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ghost of the other life

by thedrowninggirl 2/10/2014

written by thedrowninggirl

I can’t help but feel guilty for even being here. I’ve always believed life is a gift and there’s nothing so bad that it can actually ruin your life; surely if you are so desperate you are contemplating taking your life then surely you are desperate enough to try anything else that might alleviate your pain- and, I so smugly thought, totally changing the life you couldn’t live with would, voila, take away the belief that you need to die.

I WAS SO WRONG.

I understand now. No matter what I do, if I moved a thousand miles away, if I threw myself into a new career, […]

2/10/2014 1 comment

Life

by clevername 2/10/2014

written by clevername

…a temporary solution to a permanent problem.

I can’t separate the things i want, from the things i can’t stand, or handle, or accomplish.

Everything i do want, is attached to enough of something i don’t, to invalidate pursuit.

I can’t find anything that is both available to me, and also worth my efforts to gain it, which are inevitably and irrevocably connected to conditions and/or consequences i can’t, or won’t, endure.

I can’t find, even with all i know and the capacity of my mind to “imagine,” anything… that fills me with both belief and motivation to achieve, accomplish, or attain it… but that is also available, and […]

2/10/2014 33 comments

Depression eating me

by Eyeore 2/10/2014

written by Eyeore

Endless hours of unbearable pain.
Unbearable pain that cannot be explained
Why do I have to feel this way?
Canâ€™t this feeling of hopelessness just go away?
I am so tired, so fed up
Canâ€™t I just die, get it over with?
I donâ€™t want to try anymore
I canâ€™t try anymore
I have nothing left inside of me.
I had enough
I had enough
Why do I have to feel like this?
I want to end my life
I just canâ€™t take this anymore
Please just let me die
The world would be better of

2/10/2014 4 comments

Just another story

by sheddingtears 2/10/2014

written by sheddingtears

Hi.

I started writing down my feelings in Â journal but I thought it would be nice to share with people finally.

I don’t know it all started but what I know is that I’m messed up. My family, my body, my mind, and my emotions. I’m not going to say I’m in this emotionless trance.

I still have friends but I hid my true feelings. It’s all starts with my family and how my mother is this fucked up parent. You can basically say I live by myself , but my dads the only one who supports me. He has to work all the time and my mom […]

2/10/2014 13 comments

I feel…dead

by ImAWizard 2/10/2014

written by ImAWizard

Hey, hi, hello. This is my first time using this website. I’m really glad I found It. Well I’m Sam, short for Samantha.

I just got into an awful argument with a boyfriend that I love oh so much. He put me down. We both have gone through the same thing. He however, expects me to become as strong as he is. I’m not, and it’s hard. I’m really weak and a coward. I feel like if I died it would make him happy. I fee like it would make everyone happy. I don’t want to go on knowing one day he thought I was perfect […]

2/10/2014 2 comments

Acceptance…

by lexusb02 2/9/2014

written by lexusb02

I got accepted into a university I really wanted to get into. I’m happy about it, but I still in someway feel depressed. I thought maybe that would be the thing that brings my mood up but then again I’m so easily ready to leave this life. I guess I should be grateful because I’m getting something I want in life and like I said before I understand that I have been fortunate but I have also been unfortunate.

I feel like a college can accept me but people I know or try and get to know cant. But why is that what the hell is […]

2/9/2014 4 comments

Where Is My Mind?

by Nobody915 2/9/2014

written by Nobody915

It’s all over now. I think i’m happy!

I’ve done my first youtube video. Feel free to watch it if you have nothing else to do.

Sincerely,

Nobody915

2/9/2014 11 comments

Life hasn’t improved…

by yikers 2/9/2014

written by yikers

So I turned to this blog last June in the hope of relieving myself of some my bottled up stories and emotions. It helped for all of 10 seconds. I’m still a closet gay (by my family’s demand and not my choice). My family would have me locked in a cage if they could, they have recently told me I’m the biggest problem my family has. I’m at university now so I’ve had a little bit of free time to experiment and be me. But being me has come at the price of my family and their respect. When I came out they took it […]

2/9/2014 2 comments

make it stop

by lexusb02 2/9/2014

written by lexusb02

I panic so much because of how I feel inside. My girlfriend wants me to get better but I cant right now. I know I should be happy with where I am in my life but everything that’s going on in my mind won’t let me.

I want her to get mad at me and tell me im wrong for not wanting to be here because if i leave this world ill be leaving her behind. one of my only reasons for being here is her because she wants me to. if she told me to kill myself tonight i would think about it for two […]

2/9/2014 5 comments

I’m not suicidal anymore

by Shaynax 2/9/2014

written by Shaynax

I just miss and crave the not so occasional drinks that would lead to reckless behavior because at this moment when I want to feel something I can’t bring myself to do anything about it. I’m not suicidal but I know that what I am feeling leads up to it. And no one can know. Everyone had their life together again but me. I feel so alone. I literally don’t feel like I belong in my own skin. I don’t like anything that I am right now or have become these past few months.

