I am so very alone. I mean this in the way not one  single person i know would be like your the person i need to talk too and hang out with right now. I dont have that person i dont mean like boy/girl friend thing. I mean that person in your life that gets you. I hate this feeling, i always feel out of place and just wrong ike i been in the wrong for noting and everything. I wish i had someone to talk to not about serious stuff just to laugh giggle maybe cry with one person i could feel that wasnt […]
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My Life Is Getting a Little Better Cuz My Girl Friend Is With Me And I Did Not Lose Her I See Her At Barns and Nobles And We Have a NIce Time But f She Lives Me I Dont think i WILL LIVE WITH OUT HER
life seem to come to a stand still, do not know where to go, what to do, my husband cheated me for a girl, i tried to live with him,13 long years  waited and waited but no he has built a strong relationship with her, a friend approached me promised me to be a good friend but got into a relation, i thought my husband would feel jealous and would be by my side but no he and his girl friend has taken photos in private. my parents have brought me up with good habits, i somehow got over the relation becoz it didnt help […]
They ask me if I’m okay knowing that I know what they want me to say. I smile say I’m fine it’s like this everyday. Most of us don’t have a life because depression has literally taken over are life’s. I was so happy.. He made me happy he’s the only guy I will ever trust. I’m a bad girl friend it’s to much for me I can’t help it I was dependent on him for happiness. I told him he would have to leave and start his own life. He told me where ever that is he’d take me with him and now he’s […]
This isnt really my story but ill tell you anyway.
when i was growing up i had i close girl ‘friend’ who played with me every day. unlike me though, she was from a broken home and was abused by her dad, i was to young to understand at the time.she put up with this until she was a about 12 when her dad went for it and….well you can probably guess what happened, after that she tod the cops and they probably took him to prison.
it’s now 4 years after her dads gone (i dunno were she don’t tell me) and […]
This is my story about how i had my heart broken a couple of times. it soon spawned a fear of abandonment in me and made me think i was never good enough. if you wish to hear how i survived my hardship then please read this.
I was born different from other kids. i chose not to give in to the social flow and i  lived how i felt. i had friends, a pretty good amount. i fell in love many times and had a few relationships. I grew up being who i felt was me. Sometime around the summer of 2012 about early June, […]
This is kind of long….
The longer I sit here the more I think about not posting this, returning to my dark corner of existence, but posting will relieve some of this pressure… I hope. I don’t know why I chose now to share my story, but then again maybe I do. For my degree I have to take a mandatory counseling class, and to pass the class we were made to stand in front of the entire class and tell about how screwed up our lives had been. Loss. Heartbreak. Rape. Molestation. Abuse. Suicide. We heard it all. Having to go through my own personal […]
stop look stop look frees do nothing
look at the body of the dying girl
look at the struggling form
of the girl who your friend did love your friend and he loved her in return
look at the horror on her dying face
look at the mistake she made
to end her life on the end of a rope that swung her this self same day
she knew this as she died
she tryd she tryd she tryd
to take the noose from her neck and end all the liys
you stood ther for a second or too
your feet thay coud not move
you know thows 2 seconds nothing coud make you move
so to this day you […]
i am starting not to see a reason to go on. i lost my family. my car,my friends, my job, my house, and my girl friend for the past 9 years doesn’t know if she want to be with me in her new live 500 miles away.i was so happy just 3 months ago when i had all those things and now i want to give up. every day i say to my self “i want to go home ” but the place and girl i called home is gone and will never come back. how do i find hope when my dreams and goals […]
So like an hour ago, I got a visit from 2 of my best friends here in Oxford.
One of them is a girl. Another is a boy, which if you read my last post, my crush.
I told them, I was drunk while I was in the State, I know I promise them not to get drunk again after that night in Oxford. They were pretty mad, which of course, they have absolutely right to, I deserve that.
They began to preaching me about being depress, choice to get drunk blah blah blah
And then they asked, why I have to be depress? when has this begin?
You know […]
Dear Friends gud evening to all of my staff today i.e., 08/10/2012 i want to die becoz i dont want to live in this world there is an small incident happen my girl friend left me before 3 months i loved her very much but she left me as alone ………………………………………………………..
im so tired of having to go on with being messed around with friends and my girl friend getting told to kill my self being judge and getting made fun of by people who just know my name im going to hang my self tonight im sure of it things were going so well for the longest time and today i just snaped i cant take it
i was a very happy guy i used to live ma life without any depression though i was not having any girl friend nor i do have now bt then to i was satisfied with ma life i also completed my MBA this year i am quite a good looking guy & was expecting a good looking & sexy girlfriend in future but besides that i was having a little gap in my front teeth so i decided to remove those gap by doing composite bonding but that fucking female dentist did not tell me its disadvantages of composites nor she even told me that […]
Ive felt like killing myself for so long now. I thought I was fine for a little bit but what do ya know…. I’m back. I hate almost everything. No one answers or talks to me. My dad is all the time asking and saying hurtful things “you have any friends son?” “you gay or something?!” “when you gonna get a girl friend?” just things of the sort and it dosnt help at all. My brother used to call me adopted when I was little. I know he was kidding and just being how a lot of big brothers are. But I really wish I […]
so i posted something on a website,i posted that i was trying to make friends, friends and nothing more, so this dude replies,and says he wants to be friends, so he writes me once, i write him once,then his girl friend starts harrassing me going into his email, talk shit, acting like i was trying to be more then friends,saying i destroyed her family, i dont even know her family, and i keep telling him to leave me alone to, and he wont, is it even possible to destroy someones family if you never met them and only talk to someone a couple times through […]
Well recently my girl friend died I really see no point in living anymore because she was the only one i had that could actually keep me from cutting now she is gone. I’m so alone without her. She made me happy and made me feel like I actually belonged somewhere I just don’t want to believe that she is gone. It feels like a bad dream that I’ll wake up in the morning, but there is no morning in my future I only have night when it is dark and scary. I need her back but I will never get her back. Life never plays fair. I just […]
im 14 and i tried slitting my wrists but it didnt work……..i even took a REALLY hot bath before i did and…well……yea didnt work. my moms a ***** she calls me names all the time and hits me, my dad raped me when i was 5 then left i have litterally no friends everyone calls me “sooty suicide” because of my large scars on my wrists, i just wanna die so i dont have to dream of all the horror and shitty-ass memories i had. my boyfriend of 3 months cheated on me, with my best friend…. im uglier than the child of rosie o’donnel […]
Well im not sure why im here i geuss this site just felt like the best place to share my story. Ive helped a lot of suicidal people and i was told that i was very good at helping to change there lifes i listened to them and helped but ive never had any one help me. When i was born my mother and father were addicted to cocaine things weren’t so bad my dad had a stable job and i had my grandfather. When my grandfather died i was about 4 or 5 my dad became closer to my uncle who was also a drug […]