parents who took me to the ER. I feel sick, I disgust myself. So young in life and I already want to die. Want to know why? Because I’m too sane for this world. People go on everyday not knowing any answers, just living paycheck to paycheck. I am not skilled, I don’t try in school so I do badly. I’m unwilling to work for a good life, so I hope for a better work ethic in […]
Hi, I just wanted to share my story about suicide, which I did not commit, and since then have realized the importance of that decision. Everything does get better, I hope anyone who reads that are having thoughts about suicide will reconsider their decision.
The scars runs way down to when I was very young. My dad was a cardiologist and he came home every three days. Always being away from my dad made me frightened of him, although he was a great dad. I was a timid child and was scared of everything, I was told by grandparents that I cried at least twice […]
So I took my sleeping pill in the early hours of the morning, and it kept me in peace until 8am. I woke up, drowsy. I think I drifted off again.. til 10am. But when I woke up then, I felt weird.
I felt lost, today. I feel empty, there so much pain and thoughts going on in my head but.. I can’t make them come out. I can’t cry today, I can’t feel. I feel disconnected from the world, like I’m not a part of it.
Even punching things, or cutting, didn’t make me cry or have them come out. I didn’t even feel the pain.
Today, […]
Kill me.
Kill me now, cut deep into my veins and bleed me until there’s nothing left
Nothing of me in this world
This wretched, hard, horrid place
Moving from mishap to mishap
never stopping
never breaking the cycle
I must get free of this cycle
The cycle bound by the chains of mortality
The only way to get out
to break free of my mortality
but the reason to get out?
to make life better.
STOP!
what is this?
this world? full of paradox and irony
the universe seems to cackle at every one of the informed
bringing them down further and further
there […]
Almost everyone on this site is experiencing, has experienced or eventually will experience this.
Our feelings are not as black and white anymore, they’re not strong or weak to the external stimuli imbued upon our senses; really it’s just a numbness, extirpating mental perturbation but concomitantly attenuating sensibility and emotions. It all produces either a state of equanimity or mental chaos, depending on your level of introspection…
Basically, our feelings aren’t as simple as they used to be. There used to be a rational support behind our behaviors and emotions; now there isn’t. It’s all a mess, and we feel numb to the outside world. […]
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