Really, what’s so great about this world anyways? All I see are a bunch of people who have too many worries to be bothered with some suicidal girl, and I don’t blame them, I wish I could be one of them but I’m not. I’m just a repulsive, hard to love, self harming, suicidal girl. I’m no one special or anyone that will be truly missed. Can someone come and stab me to death, please? It would be much appreciated.
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Goodbye
To that little girl, smiling from ear to ear, with no worries on her mind and no demons in her head? Where’s the girl whose smile would light up a room, who laughed like there was no tomorrow, who would spend hours jumping in the rain, where’s the girl who enjoyed life?
What happened to me, what’s wrong with me? Now I am waiting to die, every second of every day just waiting. I’ve been waiting for 4 years now, when will it finally come to an end?
“When you grow up, your heart dies.”-The Breakfast Club.
i’ve just taken 10 aleves and i’m finishing up my note before i take any more. hopefully tonight will work
so back in october i made my first attempt and obviously failed but about a month ago i made plans for my second and now that’s in about 2 weeks. i feel really sick to say this but i’m excited. i’m sick and tired of this bullshit feeling and the only thing that gets me through the day is thinking “in a little bit it will all be over, you’ll be free” i know i should be thinking of everyone i’m going to leave but i’m so tired of living and being here that i could care less.
My family are all two-faced bitches! If only i had known sooner, i would have never had anything to do with them, although they caused me loads of problems from 2008-2010 so i don’t know why the hell i didn’t come to terms sooner, i’m most likely retarded… All i know is i hate them!
Hello my name is Arianna I am 15 years old. I have no reason to live. i hate this I hate all of this. I hate the human beings in this world who make it their job to judge and bully. I hate the models out there that are the pure essence of beauty when they are all bones and skin. I hate the stupid corrupted police system that turns a blind eye to a child being sexually abused because it’ll make their job easier to sit on their lazy asses!
So here I sit in hate with blood dripping from my wrists writing to […]
Goodbye.
I’m sorry if my absence hurts anyone, but my pain was too severe. I hated myself, and everything I did. I looked at myself and saw a fat, ugly, dirty piece of shit who fucked everything up. I just saw no more purpose in my life, and I stopped seeing a future for myself, and other people stopped having faith in me. Everyone I knew truely did not like me. I was depressed, not stupid. I could tell that people didn’t like me, and I don’t blame them, I didn’t like myself either. They said I was a *****, say I was stupid, say I was pathetic.. It’s all true. Everyone always belittled […]
I have decided on the date already. There are 2 and a half weeks to my 19th birthday, I will do it anytime during that time, or maybe on the day of my birthday.
There was never anything too wrong with my life, I just never cared or saw the meaning of working 8 hours a day just to get by in this world full of liars and cheaters. I hope that the people that actually gave a damn can forgive me. I hate when some of them tell me that I’m being selfish or cowardly, I know this is the easy way out but frankly […]
I’m almost ready. ready for the pain to end, even if it takes more pain. I wrote a suicide letter a goodbye.I have problems if I killed myself i would be doing the world a favor one less messed up person for people to look at and wonder what I’m like. Who I am. Everyone judges people. And in this world that’s all I am to most people. I was  abused. It changes a person getting slapped for not eating. Getting kicked for crying. Getting my head slammed into a  wall because I couldn’t stop crying. It was like that every day . I have problems. They are clear to […]
I don’t have any purpose. I am not cared for, or serve any importance. I’m fucked up. I think I’m going to do it.
I’m going to finally finish what I started,
and kill myself.
Just as I presumed, things can get only worse. And today, they got much much worse. I am currently failing two of my classes, my parents are screaming at me to go to school even though I dont feel well. My sister is pissed at me and threatened to kill me if I disturb her sleep. I wish she would so I wouldnt have to. Anyways, I have a big project that was due today and if I dont turn it in, ill fail the class and might get kicked out of school. I’m killing myself. Theres no question about it. While my parents and […]
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