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Moments Challenge

by Take a Deep Breath 11/12/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

*I apologize if this turns out to make no sense. I’m on a couple prescriptions that are new and make my thoughts to finger connections cooky.*

There she is. Floating- floating through it all. She steps outside, ducking her head under the door jam. Inhaling the scent that only rain can bring, she smiles. Not a large, toothy, gums for all to see smile; no, this smile is very, very unique. It is the smile that touches her rosy lips when she sees something, or hears a sound that touches her soul. Nothing has touched her soul in a long, long time. Stomping her boot clad […]

11/12/2015 9 comments

Thinking

by nicole123 11/12/2015

written by nicole123

I always feel like I think a lot differently than most people. I always think philosophically about everything I do . It drives me crazy.

I really think that is one reason why I’m depressed. I’m always wanting to find a reason that humans are alive. I’m a nihilistic person I’m not religious or anything, but I think I need something like that in my life.

11/12/2015 18 comments

Lazy, Bad Person

by SlowDeath1 11/12/2015

written by SlowDeath1

So many of my “friends” (i.e. people that I know) have told me that I need to find something that makes me want to live. So I thought and I thought and I thought, and I came up with the fact that books….I can live for books. There are so many books that I can spend my time reading. I’ll never run out of books to read.

So once I figured this out, I started going to the library and checking out 20 and 30 books to read at a time. I’ve begun to read all of the time, spending whole days laid up in bed […]

11/12/2015 5 comments

I have a feeling that everything will be just fine

by Rotted_Flesh 11/12/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

We fall
In the good and bad
From the second story or love
A Saturday doesn’t get much better than this
I found a reason
I found a reason to bleed
Forget the stories that they read to you
And don’t you worry about anything
Forget the stories that they read to you
I have a feel that everything will
Be just fine
Forget the stories that they read to you
Everything will be just fine
Forget the stories that they read to you
Tear out the pages and we can write our own book
Divided in two
The needle and you
We can write […]

11/12/2015 0 comment

Stuck again

by Heidi930 11/8/2015

written by Heidi930

I’m stuck again… this time, I no longer feel the satisfaction I used to feel. Nothing seems good to me… watching a movie or TV show doesn’t satisfy… doesn’t distract me from what’s going on inside.

The scariest part, not even food tastes the same…

I wish I could find some relief… but I don’t know where to go… I’m not sure what to do.

The worst part? This is all my fault… I screwed up again…

I wish I were dead. Or maybe that I never existed… maybe then I wouldn’t hurt so many people.

11/8/2015 2 comments

Pathway

by Stardust 11/8/2015

written by Stardust

LIFE IS PRECIOUS IN SO MANY WAYS , SOME OF US WALK A DIFFERENT PATHWAY , A PATHWAY WITH AN ABRUPT ENDING ….. Life stops for us as we cannot move forward , I keep looking for the “Exit” door yet I cannot find it , it’s the only direction left as life is pointless , to just exist is futile and soul destroying . I have no form or function on Earth yet those who think they know me consider otherwise and this is where it becomes annoying , people who patronize others .

I have lived a somewhat honorable life and I state “somewhat,” […]

11/8/2015 1 comment

A Reason To Stay Alive

by Kakubetsuna 10/31/2015

written by Kakubetsuna

“You need to find a reason to stay alive”

A simple and annoying sentence that people used each time I come to them to explain about how I’m having suicidal thoughts. It’s easier said than done. While I hate it so much because they kept on replaying it like some kind of broken radio, I do realize it’s because they can’t really do anything about it. About me. I tried and be open about my situation to my most trusted friend. We argue a little about how she didn’t reach me and try to help. But in her defense, there’s nothing to help when I can’t […]

10/31/2015 10 comments

Positive Post Challenge :)

by Take a Deep Breath 10/29/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

Alrighty loves, here is today’s positive post challenge. Post something that inspires you, whether it be a piece of art or a name of a loved one or a book, movie, piece of music, etc. I am hoping that with this post, those who lack inspiration and beauty in their lives will find something here. Good luck loves 🙂

10/29/2015 6 comments

by Rotted_Flesh 10/28/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5C1a74UwynE

I never said that I wanted a thing
I never said that I wanted a thing
But everything you asked of me
I never said no to anything

Now everyone advises
I should be taking their advice
‘Cause everything you asked of me
I never said no to anything

And every night I’m a giant mess
We all know that you can’t come home
To a giant mess
So pick the scabs off all your wounds
Until you find the one that’s me
My brittle bones have seen me through
21 turns to 22

10/28/2015 0 comment

Courage

by Shards 10/28/2015

written by Shards

It takes a lot of courage to end your suffering

and even more courage to live through it

…. unfortunately, I have the courage for neither

Hello, everyone. First post here. Found this site about a week ago, and have been reading quite many posts since then. Maybe I should introduce myself… I am a man, just below 40, living in one of the Scandinavian countries. My life has been ok overall, aside for some suicide thoughts in my late teens, but I guess I was never serious about it then. Up until early august, my life has been fine, until it crashed completely. Even the day before […]

10/28/2015 9 comments

Indy video game concept – EUTHANASIA QUEST

by wndozh8er 10/26/2015

written by wndozh8er

The concept is to experience the lives of people who are suffering and trying to find the peaceful pill. It’s suppose to be a positive propaganda game with a deep meaning. A first person adventure, perferrably on a VR Headset.

