I get these weird feelings. Sometimes I just want to cry, sometimes I just wat to punch something but it’s crazy because that’s not me. I like to drink, I like mint and whenever I drink I carry mint around with me. I just fucking hate everything and I’ve tried everything to just get rid of it. Everyone tells me I’m such a good singer but then everyone hates it when I sing. I can’t even jam with people because whenever I start to sing with them they think I’m showing off. It’s like I can’t even do what I love anymore. And then […]
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wow, what i crazy past few weeks.
lets see, um i week ago, after not being able to talk to my bf for over a week, he actually messaged me back saying that it wasnt going to work out.. that he only asked me out on spur of the moment feelings and that he did care about me… what a load of crap. I actually did cut some more, and i do regret them this time. For once, i actually found someone that i wanted to be with and he dumped me. I feel like absolute shit.
Anyway my 16th birthday is in 25 days and my […]
“We’re all lying to the mirror, lying to ourselves.”
I’m sorry I don’t meet their expectations for me.
I’m sorry I can’t find the motivation to work hard anymore.
I’m sorry I thought they would always be there for me.
I’m sorry I can’t stand the sight of my own reflection.
I’m sorry that I always sleep too much or not enough.
I’m sorry that I feel the need to lie to everyone about my feelings.
I’m sorry for wanting to kill myself,
and I’m sorry for not offing myself already.
Hearts beats together as one
Brown eyes stare
Hand shivers at your embrane
Knees weaken
What, Why is this happen
Tears falls
A silent mumble
Falls slowly to the ground
Will you be there to lift me back up
No no you wont
These emotions, these feelings
Of solitude , of loneliness has overcome me
No clue nor understanding
What do you want of me
I am dead , cold ice cold
These emotions have caused murder
I died in solitude and alone
Hand-written 🙂
There is something wrong with me…I’m just not sure what it is. Most of the time I’m sad, and at other times I don’t really feel anything. It’s like I’m numb. Maybe I’m overreacting or just really dramatic but it’s been this way for almost two years now. I always have thoughts of killing myself. The idea of it scares me and usually when I am thinking about doing it, I talk myself out of it. I’m scared that one of these times I might actually go through with it and then what? I know my family would miss me and so would very few […]
dont know when you will actualy read this but i need to talk to some one i hope your willing to read and listen. i;m desprate i need something not sure what i know i tell you not to talk about killing yourself but i know how you feel for diffrent reasons.  im not sure how much longer i can hold on staying alive so i dont hurt my kids isnt enough of a reason any more staying alive because its a sin to kill myself not sure about that. ending the pain sounds real good right now. ending the frustration the hoplesness  the uncertany […]
While one day falls into another, I only hope that this is a dream.
I’m too old for these feelings. I’m in university, doing an incredibly difficult course which I spent my whole schooling trying to get into. I chose this. I am crippled by social anxiety, so I chose to live alone. I am simultaneously envious of people who can be themselves, surrounded by friends. I chose to be like this, every decision pushing me further inside my head. I am painfully crammed inside my own skull.
Surely I’ll wake up, a happy, normal, real version of myself. Surely I’ll be able to think beyond myself.
I […]
hey im new at this im gonna be straight foward now im not good at spelling or punctuation so just stay with me
ive always had the feeling of committing suicide but always ignored it,till just recently when a ex student from our school killed himself.i dont why or what but from him doing it i got a sense that it was socially accepted some how…
so i started daydreaming about where and when to do it what my parents would say or do.how life around me would be and it hit me no one would really care eveyrone would just get on with life.but recently my […]
today i confessed to a friend of mine that i start again cutting and then she told that she expected that of me even when i go to school with a big smile and later the only friend who discover it (i didn’t told her ) told me the same!
in a very unexplained way i felt terrible.. i want to stop but at the same time is my only way to let go feelings.
HELP ME PLEASEEEE JUST READ IT.. FOR ONCE I WANT TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE UNDERSTAND ME..
