I’ve read many posts on this site, and the many responses that went with them. I realized that it was the same thing over and over again, someone is hurting and they reach out to anyone who might listen. Then those compassionate few who happens to stumble on the post responds. It’s like an endless cycle, you know? To all those people who are suffering, I just want to say I’m sorry that I can’t help you much. I honestly don’t know what to say to you, “Just stay in the game, it’ll work out…don’t give up”? It’s  not the most convincing advise. So, I just want […]
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I thought I was finally okay…
I had found the guy of my dreams…
He loves me scares and all…
He loves me for me…
He helps me up when I fall
And holds me close when cry
But i’ve slipped to far this time…
Farthest I’ve ever fallen….
I know I’m loved by at least one.
But each and everyday I feel
Self hate building stronger.
I’ve attempted to change myself…
Hateing the result each and every time…
I’ve tried to end it well over a hundred times….
But yet I’m still sitting here crying in pain…
The blood from my cuts seep down my wrist climbing over each scar…
He begs for me to not give up….
But this is […]
I have attended four highschools, all completely different. With completely new teachers, new classes, and new classmates. With each school year I’ve been that girl who rarely spoke, the girl who just went to school then went back home.I had no life, because I never opened up and allowed people to get close to me.
Every new school year my mother says I’ll find some new friends who won’t stab me in the back, but every time I’m invited to hang out, my mother says no. She claims it’s because she doesn’t know these people, and I think ‘how will you ever know them if […]
I hate life at this moment and I’m not sure if I wanna wake up tomorrow …..who would care well no one so goodbye to all good luck with our screwed up fucked up lives
These past few days I’ve been talking to this young woman I will not say any names out of respect for her. But she’s had a really tough week, I texted her yesterday, I said “Hey, just checking in on you. I hope you haven’t ended your life. I hope your reading this.” I thought about her all day, she finally texted me back last night, she had taken the pills hours earlier. She said her liver was already shot, but I didn’t give up hope for her life to go on. I talked her into calling 911, I was so proud of her, and proud of myself for […]
my mama used to tell me: if you can’t find something to live for, you best find something to die for (2Pac)
if you can’t find reasons, a cause to live nor to die for : you simply are in deep shit .. good luck to whoever is in this situation, life becomes quite a burden
It has been awhile since I have been here, not suicide just, here. this site.
I don’t have much to say except, tonight is the night.
Good luck to all of you <3
I think it’s really nice how some people on this site just wish others good luck, for there suicide to be quick and peaceful rather than trying to convince them otherwise and probably just make them feel more pathetic. It’s also very cute reading through the comments and seeing that someone out there has made a difference to somebody and helped them through. It’s also great to see people finding others out there who feel exactly the same as they do and others offering there contact details so they can talk things through. 🙂
On another subject I wonder how young some people are when […]
hi all.
someone (me) took my username, so I used my username as my password. anywho.
some idiot told me to call the suicide hotline about a month ago, and I’ve called it before, and from many different states in the USA. this was about a month or year ago. I really do forget.
I tried to kill myself for about 5 years maybe ten. I stopped trying to kill myself about 4 years or maybe 3 years ago now. Now I bounce in between states, jail and doctors offices. it’s great don’t get me wrong, if I had a gun I would shoot hella stuff, but I […]
… no one gives a damn, nor should they. No person, ever, should be made to feel as if they should care for the life, happiness or fulfillment of another.
Think of the large march of humanity before you – of the never ending crowds that follow – I am but a single face in a sea. Each of us are focused on his or her own issues; our own petty concerns, frustrations, self-indulgent narcissistic pleas for attention. Let us all sleep at our own leisure. I too am done; and it’s my right to be.
Once conceived in its fullness, the idiocy of the human race […]
Gun show on Saturday. Hopefully the day of my suicide. I will make arrangements for someone to take the password to my iphone so they can get a good glimpse at y memoirs in my notes. I will begin to write suicide notes for all my loved ones, maybe send one last message onto the original suicide project. Good bye OSP. Good luck with your lives. Ut mortem occupet nos
Ut mortem occupet nos
Ut mortem occupet nos
Lifes to short to put that kind of energy into some one that won’t step up and be real with u and themselfs. And sometimes we do go through life with blinders on and we get confused when they leave us and then they want us back when there done having fun !!,-_- but I think we are the last of a dieing bread and I’m sorry. People don’t see it ya were all human but there are different blood lines and for some reason I feel that most of the people on this site are somehow conected. If u take the time and […]
(Written with a shattered suicidal heart)
If I could go back in time
to when you asked me out
I’d look at you and say
of course, without a doubt
The kids at school can laugh
the kids at school can stare
but they just dont know
the love of ours is rare
I don’t know what to say
and I don’t know what to do
I don’t know how to tell
I want my 1st kiss with you
I wish that you would hold me
in your arms at night
wrapped around my heart
wrapped aroung my sides
I only wish that you could know
all the things I […]
To start I have been watching this site for a year. I have witnessed sorrow, pain, emptiness, death, and living the life of death. I have also watched a few people climb from the edge and feel wonderful.
I am so sorry to tell you this but that lasting happiness is a lie. Someday everything you built will come crashing down. Your spouse will leave you sure to your mental wearing them down. Those people who can see the worlds splendor will never truly understand us.
I have a good job, a sweet step-daughter, a beautiful wife, and the cutest dog in the world.
I […]
Hate it, seems like I always have… Somewhere along the line I had three kids… I really hope they don’t have problems like me. I cant do anything I would like to about my problems cause I refuse to saddle them with that… Freaking stuck like chuck in a worthless whirlwind of shit. I would tell you my story but there is no beginning and unfortunately no end in site. Somewhere in the middle are some selfish parents a cheating wife and whole bunch of money problems…. Three great kids though… I cant screw them up 🙁 . Its like a life a sentence on death row… Hows […]
Last post.. hope you all find your way in the world. Life ain’t always beautiful but some things are worth fighting for. I think what most of us need is just someone to listen to us once in awhile. Always remember to return the favor. Molly if you see Amatura, tell her thanks for the laughs. it wasn’t personal. good luck to you all. last one up, turn the lights out and lock the door please. a little song I used to like when I was a kid. Later.
Hi everyone, am a forum newbie. Decided as it is new year, will also register straight away.
Where to start, I am female, 30 from the UK. I have suffered Borderline Personality DIsorder as far back as I remember I, just came out of some calm BPD remission time (no love life or want for one) ie a want for a love life arose. But the feeling was not reciprocated, hence been feeling suicidal, now here. I don’t want sympathy. I just wish to be abit of a lurker and learn good methods for the time when this happens again, which it will (always does) and […]
For most of my childhood and adult life I have had enjoyable and pleasant dreams, however for the past twenty years I have not had one single good dream. I was told that I was probably having “good” dreams but forgetting them by the time I got out of bed. Ten years ago, I bought a small tape recorder and put it on the head of my bed so the moment that I woke up from a pleasant dream I could just reach up and grab it and record what I had dreamed.
I can tell you that for the past ten + years I have […]
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