My boyfriend and I have had a relationship for 9 years. It has had it’s wonderful moments.. but it has had many bad ones too. I get so angry with him for his lack of care and concern. I’ve thrown him out recently and now I feel as though my entire world is gone. I have no desire to even want to wake up! EVER AGAIN! All i have ever wanted was his love. I’ve had people tell me he loves me. I’ve heard hims say it. But I have not felt it in such a very long time. […]
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I want to kill myself.
Awww why you have a perfectly… almost perfectly good life. You’re just going through a bit of a rough time hang in there, its going to get better.
Its not going to get better, I’ve been wanting and waiting for it get better for how many years now… I can’t say I can predict the future but I’ve been understanding my feelings, my death wish, and I want to dies more than ever. I say more than ever, but I cant clearly remember all the reasoning, the beliefs, the crap that led to this point but I can say with confidence that […]
I fell like there’s a stone destroying my chest..
my body has banned me cry..
I refused to look sad at school or in front of my friends..
I have to be a support to my friends
I have to stop cutting
I’m the only who want to scream?
my world is in other dimension..
please just tell me that I’m not the only one feeling like that right now
nesecito contarle a alguien mi vida pero tengo tanto miedo de darle mis problemas a otro, ser feliz no era lo mas importante? no tengo corazon, estoy sola, me siento asi pero me da miedo […]
It’s my forgiveness from my dear friend.
I sent a message to an unknown in facebook. She shared her story and one guy was really troubling her and making her life hell. I felt she is pure and she was tough and caring. I tried to give confident in her and she called me soul mate. As she was already in depression and she tried to commit suicide once, I never went n meet her just was doing the same and asked her to go to doctor with a friend.  I tried to write for her, some were natural and hoped she may be smiled for […]
I never thought I would be on this site as someone posting from a desperate place, instead of helping out through comments. But life is ironic that way, no?
Life is too precious too consider throwing away. theres so many beautiful people in this world and mysteries and suprises you’d never expect and to cut your life short is throwing away any chance of having that. My mom always said it’s funny how things work, and she’s right. Having god come in my life in 10th grade couldn’t have been just a coincidence. i didn’t know the hardships and battles i would face later in life. God guided me all the way through there though, it was a miracle. i’ve made alot of mistakes along the way and my drug and alchohol abuse, while […]
I had a lazy day just on my laptop today, and have been watching/ reading about things that fascinate me.
The main topic that caught my eye was the theories and thoughts surrounding solipsism and realism.
Solipsism is the thought/ belief that you are the only real thing. That the people you know, the information you’ve learned about history and research going on is just information ‘created’ for you (as if you’re in the matrix kind of idea).
Realism is that things exist whether you are here or not, and realism states that your perception of reality and the things that happen are false to […]
Not being able to sleep is one of the worst feelings. Â Insomnia is definitely something to hate. Â I don’t go to bed until 4 or 5am. Â I then wake up around 12pm and just go do my normal day to day jobs. Â My boyfriend gets home at the mid afternoon. Â I hardly ever see him. Â Once he gets home, he comes up to our room to see me, spends 5 minutes with me, then goes to hangs out with his friends for ages, then doesn’t come back up until 7pm, then we make dinner, then we watch a movie (where no catch up or talking […]
Why am I like this?I’m a 14 year old girl, at the end of my freshman year of high school. And all I can think about is killing myself. I don’t understand why I’m like this, am I crazy? It feels like everyone else is just strolling along happily while I’m stuck in a hole deep underground. I’ve felt like this for the past 3 years, I cut myself for a while and I’m trying to stop because I’m sick of being embarrassed of myself but the urges are returning. The feelings of desperation and loneliness take up most of my day. I […]
Time passes by very quickly so fast that I find it hard to catch up, I’ve always been shy,imaginative,and outgoing at times but in my recent years I find that I spend a lot of time on my own and I never really reveal myself or open up to people though I’ve never really been a kid who’s open with her feelings but I guess I can contribute that to moving a town away and when I do open up to people and tell them how I feel it’s a very strange feeling to me now that I end up regretting it, I truly feel […]
I’m just so sad all the time.
I just want my pain to end, and I can’t wait for long.
I need relief.
Should I end it or should I not?
