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First Love

I wonder if he loves me still…

by Ifeelsoalone 8/27/2012

written by Ifeelsoalone

I emailed my ex after 2 years of not talking to him at all. He answered my email and it made my day. Then I wrote back and it’s been like 12 hours and nothing… I check my email every half hour I’m going crazy waiting to hear back from him. I still love him he was my first love and till this day no one can make me feel as good as he did. I wrote to him when I was feeling real bad, he use to be the person I called when I had my dark thoughts. I want him to say he […]

8/27/2012 4 comments

New here, so here is my story

by gracielou 8/17/2012

written by gracielou

So this will be a long one. I am 20 years old and a trainee hairdresser, I had Meningitis when I was 4, I live with my boyfriend and my housemates in a house share, I have depression and anxiety and I cannot cope with my emotions. I suppose things started to beÂ difficult for me when I was 8 years old, I had a pyscological issue where everytime I got in the car I needed to go to the toilet desperately, this was also at a time when my Dad hit me quite frequently. I saw a therapist about the problem and it was all […]

8/17/2012 1 comment

Empty

by shadow000 8/2/2012

written by shadow000

I feel empty. I thought I could be happy for a least a couple years before another tragedy came my way; but I
guess I was wrong. Five years ago on November of 2007 was the one month of my life where i was truely and completly happy.
I had my family, health, love, and my first love. Everything was great until December when my youngest sister passed away
caused of a drunk driver. From that day until today I wish it had been me instead of her. My family went through dark times. The day
of the accident, an hour before the events I […]

8/2/2012 0 comment

She just doesn’t give a fuck anymore

by emilysNotOkay 7/14/2012

written by emilysNotOkay

I’m dying for her. Literally. I gave everything for her yet she’s gone and is living her life as happy as ever while i’m stuck at home thinking about her and all of the times we shared. SheÂ repeatablyÂ told me she loved me and I used to believe her.

But now she doesn’t give a fuck that I can be seconds away from landing up in another hospital or in a graveyard. I will die for her I will do anything in the world for her but I know she doesn’t feel the same. She’s my first love and I just can’t get over her as hard […]

7/14/2012 8 comments

Silly Teenage Love

by Rain 7/12/2012

written by Rain

Ive tried to tell myself that it was just a phase, for the fact that it is common for a teenager of the female gender to develop feelings, or in my case, fall in love, with their male best friend. And since I run every feeling and thought underneath a “Logic” magnifying glass, I’ve been able to coax myself into believing that when I fell in love with my best friend at the age of 15 it was because of the fact that we had known each other for so long before we were teens, that the reason that he was my first kiss is […]

7/12/2012 5 comments

feel like i can be open without judgement on here.

by wedontbelonghere 7/9/2012

written by wedontbelonghere

well, ive never beenÂ somewhere where people kid of feel the same and i think it’ll do me good to like wriite this openly

im 17 and ive grown up with mysisters dad till ten who menaly and physicaly abused me.. he left. i also lived with a abusive alcoholic mum who constantly hiit,put me down and basically fucked me up (god iwish i knew this website earlier)

4 months ago my mum went to prison and im glad, my nan rescued me and im now living in a stable enviroment

ive felt alone most my life and never shared any of it to be honest except with […]

7/9/2012 2 comments

April of this year…

by ShamanGarrett 7/8/2012

written by ShamanGarrett

I’ll start from the beginning. I had a close, dear friend basically called him my brother. Xain, he was always there for me through thick and thin and would fight tooth and nail to keep me happy. He fell in love with me(this isn’t the root of the story) and I told him how i felt but kept him as a friend none the less and let him flirt how he wants. He was wiccan and openly gay, as a christian who was raised to love all I judged him not. He was adopted from Ireland when his druggie of a mother had him hooked […]

7/8/2012 0 comment

So cut my wrists & black my eyes so I can fall asleep tonight.

by _PrincessSin 6/21/2012

written by _PrincessSin

I hope everyone who sees this reads it, I am no one special, I’m an 18 year old girl with so much baggage. When I was 15 I met this guy & at first I didn’t let him in didn’t trust him or love him, but at some point my guards came down & I let him in, September 27, 2009 was our day and it all ended after a year & a half. Imagine me vulnerable & alone. In love with someone who promised me the world. Said he fucking loved me forever and ever and always and eternity. Then one day he didn’t […]

