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Happiness

At the end?

by mousygirl 10/21/2012

written by mousygirl

I was a sad little girl. Â 35 years later, I’m a sad little girl who’s been on just about every medication possible. Â They all stop working after a few years.

I’ve never really had a relationship. Â I’m not sure what’s so unappealing. Â Maybe my sadness is more obvious than I think. Â Men don’t even pay attention to me. Â They never have. Â Having cute bubbly friends doesn’t help. Â My mother has nagged me about my weight since high school when I started gaining weight from the antidepressants.

I have a job and an education. Â I live in a rented 2 bedroom house that is much too big […]

10/21/2012 2 comments

sleep

by ninnie95 10/21/2012

written by ninnie95

I don’t cry when I sleep….. I just woke up…… the tears remind me that I’m alive here in this world…… awake…… I just want something big to change…… I don’t think I can sleep forever…… or can I? I’ve spent my life trying to end it…… and funny enough I spent it helping others find happiness and reasons to keep living…… I’m going back to bed soon….. maybe….. I just cry uncontrollably these days, and the only thing that stops the endless flow…… sleep…… I wish I could remember my dreams…… I used to remember them well, but now not so much….. I do […]

10/21/2012 13 comments

Cool Analogy of Life and Priorities

by Dawg 10/18/2012

written by Dawg

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.

The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf […]

10/18/2012 2 comments

What is the purpose to live

by Damo.S 10/17/2012

written by Damo.S

IÂ´m 16 now and IÂ´m writing here first time. I really thing about suicide somethimes but I think i cant make it. I canÂ´t die with feeling I didnÂ´t tried I surrendered to death to life to all people and whole my family.I dont want to run awayand IÂ´m gonna fight. That is what i was telling for myself a lot times. But when i think about it now i can see a spark of tightly hidden will to live.Why? because of her. really old lady. For someone a purpose to live and for the others a reason they decided to die for.Love. Nope noone […]

10/17/2012 2 comments

Messing up blessings and degrading happiness

by sadthinking 10/16/2012

written by sadthinking

In both cases, I have many secrets.Â Many told and twisted, others kept in shame.Â I could make this post very long and quite wordy; however, I will leave out as much shame as necessary.Â First off, everything in my life seems perfect.Â Too perfect. I have a great husband, great dogs, house paid off, little debt, and all of the other “blessings” we all find in this world.Â We live a quite normal life, as much as we can anyways.Â But, I am still sad..all of the time.Â Over and over, I think about how much I should not be sad, should know my […]

10/16/2012 4 comments

I don’t even know how I feel right now..

by Ixhatexmyxname 10/16/2012

written by Ixhatexmyxname

haven’t posted on here in forever but I guess that’s good. I don’t know.
This one guy who I had a thing for last year but never really talked to (it’s a rather long story) well he sits a few seats over from me at lunch. and my friend spilled my water all over and he was cleaning it up and the guy asked me if I was going to use my paper bag (don’t ask me how that would help clean up the mess I really don’t know.) then he quickly added “I mean besides suffocating yourself. I know you want to kill yourself […]

10/16/2012 1 comment

Happiness is figuring out a good way to go. I finally did! :)

by sick_of_it 10/16/2012

written by sick_of_it

*** ** MAJOR amendment to this thread!!! VERY IMPORTANT! Scroll down to my last post. It will save you A LOT of trouble! Seriously!!!! *******

I’ve figured it out! I feel like celebrating! I’m so happy and relieved!
In my heart of hearts, I believe people should be allowed the dignity and respect of deciding how long they live. To me, what drives a person to end their life is the devestating part; that profound suffering and internal unending pain. But not the actual suicide; that’s freedom.

For example, I recently had to have […]

10/16/2012 27 comments

Here I am, once again, I’m sorry.

by Stronger 10/16/2012

written by Stronger

There’s been a lot of suicides lately in my town. It brings back my own depression and having no one there to vent to, I am now turning to this site to let my frustation out. I’ve been lurking and I now feel strong enough to finally let everything out. I don’t think I’ve ever told my whole story, from birth to present times, in one sitting. So here I am, this is me, and this is my story.

My mother had troubleÂ conceiving and after a miscarriage, I was born. I was her pride and joy. She wanted me to be perfect, like her; straight A’s, […]

10/16/2012 0 comment

Venting

by zmd 10/14/2012

written by zmd

It’s difficult wanting to die, but knowing you’ll never go through with it.

My first thoughts of suicide were in 7th grade. I’m not sure why. It’s been over 5 years since then and though I’ve gone through several long periods of happiness and feeling content, those thoughts still remain.

I’ve nothing left to live for, I get up out of bed in the morning because I’m awake.

Honestly, the only thing that’s prevented me from killing myself is my family. They’re good people. They don’t deserve to live the rest of their lives with that in the back of their minds.

It’s just so hard sometimes.

