I’m feeling like really blank right now. Like when your not happy not sad, your mood is just blah. Idk. Anyone else feel like this…?
Just wanted to share some love to all of you who are struggling.
Maybe you feel like you can’t go another day. You feel like taking your last breath. You feel the weight of the world on top of you, caving in on your chest. You feel it so much it’s went from just being mental, to a real physical pain. You feel you don’t belong or have a place in this world. You cry yourself to sleep some or most nights. You have suicidal ideation. You think about what this world would be without you, and probably feel it wouldn’t even notice your absence.
I’ve been […]
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I don’t know if I will ever be consistently happy. I’m changing into somebody I don’t like. There’s not much emotion anymore. I’ve become much more logical, pragmatic. I still suck at doing work, so it hasn’t made me any better at school, but I’m just not emotional about things anymore. I’ve become terse with my parents and girlfriend, less caring and more calculating. I’m losing something, me, and I don’t know why. I don’t know how to comfort anyone, or the right things to say. I can’t really empathize. Without a passion, what my purpose? […]
*From left to right; Xiumin (EXO-M), Luhan (EXO-M), Kris (EXO-M), Suho (EXO-K), Lay (EXO-M), Baekhyun (EXO-K), Chen (EXO-M), Chanyeol (EXO-K & my 2nd bias), D.O. (EXO-K & my 3rd bias), Tao (EXO-M & my bias), Kai (EXO-K) and Sehun (EXO-K & maknae)
*Luhan and Kris left the group last year (2014).
*EXO-K promotes in Korea, while EXO-M promotes in China.
My life has gotten better. I’m not sure if I’m still depressed but I can say I’ve been pretty happy these past few weeks. I’m not gonna lie, though. […]
Hi. This is my first post on here, and I think that this would help me a lot, considering I’m feeling like a sealed time bomb. Call me Cyn. I’m a teen, but I’ve been through a lot. Lately, I’ve been feeling like nothing. I have the very popular, “things feel like they’re getting worse” and “I feel like my mind is being taken over.” I’m not okay. I don’t have anti depressants, I live off Advil. My mother hates me, and so do my aunts and my grandmother. My whole family hates me; on my mother’s side at least. My boyfriend is the only […]
What did I do to deserve this life?
Im so sorry
I just want it to end
I don’t want to feel
I don’t want to think
I just want to be free
Is that honestly to much to ask?
Its sad to think about, but so many of us are alone.
And we can not expect help to fall at our feet.
But from what I’ve learnt, only you, can save yourself.
How are you? Are you okay? Are you safe? Are you questioning yourself? Questioning your sanity? Deciding if you really wanna live on this shitty ass planet?
Well welcome to the party.
A party where lonely souls are never fully understood but voices are always heard.
You’re in pain? Can’t take it anymore? So sick of your life?
I understand. She understands. He understands. We’ve all been there. He’s there now. She fighting […]
So very many times I’ve tried to just lie in bed. To not get up. To not walk to the bathroom. To not grab the razor that hides in the cabinet. So many times I’ve failed. So miserably failed. Relapse is a normal part of recovery, I know. But how many times can you relapse before you’re no longer recovering anymore?
I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember – A Fake! Walking around…all smiles, but deep down I want to scream.I know, I know…gotta see the glass as half full and all. But then I ask why? I haven’t been suicidal but I’m also not “living the life”. I can try to pick myself up but at the back of my head I ask why. Its tiring. It seems I prefer to be a zombie. I dont have to talk that way. I don’t have to put up with pretenses. People pretending to care. People commenting on trivial shit because […]
I have suffered with depression and suicidal feelings for as long as I can remember, but something has always held me back when it comes to ending my life.
I have made several attempts, but have failed so far.
I can’t be bothered to write about what has happened to me, because I have tried every form of therapy there is and it doesn’t work and I have never really felt any other way.
I’m just fed up with the lack of understanding, the patronising advice given by therapists and family and the accusations of self-pity or attention seeking with regards to suicide.
