well I a about to pop five pills. Don’t let depression get to u like it got me stay strong.
Well guys i know i haven’t said my story and i’m not going to.But it seems that tonight is the night and i’m gonna do what needs to be done.
I guess i can mention few things about myself.I’m 19 year old male.I don’t really hold any religious believes but if there is an afterlife…i don’t want one because i simply don’t want to exist anyway.
Cya ^^
I hate my life so much.. I’m gonna kill myself now!
Goodbye everyone
Goodbye, Goodbye,
Tonight I die.
Today, Today
I’ll go away.
Tomorrow, Tomorrow,
Will be full of sorrow.
Goodbye, Goodbye,
I shall not cry.
I am going to end it. Goodbye <3
i just found this site while surfing ways to kill myself… i am so fed up with my life so i am quiting it by killing myself my GF thinks that i dont have faith on her and i am bad guy and my thinking also cheap… i never use any bad things to her, always loyal to her, give my all time to her but after listening these words from her my heart is full broken and wanna end myself so that one day she realise how much i love her.. thanks everyone for supporting me..and sorry for those who loved me …GOODBYE
Well I’ve lasted the night out, and half of the day so far. Except I can’t help but realize what a danger I am to myself. When I get suicidal, I become irrational, and as soon as a little bit of rationality gets into my brain, even if I am still suicidal, I become afraid of myself. I become afraid of what I can and will do to myself. Others don’t scare me, I don’t have monsters in my closet, because I am that very monster that haunts myself. Even today I’ve tried to jump off stairs countless times already hoping I would hurt myself. […]
Yup that’s how I feel right now. Screw it, screw all of it. Everything. I don’t even care anymore. I want out.
Every time I’m happy, or get motivated, or get some determination in me…it quickly goes away, like *poof*. So screw it, I’m done.
So for the past 2 months, I’ve been extremely depressed. I’ve hardly been able to get anything done. I had to take an incomplete for my class, and everything’s due tomorrow, yet I haven’t even done anything. I’m so screwed. I feel so helpless. It was a few weeks ago where I felt so depressed I thought that if I helped others, if I left little notes for strangers, I might feel better. Which I have been doing, I even started a blog about it called strangerafess.tumblr.com. My friend helped me with writing notes too, except these were supposed to be more funny ones, than […]
I’m still debating. If I want to go through with it or not. I’ve been thinking about it all morning, all night, these past few days and the different ways to go about it. What are the easiest ways, the painful, the painless, the long, etc. Actually if I go through with it, I don’t mind if I survive. I’m the kind of person who while (at least until now) I haven’t tried to commit suicide deliberately, I don’t care if it happens when trying to injure myself (aka I’m trying to hurt myself really badly not die, but if I die in the process […]
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2o14 has been the worst year of my life. My psycho girlfriend miscarried our child in the beginning of this year and I have never been the same. I’ve gone from being a social, funny, out going guy, to someone who stays away from everyone and doesn’t want to do anything anymore. I tried doing nursing in college, which is what I really wanted to do, but failed out and am going for a degree in criminal justice with intent to be a police officer, but I don’t have the best past which might keep me from being one and I’ll end up wasting my […]
I really can’t handle the pain anymore. It’s like a black void in my chest that hurts but makes me numb at the same time.
I can’t take the constant tears. I don’t even know what it’s like to be “happy.”
I’m tired of feeling lost. I wish I could go home, but I don’t have one.
What’s the point? People tell you, “oh don’t kill yourself, you’ll just hurt those who love you,” but what about ME? I’ve been hurting! Why do I have to live in pain, just to satisfy others?
Why can’t I just disappear and make the pain stop, make everything stop?
After long years of struggling and […]
Decided i’m going to go all out on a final attempt tonight, “double the dose and half the space”.
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on this forum, I didnt create this account until very recently but I have been reading your posts for a very long time. They have given me strength and kept me going throughout the worst moments of my life to date.
I wish all of you well in the future, I hope that the pain dissipates for anyone that is sufferring, and to all of you who provide selfless support to others, I salute you.
Thanks again.
To my beloved family and friends. I am sorry I have to do this, I hate myself for being so selfish. Please don’t miss me, don’t hurt. I made a decision, I can’t live in this cruel world anymore. You where all so great to me. This isn’t your fault, it’s mine. I’m weak, I can’t handle this. Please forgive me, or I will not be able to forgive my self. I will live on through you, in your hearts.
I’ve been cutting for a while now. I told no one, because I felt my reasons Where not good enough. I hate myself, I hate […]
I have set a new termination date, and I plan to depart next week. Hopefully this time I do not screw up and end up still alive. I feel trapped, and that I have to make this decision. Although I have been depressed and suicidal for the past seven years, I feel as though my feelings have catalyzed within the past few weeks. I’m sick and tired of always being sick and tired. Sick and tired of being a stupid, worthless,and hated burden on those that are around me. I am nothing more than a failure. I don’t […]
My life is a downtrodden groundhogs day.
I wake up every morning with a varying degree of hope and slowly pull myself out of bed. I turn on my computer, if it isn’t already on to charge my phone overnight, and my monitor then venture into the kitchen for a fresh cup of water. I like water. Fortunate I suppose, I know most people don’t. I could gladly skip juices and soft drinks for a steady supply of water. A fresh sip splashes my mind and cools my senses. Today isn’t so bad, I think to myself. If I’m hungry I’ll peer into the fridge and […]
…I’m giving up on you.
Tonight feels right. My heart is heavy, but this gun feels so light. Tonight is right.
Goodbye.
Just in case if I actually go through with it. This is my chance to say Goodbye to all SP members, have a great life ahead of you. You’re loving and caring people, you’re there for people when nobody else might not be there for him\her
I have tried endlessly,
failing constantly.
I am a disappointment to my family,
a terrible failure.
No matter how hard I try,
it’s never enough.
I punish myself constantly pushing further,
and still not approved.
I have endured a great deal of suffering,
to please my family,
and still not enough.
Having been burned, bruised, and strictly damaged,
all in the name of making them happy.
But, it is never enough for those fiends.
They take whatever they can out of me,
drain me till I am weakened and broken.
Just to destroy me more,
They have no heart towards me.
Caring not of what […]