I don’t want to live anymore. I hate life, I hate everything. I really want to take my life away but I can’t. I’m a Christian and believe in God. I don’t want to go to hell. My life is pointless. I go to these “special” classes, only two and I hate it. I was doing bad in school and got put there last year. That’s like telling me I’m dumb or something. I get a headache when I get there, I’m not the same. I tried asking my mom to put me in regular classes like the rest of my friends. I’m not dumb […]
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We are the future of us all
we are the generation who is destined to fall
we are the present’s invokable call
we can’t be heard through the last generations wall
we destroy ourselves without remorse
we set sail on an unchangeable course
our parents have made us who we are
they have locked us up behind concrete and bar
suicide and drugs seem our only escape
we all go out with chalk lines and yellow tape
all victims of depression and anger
some are popular some the more stranger
we all grow up whether we want to or not
because […]
I work in a restaurant.
I am constantly surrounded by knives.
God, it’s so damn tempting.
Music is what stops me from cutting…but I can’t really have my headphones in, and I can’t blast death metal in a family restaurant for some reason.
So what am I supposed to do?
It’s so hard not to pick up a steak knife and cut my wrist up.
The only reason I haven’t is thanks to my boss.
My boss is my neighbour, family friend, and my boyfriends father.
I don’t want him to be ashamed of me, because he’s the reason I have my job.
But it’s hard…sometimes I wonder if the urge to cut […]
you don’t understand how all your words hurt. Even if you don’t mean them..they still hurt. The I hate you’s, the are you sures because *insert my name here* said it and usually she’s wrong, I know what your like, and the I’ll do it because I know your a klutz. Petty things to say, I know, but yeah they do hurt. I know I’m not perfect I know I do stupid things. But the way you treat me like a god damned 3year old ad you show no trust is the reason I frigging hate my life!!!
I Have a very bad history, I have an abusive father, I have been raped by my brother when I was a kid, I Lost what was precious to me, etc. here recently I have been feeling like a machine, I have been reading what these scientists have been saying and they say that consciousness is a quantum process and that the soul is universal material and that pretty much everything we do is all body based. if that is so then can someone tell me the best way to commit suicide, I dont want to live my life if I am just a fucking […]
Why people let people die?:o WHY? They see someone cuttin himself. ”Its for attention” The this guy dies. ”Omg omg omg I loved him please God bring him back”. . Are you kiddin me?-.- People are so afraid to face people who self harms and they dont give a damn cause they want to protect themselves!
Someone said to me ”GO DIE suicide retarded”… Does he really want this?o.o
So this is my first story here…
I’m 20 years old and have been thinking about suicide since I was about 7
(yes, for real)
Thing is, back then, I was also happy… The biggest problems I had were
“my brother ate my chocolate” and so on… And well, now, with getting older, encountering other *more severe* problems in life, they still don’t get to me in a way that I would want to kill myself because of them. As said in the title, I’m a quite happy person.
But in all these years, all this time, there is a constant need to end it all…
My urge to […]
George Harrison’s “Stuck inside a cloud”
OM Shanti, Shanti , Shanti
Peace, Peace, Peace
Sometimes when I look at life
I wonder how I got this far
All I see is that god shed His amazing grace on me
There’s no other way
I could have survived this place
But by myy Lord showing me the way
Through this sin filled world
That we have inhabited as our temporary place
Until we get to see our Father’s face
On that bright and shiny day
When we get to go home to stay
I’m a product of fucked up rage
Higher masses breed hate and discrimination
Only to further strengthen my cage
They feed the mindless mases lies
These are the screams of the outcast trying for a revolution
Mindless masses bore masscarades of confusion
YOuths lose reality in the game of life
Telling themselves to win one last fight
A fight to take their lives
A fight to whisper in the ear of th e higher masses
In turn they scream of a nation under God needing to arise from the ashes
This is the new holocaust
The outcast are now the ones persecuted
This is not […]
1. I am healthy.
2. I eat well.
3. I sleep well.
4. I have a very small social group around me. Very small, but they lift my mood. They make me laugh. They make me enjoy. I do not have a family, or love, but that is okay.