6/21/2012 8 comments

help

by brokenbeyondrepair 5/17/2012

written by brokenbeyondrepair

i’ve read a lot of these posts, since last summer. every single one i’ve read is like, poetic or something. well not mine.

i’ve been feelings suicidal since last year. i know it sounds pathetic, but it was because my boyfriend broke up with me. he was my first kiss, my first boyfriend and i feel like he was my first love. when he broke up with me, i just felt like NOBODY likes me or wants me, since he was my first boyfriend.

people have always picked on me, calling me fat, ugly, and other stuff. people always take me for granted and they always ignore […]

5/17/2012 3 comments

its me

by anokhi 4/6/2012

written by anokhi

i just start this by saying that iam none ohther than a desparate girl who wants love and affection.don’t know why god have designed my life in such a different way.In my chilhood i used to be a dancer,singer,script writer and even more a cheerful happy go lucky girl.all of a sudden everything changed dramatically.Being only daughter everyone called me lucky.in my 11th class i started my journey towards pain and day-to-day crying.Who knows that a single girl gets cheated from her own friends just because she looked pretty than her friends.i always wanted to smile even at bad situations too,,but see my fate […]

4/6/2012 0 comment

Life is grand, life is a lie…

by ironmiserie333 3/28/2012

written by ironmiserie333

To start I have been watching this site for a year. I have witnessed sorrow, pain, emptiness, death, and living the life of death. I have also watched a few people climb from the edge and feel wonderful.
I am so sorry to tell you this but that lasting happiness is a lie. Someday everything you built will come crashing down. Your spouse will leave you sure to your mental wearing them down. Those people who can see the worlds splendor will never truly understand us.
I have a good job, a sweet step-daughter, a beautiful wife, and the cutest dog in the world.
I […]

3/28/2012 5 comments

lost

by QuixoticNomad 3/28/2012

written by QuixoticNomad

I don’t really know what to say except that I’m hurting.

I’m lost in the blackest of blues and the coldest of blacks; the half-light is gone. There are no stars and I have no compass. I walk the flat lands knowing where you are, but knowing I can never go there again. Emotional pain slams into me wave after wave only to wrap itself around my heart, squeezing, before releasing for the next wave.

I’m so sorry for what I did to you, yet, there is nothing that I can say, no amount of self-flagellation that can redeem me in your eyes — Continue Reading

3/28/2012 6 comments

break up suggestions?

by special 3/2/2012

written by special

Hi just broke up withÂ bf…we were toether for three years

i don’t know what to do now…i feel like back to him but he will treat me sh** again…

he was the only one who knew about my major depression..and also that i don’t take medications yet due to some personal reason…but he always blamed me..this time he said that he don’t feel the love no more..because i am moody all the time..and i said i am sorry but his reply was “i don’t care”

so did i do right by breaking up with him? its no doubt that i still love him like there is no […]

3/2/2012 5 comments

I thought i was getting better.. but i still fall tonight.

by Shay 1/18/2012

written by Shay

I thought i was doing so great. Love is my poison. Confusion is like a knife. The fact i only have guy friends and every girl i know hates me when i’ve done nothing to them.. it hurts. you feel alone. my first love has become a monster. I just recovered from self harm and suicide a month ago and now im falling again. i want to be strong but i feel like i want to take something burning hot to my arm. possibly attempt to bleed again. i feel like everyone just thinks im completely annoying. i let the simplest things get to me […]

1/18/2012 4 comments

Trust me..

by constantmemories 1/10/2012

written by constantmemories

I have been through it all. I lost my little brother at a really young age and then after losing him watched my whole family fall apart. My mom started drinking, my dad left our family and i was the main caretaker of my 1 year old sister as I was 7. I started craving attention so i would go find guys to say they loved me. Then one got me into pot. Not saying pot is bad. But it completely changed my life around. I didn’t give a fuck about my family or my friends. Just sneaking out seeing my boyfriend and smoking […]

1/10/2012 1 comment

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