2/9/2014 3 comments

Its been a while

by Pikachu1118 2/8/2014

written by Pikachu1118

My best friend since child hood was hit by a bus five years ago while he was roller skating the image is still with me today. He wasn’t just my best friend he also taught me love has no gender, no age, no color and now hes gone. I feel guilty that he died because I was going through a phase that I was just being a shut in and not talking with people I feel like if I just called him earlier that day he would still be with me hopefully that’s what I tell myself and its what I think and what I […]

2/8/2014 0 comment

OD

by WiltedRose 2/7/2014

written by WiltedRose

For anyone who has attempted with overdose, I was thinking about OD’ing on my antidepressants. How does it feel, is it very painful?

2/7/2014 13 comments

falling apart piece by piece

by Honey_bee00 2/7/2014

written by Honey_bee00

when people say stay strong things will get better i promise.. it never turns out to be like that in my case i get over everything. and it comes back cuz of something else happened to top that problem..
feeling like shit and nothing going right in your life. called whore by your dad and telling him to pack your things cuz she dont want you living with him anymore. then moving in with my mom everything starts getting better then BAMM you get raped by your step dad then end up getting a bf that same night and scared your gonna lose him your […]

2/7/2014 5 comments

“& I’m still In love cause when It’s that real,It doesn’t fade”

by lifeishorrible 2/7/2014

written by lifeishorrible

Good thing-I feel like I’m starting all over.Time to do things right.

Bad things-Sure there a lot of beautiful girls but none of them are you.None of them have your eyes,none of them have you voice.I thought my first love had a beautiful voice but then I heard you and now sometimes before I go to sleep I hear the voicemails you left me just to hear you.I have yet to meet a girl that’s like you.You were everything I looked In a girl and more.I’m not young anymore.I want to settle down.I could honestly see myself settling down her.She used to always worry about her […]

2/7/2014 15 comments

Why do you guys enjoy cutting yourself?

by Pbsmurderer 2/7/2014

written by Pbsmurderer

I’m not asking as a way to judge you, Â I completely understand wanting to cope with depression. But why cutting specifically? I’ve used several methods myself; Hallucinogenics, Drugs, Alcohol, things like that.

I’m asking because I’ve tried doing it and I just don’t feel the pleasure, and I’ve attempted suicide several times, so I know a thing or two about “hurting myself”. So why do you guys like it?

2/7/2014 10 comments

few months later and I still feel horrible

by kingdomFife 2/6/2014

written by kingdomFife

This is my second post on this site and again I am speaking of my girlfriend that broke up with me a few months ago. For a background on the situation please read my previous post to save me explaining it in this one.

So far life has got worse and worse, the last time I was happy was October 19th last year when I took her to a hotel and the rest for her bday which was on the 6th but I was busy working (to get more money to spend on her for her bday). I hadn’t spoke to her since the 12th of […]

2/6/2014 2 comments

boys

by sad_face7 2/6/2014

written by sad_face7

The school I go to all the boys do is mess with your heart, they get your hopes up. And in the end turth comes out.

I was talking to a boy he made me feel like he cared, that he wanted to be with me, but in the end he told me he already had a girlfriend, and said that he was sorry for trying to lead me on, and if we come still be friends?
Why do boys hurt us, why cant they feel the same way like we feel for them. Just dont understand anymore.

2/6/2014 8 comments

Broken

by lostgirl32 2/5/2014

written by lostgirl32

Wow, where to begin? I guess i can start off by saying this is not normal for me. Iv always been that girl that’s strong when nobody else is. Iv had straight As through high school and iv participated in a lot of sports and other activities. Iv been through many relationships, being dumped and doing the dumping. I lost the love of my life about 4 months ago, he was my rock, my support. He came into my life when things weren’t good at home, just when i was ready to say i couldn’t take it anymore.. the last 3 years iv depended on […]

2/5/2014 8 comments

Professional help?

by lilcat 2/5/2014

written by lilcat

I want to ask your opinion about seeking / talking to a professional. I never go to one. My mother asks me to go to a psychologist / psychiatrist. But I am afraid to pour out my deepest heart to a complete stranger. I feel embarrassed. I am also afraid that he/she will declare me as just an attention seeker. (Am I? I don’t know the answer. I don’t think I am but if a professional says so, who am I to counteract) It has happened before. I opened myself to some people in authority, and they ridiculed me and brushed me off as attention […]

2/5/2014 4 comments

Why don’t you give up trying to please the world?

by tphg 2/5/2014

written by tphg

I’m not suicidal, just incredibly bored with life. I think that I’ve played too many video games, watched too many movies, cartoons throughout my life that I expect grand things out of reality. But as we all know, things are pretty mundane on planet Earth(save for wars and terrorist attacks; those are always good for a laugh).

Things are pretty sucky in my life right now. I’m living with an ex-girlfriend that my ego is still very much attached too. She’s an annoying **** but I enjoyed the sex, and like I said, she really knew how to stroke my ego and make me feel […]

2/5/2014 27 comments

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