You get to choose your own adventure based on your own personal experience – you can choose a mode were your severely depressed to the point that’s untreatable (this is were you break out of the psyche ward), a terminally ill individual who is in severe pain, a doctor trying to obtain it for his patient who wants to end there own lives, or trying to […]

10/26/2015 7 comments

Felo-de-se

by Mike Rowedick 10/26/2015

written by Mike Rowedick

Felo-de-se

Why did I have to be born this way?
Life’s a game, I’ll no longer play

Humiliated, degraded with every word that’s spoke
Why am I just a pathetic joke?

Why did I have to be born this way?
In a world like this, I’ll no longer stay

Treated like shit from the moment I awoke
The toughest of souls would find themselves broke

Why keep on living you disgusting, cock-less freak?
The same familiar words from all those whom bother to speak

Isn’t it wrong to treat me this way?
Why the fuck would I want to stay?

Just a pathetic tiny dick joke
Made to feel worthless […]

10/26/2015 0 comment

Huh

by No_one_care 10/25/2015

written by No_one_care

Sorry for writing again.
I just gotta know when will the tears stop running down my face whenever i am alone.
I just gotta know when will i finally find peace
I just gotta know when will i accept that things…for me will never get better
I just gotta know when will i get the same love i give out
I just gotta know when does mg pain end
I just gotta know how many times i am have to get on my knees begging for your help
I just gotta know how many pills should i take the next time
I just gotta […]

10/25/2015 4 comments

Reason…

by shadow@dusk 10/24/2015

written by shadow@dusk

: to be honest i simply have grown tired of life…. I was hoping that by doing this the right way I would grow stronger … strong enough so that even I wouldn’t have to talk to anyone about the burning inside my soul. the inadequacy that I feel every time I walk into room. The shadow that I cast at dusk… It is a large shadow. It is painted with my suffering and misdeeds. I am truly a monstrosity. I am unworthy to live. and yet… many keep telling me that God wants me alive. that I ought to keep striving to survive , […]

10/24/2015 3 comments

New S%#t-Read at your own…..

by theloser102 10/24/2015

written by theloser102

This will be my 2nd post here…. it is quite long, read at your own time, speed, risk, whatever………

I honestly do not see life getting any better for me, it might have been around 2 weeks since my last post and I should give more time for my life to “improve.” I have yet to find the right person to talk to about my problems in life, I do not want to talk to a counselor about it because I have tried that many times while I was in middle school and not only did it not help at all, they said your typical cliche […]

10/24/2015 4 comments

Look I want to die and i need help

by amar 10/20/2015

written by amar

Look I want to die and i need help. I m tried the scripts and not worked. I have no means to do this and i need help from somewhere. I need to be dead by the morning am desporate. I really need ********. I really really am begging anybody with any idea to help me escape from this existence. There is no hope my dream is to not wake up tomorrow and no matter how many different pills i take i keep waking up. what can i do? this is my dream. this is no gesture this is no gesture this important that. I […]

10/20/2015 3 comments

Help on a social dilemma?

by Quiet 10/19/2015

written by Quiet

Hello,

Well, I’m anxious to an extreme point right now about future events and was hoping for some advice because I have no one else to turn to right now and I am desperate for some guidance or reassurance, or whatever.

My problem is that I have been invited to a drinking session with nine other close friends for Halloween at which I am praying to stay over night (for obvious reasons and because of the company). The issue is that my mother is doubtful of letting me stay the night and the concept is only a possibility if she meets the host’s mother. The problem here is […]

10/19/2015 2 comments

How can I gather the courage to end my miserable life?

by nvm12 10/16/2015

written by nvm12

I’ve made a post a few days ago about my problem. I don’t know if it’s possible to view someone’s posts, but you are free to see my previous post if it’s possible if you want to know what my problem is. It’s loneliness, in a nutshell. A lot of the replies were indeed encouraging, especially those from people who could relate. My problem is that I’ve never even had a chance to be with a girl. I’m extremely shy and it took me 21 years to be able to just talk to girls, and now I lack the experience necessary to find a girlfriend, that’s […]

10/16/2015 39 comments

Day 11?

by Alex 10/16/2015

written by Alex

I’ve been meaning to post more often but most of the time I try to keep myself busy and try not to either cut or kill myself. Everyday.

Lately I’ve been feeling really, REALLY lonely and really wanting to find a boyfriend, but with my personality and me being very introverted and shy …. It’s really hard for me to approach really any guy or let any guy approach me … I’m just such a fail idk why I haven’t even attempted once more. Maybe this time it’ll work. Maybe I’ll fuck up myself even more. Who knows?

10/16/2015 1 comment

Who am I? Bipolar:1, Me:0

by Take a Deep Breath 10/14/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

Hello loves. Here i am, doing my math homework, listening to some classical cello/piano combo, and I had a thought. I don’t know how many of you suffer from a Bipolar Disorder… but sometimes it gets so damn hard. One minute, you are a crazy party girl, the next minute, a raving *****, the next minute, a girl full of light and love, and the next minute, someone who is only a reach away from picking up a gun and blowing her brains out. When I change moods, it is so hard to find who I truly am… I don’t even know who that is […]

10/14/2015 10 comments

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