I don’t feel sorry for myself, […]
You were good for nothing parents, and you made me want to kill myself countless times. You crushed whatever I built for myself just so you could feel superior. But I have to thank you for one thing. You have showed me how to not raise a child. I will never do to my children what you did to me.
im not gonna do this list in narcisstic way. i feel not good when i hear drum sounds or electric guitar. i dont know why. maybe because when i feel drowning deep i dont want to hear some rich man beating his drums. if you can relate to this, you can check this list. it has been very helpful to me. i just leave it here, for visitors, for members.
1-) Vivaldi – in e minor (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJzpqVSDlok)
2-) anniki tahti – mustalanien (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Drac_HVOCig)
3- mussorgsky – old castle (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSomvC6rwgU)
4-) dark night – bernes (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxWnPpSVL-Q)
5) corelli’s sarabende (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b70w3hsNOnI)
6)all bowly – summer’s end (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjqlQWReyzI)
7) […]
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To be honest I don’t even know what I’m doing here or why. I think I just need to vent and maybe, just maybe, be “understood”. I don’t mean to sound like a childish teenager who no one understands and no one ever would, I just don’t know how else to phrase it.
I used to be really depressed, for 3 years actually, although that is mostly blown over now. Some things though never seem to go away, how I act and behave is still highly influenced by those defining 3 years leading up to my late teens. I get annoyed by people, and push people away, […]
i finally got a new girlfriend after so long of being broken and alone, i moved away from my parents after being kicked out and abandoned, now i actually have a roof over my head, i’m applying for the army and looking for work, i’m started to talk to people again despite my server anxiety but still besides all of these things i still feel like i’m the same. the same as i use to be like i’m empty and still have nothing iv been trying to understand why i feel this way but i cant seem to come up with a reason as to […]
Hello everyone. I have been coming to this site on an off for several years now, anytime I was thinking about suicide. Reading the other stories helped me to feel that I was not alone. That I wasn’t the only lonely person in this world that didn’t seem to fit in anywhere. That I wasn’t the only self-loathing person that hated their existence and felt the need to apologize to everyone about it. I only ever indulged in reading though, never made an account or posted. It’s a tad narcissistic to just talk about oneself, so I never wanted to bother anybody with myself.
I have […]
I am not sure who is going to be reading this, or really why it is that you’re on this website and that you’re reading this, but hello. I hope that whoever you are and wherever you are that you’ve managed to have a relatively good day today.
My name is Mark Owens. I am not afraid to “reveal” my identity because I no longer wish to remain anonymous; I’ve been doing that my entire life. I am currently 19 years old and I live in the metro-Atlanta area, and beginning in the fall I’ll be starting my junior year of college as a Music Education […]
Just saying I’m still here. I went to see the guy I like and it was different. Or rather, I tried to hide my feelings and I can’t do that forever. I learned that he is insanely picky and judgemental of girls and decides in less than a nanosecond who’s good enough for him and who isn’t, with most getting the no pass. But I’m still insanely attracted to him because he’s my type. I still feel like I’m better off dead, since I’ll never have love and there’s no point in living without someone to give my everything to.
I have multiple personalities and I wanted to know how many others there are who live with this. I just feel so alone with it, I’m not sure if I have a normal or abnormal alternate personality. She is very violent and unstable and has tried to kill me before.
as the days go by i feel smaller and smaller and suicide seems more appealing. every day i feel like dying and every night i die, in a way. the only thing that keeps me hanging is my poetry. nothing else. not my girlfriend, not my soon-to-be-born baby boy, nor my friends and family. i feel like i got nowhere to go, i’m trapped inside this hellish reality and i don’t have the mental strength to break through it. i would’ve probably kill myself if my poetry was already published, but it’s not. hence i won’t kill myself. not until my words will light the […]
I go running everyday, lift weights, and try and eat healthy because from what I’ve experienced nobody likes a fat fuck. Healthy body healthy mind I suppose. Effexor day 1 so good so far, noticed a slight increase in motivation and energy, could be a placebo effect I’m not sure but I definitely feel more content. The next few days are gonna suck balls thought ’cause no boooooooze :(. Glad I got benzos to help me get to sleep from this fucking stupid ass withdrawal.