(sorry if my english is bad i’m from latin- america)
I’m really sorry I made this so long but if anyone can read and respond I’d be very grateful.
When I was in 3rd grade, I transferred out of my elementary school and went to a different one. However, when I got to the new school, I was always bullied. I don’t know why, but people just never seemed to like me. I would sometimes get beat up and kicked around at recess. I remember one particular day when they lured me behind a tree in 4th grade and 3 guys beat the hell out of me. Sure, my parents went and talked to the teachers […]
i don’t think i need to worry about being lonely or about not being cared for. anyways what’s the big deal….everybody has their own things to worry about, why would they think of you or how to help you… if you need help, help yourself … hey i am not saying this to anybody else, i am saying it to myself… i have decided not to kill my self … i can’t do it coz that would give my mom a lot of problems to handle… and she doesn’t deserve it… not after single handedly taking care of me and my sister after my dad […]
My parents saw my cus and flipped of course. then say i need to go to a psychiatrist again and this guy seems to not understand or give a crap…..i just want to know what to do, how to feel at least ok. I want help. I want to be ok. But nothing works i tried it all and nothing. I can be doing a million things and i still can’t stop thinking about everything thats wrong.
I cant stop thinking about dying….i just want to die. i want just stop breathing.
All i think about is the next time i can cut myself, when my relatives leave […]
It’s getting to me, my my feelings are finally catching up to my head. I can’t take what they say even though what they say is not true..I hate it, just hiding myself in my room watching movies all day or play video games, not texting a signal friend, just sitting here thinking instead, only coming out to eat. It was good for a while but now it’s bad gain you see that’s why I ended up here again.
Another bad week… Summer was great and now at class return my life come back to be a bullshit… They hacked my facebook profile and say terrible things about me and i never do anything wrong.
now after 3 months i start cutting again… Why its seems to be the only way? I feel ignored I feel a nothing and good on nothing.
I spend a summer trying to think that this would never happen again
its really another day in paradise?
I don’t know if I should bother telling people about my feelings anymore. All I do is make people sad, annoyed, or mad when I share how I feel. I hate being a burden to everyone I love. I wish I could just be happier or be better at pretending to be.
to be honest i’m not really sure what i’m doing on this site but i’m ust gonna go with it. I’m not trying to sway anyone into my thinking or anything this is just my own experiences and opinions. So I’ve read a few posts and stuff and it’s kind of strange but i feel like i can relate. People are saying stuff like “oh you won’t do it” and stuff like that but ppl will, they always do and that’s what’s wrong with this site. you shouldn’t test ppl. I’m just hoping to get some advice on how to kill this shit before myself. […]
Lots of things had happened and all they turned me into stupid depressed teenager. I used to cope with the problems and I was fine, but now things are worse. Nothing can make me happy. I have only one real friend but although he tries to make me happier, he can’t. The others laugh at me, tell me I’m fat, stupid, ugly, idiot, etc. My family doesn’t understand me. They thing I’m ok, but I’m not. I just can cope with all my problems. I tried to stop self-harming, but I couldn’t. I didn’t eat for days, but I got ill and it didn’t help. […]
I am glad I found this site. I am relieved at being able to express my feelings here. It’s bad that so many people are in such deep pain, like me… But it is good to know that people here understand this deadly pain. You are special to me. You who keep this site running. You who offer to talk personally. Especially you on the Chat whom I have a special place in my heart. Thank you for the happiness. I truly love you for you.
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im a 24 year old college student and I think about killing myself a lot and I don’t want to think about that but i cant help it. I can honestly say with each day that goes by my will to live is less, and I think about killing myself more. I think about it a lot, especially right after I wake up and right before I fall asleep, but now recently these thoughts are becoming increasingly more abundant during the day as well. im constantly depressed life seems to be meaningless, hopeless, and even worst I feel so damn empty. I have zero motivation […]