I mean, I […]

10/14/2012 5 comments

I think I’m broken

by Twister90029 10/14/2012

written by Twister90029

It’s always the same, every day is the same struggle, same shit, I don’t want to do this any more. I don’t want to be this person any more, sitting in this shit room in a house that isn’t mine with strangers, and nobody to talk to. I’m oh so tired, no exhausted, of trying to find happiness. It just continually eludes me. I want to go. I want to give up. Then I think about how devastated I’d be If I lost any of my family, and I can’t do it, I can’t do that to them, so I’m stuck, this shell of a […]

10/14/2012 4 comments

No cell phone

by forlorn1 10/12/2012

written by forlorn1

The ONLY person who actually made me forget about eveerything that made depressed. The only person who could actually make me feel good. The only person who I enjoyed talking to. The only person who I looked forward to talking to, is now “taken away from me”. Our only way of communication was through texting. My mother, who I now despise deeply, decided to take my phone. I feel like I am at my breaking point. I feel like I won’t know how to deal with this on my own. Yes, it’s sad I relied on this person for my happiness, but that’s just how […]

10/12/2012 3 comments

Bipolar

by Bipolar8609 10/12/2012

written by Bipolar8609

The day embarked with a feeling of happiness. One of those days where you just wake up and you know *i’m happy*. It’s continuous but seems to last for seconds when it lasts about a day. You’re the quintessence of happiness. When your busy day of running around and trying to stay away from your house ends, you must go “home”. Their your parents scream and yell, no silence but in your own thoughts. However your thoughts tend to be pessimistic, annoyingly so. Because you grew up without a sense self-worthiness. But life goes on and you walk to school everyday, plodding around, for […]

10/12/2012 0 comment

Not Really Sure What I’m Trying To Accomplish Here…

by JadedConfessions 10/11/2012

written by JadedConfessions

I stumbled upon this site on accident, as I’m sure a lot of users have. Â After spending a good hour reading through older posts I decided that maybe it was a good idea to share my own story. Before I do though, I would like to request that I don’t get any of those standard responses that you see on most forums. I really don’t want to hear about how selfish I am, or how things will magically get better one day – no offense, but none of you know me and you can’t rightfully say anything about my lifestyle choices. Isn’t the internet grand?

Anyway, […]

10/11/2012 4 comments

At the end of the line

by Karma44 10/8/2012

written by Karma44

I just cant see a reason to go on.

I have lost everything in the recession. I was lucky and found a new job in a new place. I found a job I loved. I was a respected professional. I was doing so well. Had my life back on track. I befriended a coworker. We were both in a new city and both new with the company.
I had a new home with a yard for my dogs. Slowly our friendship grew and we both helped each other to do amazing at our new jobs. I started […]

10/8/2012 6 comments

Day 2 in recovy!

by oemh 10/8/2012

written by oemh

Last night i decide that im going to try to be happy and not let being depressed adn sucidial get to me:)

what I’m doing is…

I’m having sleeppovers more so that If i do haeva breakdown I most likely won’t do it in front of friends and then i won’t get sucidial thoughts in my brain
I’m going to try hareder in dance yes i did make the second line but im first line worthy adn i im prettyÂ sure my teacher nows that so im going to kick but on thursday!
im going to study harder i mean good grades won’t happen on there own!:)
Â I’m also im […]

10/8/2012 4 comments

What’s the point? Another rant about society.

by BehindtheSmile 10/8/2012

written by BehindtheSmile

Iâ€™m so tired of being alive. Everything is so pointless. Nothing matters. Weâ€™re just a tiny speck on a speck of a planet in a speck of a solar system in one tiny galaxy among trillions and trillions and trillions of galaxies.Â Nothing makes a difference in the long run.

What happens right now will affect your life, but it wonâ€™t make a big difference. Sure, it might a few people, but what does that matter? Weâ€™re just numbers on a gravestone. My insignificant life doesnâ€™t matter, but I should at least be happy, so I can enjoy it just a bit while Iâ€™m here. Right? […]

10/8/2012 6 comments

what’s this life for?

by annae 10/8/2012

written by annae

I don’t know what to live for anymore. My life goes the same pattern every single day and I think it’ll go the same way every single day ’til I die. I wake up, go to school, do some homework, do some household choirs, watch some tv, go to bed. In the future school will switch to work.

I mean… No day has meaning and every day is a struggle. So why continue? I know I’ll never get completely through my traumas and I’ll never be truly happy. (And yes I know that happiness isn’t a destination, more like a way of life but still I […]

10/8/2012 4 comments

Thank You For Thus Far

by shtbnhk 10/7/2012

written by shtbnhk

I haven’t been an avid writer on this cite, I haven’t been able to make any relationships with any of you, and I know this cite is to relieve oneself from the frustration of that constant feeling of undying depression, but I just wanted you all to know how thankful I am for all the help you have given me. Because even though you don’t know me, talked to me or even commented on anything I’ve posted, I have read your stories and I don’t feel alone. It’s been 7 months of suicide-free euphoria! Nothing has changed in my life, and if anything going through […]

10/7/2012 2 comments

Its about that time

by itsmytime 9/30/2012

written by itsmytime

I’ve been checking this site out for a long, long time.Â I’ve led a miserable life, anytime I’ve gotten close to ending things I’ve always found a way out.Â Now, I’ve gotten to the point that I’m tired of trying to figure things out, I’m tired of the unexpected, and I’m tired of the self-destruction.Â I’ve always been able to hide any problems I’ve faced, issues I’ve dealt with, people around me seem to think I live a “perfect” life.Â If they only knew the truth, would they still be there?

I have it all planned out.Â I have letters written to those that mean the […]

9/30/2012 13 comments

Tonight…Ect.

by Loser 9/30/2012

written by Loser

Tonight I am 12 years old and 5 months and some days old
Tonight I might end it
Tonight I may take some pills
Tonight I will probably get chronic organ disorders
Tonight I cut Myself
Tonight I dream about Happiness
Tomarrow I will wake up fine or with regret
In a week I will be in school, Sad with mixed emotions
In a mouth my good friends will be my worst enimes
In a year I will be closer to death
In a life time I will be dead, Happy
But
Tonight I will be dreaming about Ethan, oh how I love him,he is […]

9/30/2012 43 comments

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