i feel very depressed today the only thing that im thinking about is death. i crave for the peace that you guys talk about yet at the same time i want to hve a future i dont know what to do anymore. peace or future which one.
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So I think I have anxiety I get so worried and I get these headaches everyday I get shaky and my heart starts beating fast I told my friend that I think I have anxiety and she thinks I have it also I’m scared it’s going to get worst I want to cry sometimes but I hold it back I hate this I really need some help  do you guys have any advice to help me
There’s a pile of row boats on the beach and I’m wondering how well I could get away with rowing myself out really far on the lake in the middle of night, taking my pills and throwing myself over with a cinder block… LOL I am drinking too which is rare and I get stupid after a drink or two. But that would be more fitting for a viking like me! To die in the water where I belong!
I’ve considered outlandish things like if I could get away with going to Vegas to end it, until I really got an awesome idea that would be […]
Why are boys so stupid? For all the guys reading this, I would love for you to explain it to me. I have possibly fallen head over heels for someone, and they have no clue. They don’t even like to talk to me. Maybe I’m the stupid one. Eh, it’s probably him. Anyone, if anyone has an idea why they are so dangerously stupid, I would so like to hear it. Thanks for your totally not suicidal related help. Sorry for this post, it will probably be deleted in a little while.
got a 12 pack of natural ice and 2 25 ounces of it. I love you guys.
I wanted to say hi to all of you and wanted you to know that you are the most understanding people I know, and I’m grateful that you people exist and this website exists as well.
I also want to say that I’m definitely not here to encourage people or discuss methods or anything alike. I just want to be part of this community to share our feelings/experiences together. Together we will feel less lonely I believe.
I have been reading SP every now and then for the last 4 years, as the idea of suicide has been with me for that amount of time. My anxiety/depression […]
What does being happy mean to you guys? I want to learn how to be happy so I can make someone else happy. My depression always gets in the way. I just want to be happy. I want to know what happiness feels like. Can you fall in love when you don’t love yourself?
Its midnight and I’m sitting outside asking myself “what makes me “beautiful”?” I asked my boyfriend and i will post his response down below along with my opinion on others not myself as examples. So my question for you guys is, what makes someone beautiful in your opinion?
His opinion: “Honestly I can say every physical attribute, you’re fine to a tee, your skin, hair and eyes, lips and nose, body, adorable and majestic is your physical appearance but your attitude and emotions, the way you act in certain situations, that’s a real beauty in itself, you’re so cute on the inside even if you […]
Wndozh8r (did I get that right?) Been trying to tell you that I’m also from WV. I was born & raised in Morgantown. I am only surprised more people in WV aren’t in here, because living in WV is enough to make one want to kill themselves. 😉 lol (But actually I have had a moment or two of being homesick. It’ll be 2 years out of WV before I know it. I lost my whole family and life there.)
Somebody Insignificant (is that right?) Damn it to hell, I’m horny! Lol
And for others, I wonder what these guys look like who swear they’re going to […]
Hey everyone! I’m still in a barely good shape and still crying for things that shouldn’t even make you feel sad but I decided that I’ll go back writing. Well, it will probably be a run on whether I get crushed by the felling of panic or success to finish this first though.
But I decided that since I only have this I should at last risk it. As long as I can continue I’ll go back to my old routine of being crushed and get up again and again. I might be here a little less but I’ll probably come back time to time! I’m […]
Do you guys ever feel that cold sensation go through your entire body. It usually happens when I’m extra depressed.
So im still doing these personality/life readings. this is for anyone who is questioning a lot of things. doubting. I’ve been there and now see things a different way 🙂
I can tell most people are planning out how to commit. try this out before planning, which I hope you guys don’t succeed. know there are people who actually care, even though it may not seem like it.hope this helps you all.
If any one wants to talk like one on one.cus they arent comfy on a public forum.
I created this id for this site only, ie, you guys,
This sites given me pretty good advice, so i guess this is me returning the favour
So the id is
sui_rc@yahoo.com
Hello. Are Salt and Killlswitchon here? I miss you guys. If you’re alive or something leave a reply. I think I am going to do it in the future. The recovery was only for the energy that I need to get a job and earn the money for finishing it. Once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t be fixed whatever it happens. I understand everyone with depression, hate, everything. People are just a sack of wack. Maybe the divine exists or maybe not.Maybe it will be better in the next life or maybe it will be an eternal dreamless sleep. But you know […]
This will be my last post here if I am lucky.I have attempted to hang myself twice till now but failed miserably.Within the next 24 hrs,I will try to find strength to hang myself for the third time and hopefully this time God will be more kind to me and accept my resignation from this life.If you hear from me again it is unfortunate and I failed for the third time.Before I leave,I would like to thank wndoz8er,salt,kills and others for reading my posts and supporting me.I was only a member of suicide project for just 15 days and I feel I have known you […]
I use to be haunted by my dreams and thoughts. Now I embrace them and love them because I always die in them and they always offer peace. That’s all I want. Peace. I’m not scared of death, I’m scared of what comes after death. I’m starting to just deal with whatever happens afterwards cause I’m done with this life. I think I’m finally getting the courage to hang myself. I’m trying to learn how to tie a noose. The thing is, I don’t care about me. I care about random strangers that are on this website that feel like me. There’s a whole website […]
Well today started out today then it got worse. the thought of me losing him. Why is it that some of the best things in my life never seem to last. I mean we’ve been dating for a few months and now due to him losing his apartment and job from reasons beyond his control. He might have to move back in with his parents in another state more than 5,000 miles away. If this does happen I’m thinking about cutting him off completely. I honestly can not deal with any more heartbreak and I don’t want both of us to suffer by dealing with […]
Hello guys 🙂 I just want to say that I am over with depression and that I believe that is something out there.I recovered my faith again. It’s impossible that a hardcore suicidal guy like I was to recover so quickly. God exists and it’s never too late. And I am not keeping this only for myself.
God dosen’t encourage laziness and dissapointment, you need to get up there and fight whatever the conditions are. God encourages work and being helpful with eachother.
So, go out there, get a job, pray, find a gf or a bf and you’ll see that everything will be allright. I am […]
I have been feeling so down these past few days emotionally mostly out of loneliness and past thoughts haunting me. I really want to go down to the local festival tonight. But I don’t want to go a lone. It gets depressing watching the happy couples walk around and the groups of friends. My dating life is pretty much in the pits right now. I have talked to a few guys since me and my ex broke up but they led to no where and I got to be honest most of the single guys around my area suck! well due to the fact that […]
um hi,
this is my very first post. i should probably tell you guys a little bit about me i guess. well, my name is Andromeda, i am 16 year old, high school junior, and i live in California. I have had a great childhood, and i have wonderful family, and friends. I am very grateful for the roof over my head, the food in my belly, and the clothes on my back. But i have ALWAYS felt extremely depressed all of the time. Despite my perfect life i have been bullied severely throughout my whole life, and i have never told my family or friends. […]