5. I am going to college soon. There is a long path stretching ahead. It may be dark and twisting, but at least it is not a dead end.
Even though recently I have been feeling a bit sad. I just realize how people have boyfriends and girlfriends, how people can fall in love, make life meaningful. How people have parents, […]
I’m desperate. I don’t want to anymore. Please, God, I’m begging you, make sure I will die accidently. Let there be a strong wind, when I’m standing at the platform waiting for my train, so I’ll fall off the platform onto the rails and the train will drive over me and I’ll be dead. Or let my bus get a serious accident I won’t survive. Do something, God, I’m begging you. Kill me, it’s the only way to save me from myself. Please, God, make sure I’ll die…
~ What if there’s only one way out?
One way to feel better,
one way to love myself.
aha gettit? Cause I’ll die. I hope you do understand the just of it because most don’t, they don’t understand the god damn fake mask, and quite frankly it itches and I want to take this god awful smile away when it’s not true. I will do it, either your in or your out. Choose, looking at my coffin or laughing beside me on the way down? I don’t want you to die…. Of corse I don’t 🙁 but you won’t let me go, without you too… And.. I can’t take it. Your life or the time in this everlasting nightmare
Regardless of what you do in this life you will go to a place after death that is 1000 times more real vibrant and wonderful than our current life. However we are here for a reason. This is not a competition regardless of what you do in this life you will go home to where you were before you were born and where you will be after your time here is done. You can do NO wrong in this life and are loved and cherished forever. You are a miracle of god, and whether you realize it or not, what makes this earthly physical realm […]
i m 22 years old and i m the biggest loser in the world. I have failed in each and every field of life, studies, sports, socialising, relationships, etc. i love a girl very much. but she has no feelings for me and she keeps on saying, “i dont love u, but i want u just as a friend”. these words tears my heart apart. i even stopped contacting her. but she contacts me once in a week and repeats the same lines. i just cant take it any more. but i cant even b rude to her.
i suck in sports. whenever i play i […]
I like to hold my neice
I like to kiss her as much as i can ^_^
I like to hold her hand
only she recieves this great amount of love from me!
why is she different?
Why can I love her so much!?
She LOVES me!
Love is all I need!
I love this baby so much!
the best 4 year old ever!
She is my world!
she is my everything!
I cant imaging a world without her!
she keeps me alive!
WHat about her, is making this all possible~?
MY neice!
she gets excited when I come home!
The first person she wants to see is ME!
She likes to ONLY sleep in MY room!
what has caused such a STRONG BOND!?
Im […]
I fight and I fight…why do I fight!? I fight to live, I fight to breathe, I fight to eat, I fight to smile, I fight to be happy. Why am I fighting myself!? In this endless battle, I am always winning! I constantly win the battle, I fight for the right to hurt myself! When will my REDEMPTION come!? Why wont people understand the pain and hurt that I inflict upon myself!? It is not my fault, I do not consciously choose to harm myself. DO I!? I look to blame no one, yet the universe always finds a way to FUCK with me! […]
right now as i write this im crying tears, and i dont know why. I want to tell my mom that i cut and that i am slowly falling apart, but if i do how will i be the strong perfect big sister and daughter that everyone thinks i am? I love my sisters with all of my heart, but.im going to break soon, and i dont want them to see it. I also dont want to call someone or some organization, because i know that i will probabaly just get put on hold. But i guess thats life? That brings me to a new […]
I have been struggling almost all my life since my dad passed away since 1999. I never really had much opportunity to make something of myself. I am now in school for nursing but also I am jobless. I am constantly looking for a job but to no avail. I really have been praying for God to show me mercy by allowing me to play and win the lottery. If care is not taken I am about to be homeless. I sometimes think of committing suicide but really I am scared to attempt it. I really need financial […]
My Ultimate Downfall
Written By: Markus Jolley
Here I am mourning at her tomb,
As I weep, my tears hit the ground,
 As I weep, my hate starts to consume,
Of love lost or of love found.
 I Looked up to the stars and asked God why,
I Loved her, and then you, God, you took her away!
Why did this happen, why did she need to die?
I can’t deal with this; it gets harder each and every day.
 So I’m alone now, weeping silently in the night,
 I did everything […]