well this is the first time I’ve ever wrote on a site like this.im just trying it out to see if it helps me to deal with my problems as there’s no one I can talk to about it.”I fell like all my male friends think it’s “gay” to show emotions “don’t get me wrong there’s noting wrong with being gay” So a little bit about me, im a 16 year old male I’m into lots of stuff like music and art but not sport (wierd I no ) and I was diagnosed with depression just over a year ago. I find it hard to […]
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Hey, hi, hello. This is my first time using this website. I’m really glad I found It. Well I’m Sam, short for Samantha.
I just got into an awful argument with a boyfriend that I love oh so much. He put me down. We both have gone through the same thing. He however, expects me to become as strong as he is. I’m not, and it’s hard. I’m really weak and a coward. I feel like if I died it would make him happy. I fee like it would make everyone happy. I don’t want to go on knowing one day he thought I was perfect […]
On Thursday night after you didn’t reply I felt alone
On Thursday night it was the first time in a few months that I sobbed myself to sleep
On Thursday night I felt so suicidal
On Thursday night I felt the lowest of low
On Thursday night it was going to be the second time I cut
On Thursday night I was so frustrated with myself I threw my scissors across the room
On Thursday night I was so so so so so close to the edge
On Thursday night I felt very very very worthless
On Thursday night I felt very very very useless
Is he just teasing me??? What should I do when I meet him next time???
by snowflake
written by snowflake
Last weekend my family and I went to visit my grandma at hometown. I saw all of my cousins who I haven’t seen for a year or more than we greeted each other but one of my cousins, started to show signs that he maybe is interested in me?
I just want to know if it’s just family love or that he likes me. When I was eating and talking to my mom and sister, and he was on the other side of the room talking to his mom. I occasionally would look to direction he was in and he would be looking at me. A while […]
I cut myself for the first time in a year…I hate on what I did but I had to get the pain out one eay or other…im trying to hide it from my family because my grandparents said if I do it again they are going to make me go to a hospital so I can get help…but here the thing no one can help me only I can help myself because its my doing
I know it is selfish for me to be jealous of my family and friends that are dating their boyfriends or girlfriends. I just can’t help it. Ever since I fell for you and you decided to rip my heart out I just can’t stand seeing others happy. I mean sure I am really happy for them because I care about them, but I just don’t understand why I’m not happy like them. They have everything going for them and a man or lady on there side. Oh man, how I wish to kiss a boy. I haven’t in so long. I just want to […]
The first …
The idea of suicide … the spark of a thought that you don’t have to deal with this, that there is some other alternative…Â As mild and as “innocent” as psychiatry like to make it out, it’s just as dangerous as any, exactly for that reason…Â People don’t take it serously when someone just says “I feel like killing my self”…Â they feel that if you have the clarity of mind to share it, your not a suicide risk…your just feeling like you are caught between a rock and a hard place… so they put you on “retreat” for a couple of days […]
Today was the first time I’ve been home alone with you sense January 4. I can’t believe what happened that day… It’s hard for me to forget.
I was smoking at the window. Then I “saw” myself lying dead on the road. No blood. I saw myself from behind just dead and for the first time since I’m thinking death should be a solution to my problems I got the courage (I felt an impulse) to jump. I was feeling good imagining me jumping from the window. I’m still afraid from that feeling. My life is just a piece of shit and I found no ways to get rid of my frustrations. Years studying, getting good grades and fighting against a chronicle disease that have ruined my life and only gave me […]
well, we hugged for the first time on Thursday, then again on Friday but we didn’t hug today
Sorry I stole this from another post and just thought it was cute
Hi I’m Ana.
I made an account because this site looked interesting, and I’ve been suicidal for a long time. So while I’m here, I just thought I’d give you some general information about myself.
-I’m 15 years old, and more mature than a lot of teenagers my age.
-Female
-I’m insecure about a lot of things, but one thing about myself is that I’m damn well proud of my body.
-I’m easily angered.
-I don’t share a lot of personally information.
Disorders, Hospitalizations, Self-harm History
Disorders
(None of these have been self-diagnosed)
Mood Disorder (most likely bi-polar)
Anxiety Disorder
Sexual Re-activity Disorder
Anorexia Nervosa
This is going to sound corny and lame. I’ve tried to kill myself when I was 20 and when I was 22. I haven’t cut myself since for the last I want to say 3-4 years now? I have some larger scars higher up on my arms, and then smaller ones that really show if I some how let myself get tan all over my arms. It is kind of interesting… like you won’t see them until I point them out. So long I wear a shirt, no one sees the big scars, but at the same time I’m always some how reminded of my […]
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