Silly Teenage Love

Ive tried to tell myself that it was just a phase, for the fact that it is common for a teenager of the female gender to develop feelings, or in my case, fall in love, with their male best friend. And since I run every feeling and thought underneath a “Logic” magnifying glass, I’ve been able to coax myself into believing that when I fell in love with my best friend at the age of 15 it was because of the fact that we had known each other for so long before we were teens, that the reason that he was my first kiss is given credit to the standard rising of a teenagers hormones.
But I’m 18 now and my first love has, for two years now, been wooed by some other gorgeous girl but, I, the tomboy he was in love with still holds his heart with no intentions of letting go. When our paths cross, and they do cross often, he stares at me still,  and now i’m a girly woman, that wears makeup and dresses…but he stares at me like he did the night of our first kiss when i was wearing basketball shorts and a wifebeater. His girlfriend sneers at me from behind him, for she knows she is the brick wall between us. We both catch him staring at me when I go to refill my drink at our McDonalds..where she works and WE used to hang out..She knows that I was the reason he was late to her house..but she doesnt know that we meandered down to the pond and sat side by side in the grass beneath the silver moonlight and he told me he missed me. I think about him constantly, every day since we fell in love at 15, 3 short years ago. Is this just some silly teenage love? When will it pass? It HAUNTS me…and I dont think i can take it any longer.