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I’m going try and fight this one more time – this time I’m not holding back and I will give it my all.
The thought of suicide is still appealing to me, of course it would be after years of a sickening pain that has now left me wondering who I am as a person and how my miserable soul could possibly fit into this world.
But after my last failed attempt I realised that I would not go out without a fight. This life has kicked me down and kept me in the dumps for as long as I can […]
Hey folks, look to the sky, that bird floating above the clouds is the divine seagull. These graceful fliers may look unphased by the troubles of life, but wait until they touch down, and it’s a different story. When you see one on the ground they’ll usually be in tatters from having to fend off and procure food from their hostile and greedy friends. It could make anyone think they ended up that way from tumbling down in a near deadly crash. Alas, life in the dirt is rough, we get up, we fight, we stay up, we fight, every once in a while we […]
You know if someone annoys you or you get in a fight? you can easily walk away from them right? or ignore them forever. But what if that person is yourself? you have no escape, youre stuck with yourself forever. and that scares me a lot.. like i cant just take a break from being around me.
Hello. Are Salt and Killlswitchon here? I miss you guys. If you’re alive or something leave a reply. I think I am going to do it in the future. The recovery was only for the energy that I need to get a job and earn the money for finishing it. Once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t be fixed whatever it happens. I understand everyone with depression, hate, everything. People are just a sack of wack. Maybe the divine exists or maybe not.Maybe it will be better in the next life or maybe it will be an eternal dreamless sleep. But you know […]
Having a bad day and ive only been up an hour. Im pretty sure im not well but dont have the fight in me to care. To try and numb the pain ive takin tramadol and double dose of sleeping pills. I have even pulled out the dress and shoes id like to be cremated in.they are hanging next to my bed. I probably should whrite that doen sonewhere. Not thst a dress will make a difference ill still be a fat ugly corpse
Hello guys 🙂 I just want to say that I am over with depression and that I believe that is something out there.I recovered my faith again. It’s impossible that a hardcore suicidal guy like I was to recover so quickly. God exists and it’s never too late. And I am not keeping this only for myself.
God dosen’t encourage laziness and dissapointment, you need to get up there and fight whatever the conditions are. God encourages work and being helpful with eachother.
So, go out there, get a job, pray, find a gf or a bf and you’ll see that everything will be allright. I am […]
For as long as i can remember i felt like i dont belong. As i get older i feel it even more. I cannot die tho i welcome the thought. You see i have kids and grandkids. But most of the time i feel they wud be better off without me around. Everything i touchgoes to crap. Everyone i love leaves. I tried to end my life twice a long time ago and failed at that just as i fail at everything. I am now in the middle of my 4th divorce and have finally figured out i am meant to be alone. I just […]
3 months ago my fiance and I got into a fight and he pushed me. We had been together 9 years and nothing like this had ever happened before. We have a son together and he is truly the love of my life. I was freaked out when he pushed me and called my mother to come get us. This was the biggest mistake I could have made. The next morning I woke up in my mothers house still upset from the fight. She was being very pushy with me and ended up calling an expensive lawyer and the police without my consent. She embellished […]
When they fought, I chose not to fight.
When they cried, I thought there is respite.
Amidst the squibbles and squabbles of life,
My kindly nature kept me rife.
But then came doubt I did my self.
I did my nature, I did my health.
I doubted everything I felt,
And on I went to change my self.
I tried to turn the course of the stream.
Not knowing I was only killing a dream,
Of little joys and a profound realm,
On I went on a broken whelm,
For other dreams were going to be at helm.
I had walked too far still mind […]
I am so disappointed with how everything ended I’m so hateful towards myself and everything around me so I have these moments were I cease to have any control over my rage today I got in a fight with my brother and all I could think was to make sure he never fucked with me again to seriously harm him Idk why I left Idk how i did eitherthe urge to let the rage take over was so strong (no he’s not much younger than me and no I didn’t even make him bleedi really wanted to do much worst)
Suicide is not a joke. It is a battle you fight with your inner spirit and your feelings. For some people, suicide starts with bully, one of the most commons reasons why most deaths in suicide are the range of teenagers and young adults. I am in that range and I was one of the many who had almost succeeded in taking my own life. Suicide don’t just happen because we feel like it, there is always a reason and the main reason suicide comes about in someones mind is because they are being bullied. Being a victim will bring up all kinds of thoughts […]
I get unnecessarily blamed for everything by my EX best friend for the last year. She’s a fucked up little girl who walks all over people and uses them, then twists it on you making you feel like you’re at fault and that you’re a piece of shit. For real, this time, I don’t think we’ll talk again. This time she’s gone too far, showing up at my house and laying her hands on me trying to fight me. All because her friend got in a fight with her ex over some stupid shit and was upset, therefore I’m a bad friend for hanging out […]
I hate my life, I hate who I am, I hate that I ever existed here. I know full well I will never amount to anything,.my family thinks I’m so smart, and I go along, no I’m not smart…if I was I wouldn’t be in this mess I’m in.
I really don’t deserve this life, I don’t deserve to be alive. I don’t why I’m saying this, I just had a moment of thought. I have alot of time alone and it gives me too much time inside my own head.
There seems to be no way to break this, I see the future as hope…because I […]
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Ive always fought but this time i am tired feel defeated and do not see how i can get past this. Â Every other time i could find my fight song… this time i just dont feel it in me.
I moved out of my mum’s house to get away and have a chance at living. There I was falling behind in school, and I had to raise both of my siblings and take care of them even though one was three years older than me. I did all the house work, cooking, and cleaning. I played Mum because no one else cared. Finally, ten months ago, I moved out and in with my aunt and cousins. I don’t know which place is worse. Everyone here hates me. I’m the ***** that moved in and ruined everybody’s life even though I’ve been generous and I […]
Fine.
When the world come crashing down, don’t you dare cry to me, don’t ask me why, we tried to tell you, you wouldn’t listen, now you can face the consequences of your ignorance and inaction.
If you have the ability, you have the responsibility, each and every one of you, you really blew it.
You never fought for what you had, now it’s disappearing, little by little, and because nobody’s shot anyone, nobody’s dropped a bomb, and nobody’s taken to the streets to protest, you’re none the wiser, and you’ll refuse to give a shit even when you’re dragged off in the near future for even a […]
Angry all the time. Lost. Frustrated. Tired. Angry at the world and at myself. Still blood dripping down my face from getting in a fight with my brother and getting angry about being weak and cutting my temple just to let go of some of the anger. Girlfriend of 4 yrs got angry and walked out, and rightly so. It’s hard to fight the enemy when the enemy is yourself. I……just don’t know what to do anymore, and maybe I never did. I can’t do this anymore. But I don’t know how to change. Been on meds, counseling, you name it…..I just…..still trying to figure […]
Being
Black
Young
And
Poor
Who
Could
Ask for
More?
My faith
In humanity
Has suddenly
Been destroyed
No joyful mornings
Just mourning nights
Where my fight
Is useless
Just
Like
My life
Show me
Fair
Show me
Love
Show me
The lessons of my childhood
Were not just a deception
Of my conception
Of who I’ve come to be
Remind me
Of who I am
Not what you
Want me to be
I’m still around. Counting the days. Listening to that inner clock, tick tock, tick tocking away. I wish I could hear it winding down. It’s an never ending repetition though. Just like life, even the wait for the end is a never ending disappointment. Will the last day sneak up on me or will I see it coming days or weeks away? Really none of that matters. All that matters is that it does get here and quickly. I dreamed a dream of dying a few nights ago. But it was a lie. I woke up alive the next morning. I’ve heard so many people […]