By the way that was a rhetorical question because I know all of you will be like “noooo don’t do itttt”.
Though, I probably will within the next couple weeks.
So, yeah. That’s it. Just needed to let that out.
Sorry for wasting your time.
I can’t even explain my feelings every night
I feel my heart aching as I turn out the light
Can’t shut my eyes, swollen from each tear
I never expect my thoughts to get this severe
Knife, scissors, pills all cover my desk.
All which can leave me very statuesque.
Thoughts erupt my mind about all I hate
I don’t know really if I want death to wait.
Each night I spend lying completely alone
When will it get better? it remains unknown.
Searching deep down to find me a reason
Why I keep living through this suicidal season.
Exploding with depression as I lie in my bed
This pain is too much, makes me wish I was dead.
These thoughts […]
I just saw a very selfish hateful post. calling us all “pussies” for coming here for the help. it makes me think are they upset having troubles or something and just take it out on other people. or just plain old hateful and don’t care about others feelings and emotions. what do you guys think? could there be something running through there mind there just afraid to speak of? if so what could we do to get it out of them so they would feel better? or do you think it could just be hatefulness?
I am drowning in my depression.
I am unable to reach out to anyone, because I have no one to reach out to. I have lost what friends I had because I was “a bummer to be around.” I did what I could do mask my feelings, but I can’t, not anymore.
I am writing this not looking for sympathy, but to simply tell my story, and maybe, for once, I can be of some worth.
I was raised with one simple phrase beaten into my head, I am worthless. Whether I am or not, does not matter when that is the only thing you feel: worthless. I […]
Every day it seems to get worse. I get these thoughts mainly at night. As I lie in bed all I can think about is how I can’t see myself finding anyone.
I don’t have real ‘friends.’ I used to believe that I did, but it seems as if every ‘friend’ I’ve had ends up joining everyone else in making fun of me.
I try to be nice to people and help them out with their problems. Many people come to me about relationship advice. Me. The guy who can barely get a girl to even look in his direction. They come to me. And the […]
I never asked to be born. It’s not like I was given much of a choice. I didn’t choose my parents, my house, the schools I went to or the country in which I live. I’m just here. And everyday it becomes harder for me to accept that. It’s not my fault that I see the world the way I do, or that I hold such feelings of hatred for it. Nothing would make me happier than to see it and everyone in it burn. But no amount of me hoping, ranting or dreaming of that is going to make it happen. So I give […]
I remember when I had none
No secrets.
There were no need for them.
I could trust anyone and everyone with anything.
I had no secrets.
I had no worries.
But one day something changed.
I became older, more mature
and suddenly everything was my fault.
Have you ever had a loved one pass?
Have you ever been bullied?
Has your mother ever gotten mad at you,
and said the words “Its just who you are”?
That’s all happened to me.
Now I’m worried.
Now I have secrets.
There’s no going back to the old me.
There’s no reversing what’s happened.
There’s nothing I can do,
besides […]
As I am typing this, my life on paper sounds like the most ideal life anyone can hope to live. I did drop out of college and my job, but only for a few months as I’m planning to get a part time summer job and take classes again in the Fall (I’m lucky my parents didn’t punch me in the head for what I did). Everyone in my family is… family. Normal. Granted, my parents and I had our differences and argued sometimes, but that’s normal, isn’t it?
Childhood was relatively normal (minus being molested by two teeenage girls when I was like… 8? I […]
I trusted some one again and they left me i gotten back a friend but i dont think she wants to talk to me really any more i have my friend i made this year hes a good friend i think i bug him some times i dont think i will ever find some one that whants to be my girlfriend more one day as much as i want some thing with them i put in so much effort with every one to put a smile when there sad or mad but whos there for me when i need it no one i just want […]
Hi I’m Sabrina Rodrigues, I’m from Boston Massachusetts. I’m kind of new to this so here we go..
I’m like any other normal 14 year old girl. About to graduate the 8th grade, everything like that. But I’ve screwed up a lot in the past… And people don’t leave me alone. The past is the past for a reason right? Yes, people can’t seem to forget that. So I’ll tell you a little about my past. So yeah, I guess you could say I kind of “got around” with the boys..and girls. That was before I got into a relationship with the best boy in the […]