I thought I was finally okay…
I had found the guy of my dreams…
He loves me scares and all…
He loves me for me…
He helps me up when I fall
And holds me close when cry
But i’ve slipped to far this time…
Farthest I’ve ever fallen….
I know I’m loved by at least one.
But each and everyday I feel
Self hate building stronger.
I’ve attempted to change myself…
Hateing the result each and every time…
I’ve tried to end it well over a hundred times….
But yet I’m still sitting here crying in pain…
The blood from my cuts seep down my wrist climbing over each scar…
He begs for me to not give up….
But this is still the farthest I’ve fallen.
I don’t know how much more i can take….
I see how people treat each other with the bullying and nastiness…
It makes me sick! Sick to say I live on this planet with people who drive others to suicide!
When or if I end up succeeding in killing myself… In my note I’ll say goodbye to the only one I love and trust and the rest will be worded on the people go drive anyone to killing themselves or trying.. I’ve been in the victims shoes way to many times.
And everyone says bullying needs to end! Well I agree but it will never end!
We are taught how to stand up and fend for ourselves… But in the end we all chicken out… And just hope for the best… Well I’m done hoping for the best…
Hopefully this will be my last goodbye… I know I’ve said it before in my other older crappier posts…. But I really hope it is now…
Good luck with your futures and never give up without a fight! My fight is over… I have lost this battle and it’s time this battle came to a end for me… Goodbye <3