With all the suicidal thoughts, pain from health wise, feeling hopeless, always depress etc I have learned to deal with the challenge I have been given. Instead of trying to take my life away I will try to save those who are thinking of ending their life. Yes its going to be heard but its worth a try and maybe for once I could say I did something, maybe for once at least I could say I’m proud of myself.
I’ve been suicidal for many years and, to an extent, most of my life. Not a manic obvious case of suicide but a quite, calm and patient case. It was supposed to all happen tomorrow, Friday, July 26th 2013 but won’t.
I realized recently that my plan all this time was not the right way to go about things. The plan was to take my friend’s handgun and walk from his place to the nearby hospital. There I would warn the staff about the events that were going to take place, to prepare surgery for my organ donation, and to clear out the area so that […]
i see nothing at all, no happines
When i tried to commit suicide i was serious about it. I locked my door turned my music on loud and ignored the knocks. Well i laid down my tools of trade, a bottle of vodka, to hide my shame, a razor at the wrist nothing would be missed. I.. I took a drink then grabbed my razor as i sat over a towel and just cut my thighs to hell i could barely walk after.. I called […]
Well Hi again, many of you may remember me as BrooklynBoxx.. and once again I am asking you for your guys favor. I’m 15, as my of you know. But on January 26, 2013 I met and fell in love with a 21 year old. I know many of you may find this risky, coming from my past. But he was there after every failed suicide attempted. He got me to throw away razors. And talked me out of suicide. On the 15th of July my mom […]
I’m doing a video project that i will hopefully be able to show in school and i may put it on you tube.
It will basically be a video about people that have anything like depression, EDs, Suicidal thoughts etc.
I will have people send in video clips of them telling their story if they want or giving simple advice. Then i will have people at the end say things like stay strong etc
I really want to do this. Its something i’ve had planned for a while now. If your interested or want more details message me here:
http://our-silentscreams.tumblr.com/ask
or here
https://www.facebook.com/shannon.morley.96
It would also help if you could […]
I fell like there’s a stone destroying my chest..
my body has banned me cry..
I refused to look sad at school or in front of my friends..
I have to be a support to my friends
I have to stop cutting
I’m the only who want to scream?
my world is in other dimension..
please just tell me that I’m not the only one feeling like that right now
nesecito contarle a alguien mi vida pero tengo tanto miedo de darle mis problemas a otro, ser feliz no era lo mas importante? no tengo corazon, estoy sola, me siento asi pero me da miedo […]
I can’t even explain my feelings every night
I feel my heart aching as I turn out the light
Can’t shut my eyes, swollen from each tear
I never expect my thoughts to get this severe
Knife, scissors, pills all cover my desk.
All which can leave me very statuesque.
Thoughts erupt my mind about all I hate
I don’t know really if I want death to wait.
Each night I spend lying completely alone
When will it get better? it remains unknown.
Searching deep down to find me a reason
Why I keep living through this suicidal season.
Exploding with depression as I lie in my bed
This pain is too much, makes me wish I was dead.
These thoughts […]
so i just really don’t know what to do right now
i am feeling very suicidal at the moment
and i have my razors and pills right next to me
i want to do it
but then i don’t
but then i do
and i just need help
please
if you’re there please try and help me
First sorry if you don’t understand I’m chilean..
Since last year I want to faint me.. Maybe my parents notice that I have problems… That I’m not giving supply ( I can’t handle this anymore) cutting, wishing to take a pill and don’t wake up never again.. Is normal?
I was normal before… But something change me as a person (psychology talking) and I’ve noticed that we don’t notice when the things start until there’s no turning back.. And you will never feel that great again.. Your past will always be there to remember you your mistakes..
Maybe fainting me things will change…
Please if […]
Please do not judge me on this letter, I am only curious as to what all this means.
Lately I have been feeling like SOMETHING bad had happened when I was a child or any other time but I cannot shake this feeling away.
I have a weird fascination with the whole sexual abuse, predator/little girl, etc. (Now, when I say fascination I do not mean I like it any way shape or form or wish it upon others because I think that is sick and anyone who believes its ok is messed up) but I find myself thinking about it and wanting to research it to […]
I’m about throw up i feel so bad like I’ll die in five minutes.. i don’t know i never feel like this before help me i don’t know what to do i feel useles.. like I don’t fit in anywhere
(sorry for my bad english I’m from chile)
I am new here. I attempted suicide about 3 weeks ago, twice in less than 24 hours. The first time I was found by my siblings who got into my house and the second time, I was found by the police. I ended up in the hospital unconscious for two days and spent a further day in a ward with old people, who were bed ridden. I was under constant observation, not even able to go to the toilet unattended. As a psychology student, it was one of the most degrading and humiliating experiences of my life. I felt so ashamed facing my family after […]
i’m in so much pain mentally.
can i tell you a secret? my best friend of 17 years raped and burned me with cigarettes while he was drunk. (you’re the first person i told) i have been cutting myself off and on since i was 9 because my cousin molested me until i was 12 and when i finally told them they said i was lying and i got slapped with being bipolar 2. i have one friend she is a complete ***** she doesn’t even care “it’s all about her” anyway. i am an introverted kind of person. i just turned 25 and i’m scared that […]
i’ve been sitting on the floor of my room for over an hour sobbing with my razors in front of me. i can’t take the pain anymore. i can’t take knowing how disappointing and how much of a failure i am. everything hurts and i just want it to end. i don’t want to have to stay here for anyone else but me. im so trapped and i can’t get rid of this feeling. i’m sick of pretending that i want to be alive
How worthless someone can you make you feel. How you confess your undying love for them and they take advantage of that. How can someone do that? Someone you thought could never ever ever hurt you. Truth is, life is full of ups and downs, with dissapointments, the only thing that matters is how exactly you take that infromation and apply it to your everyday life.
I have been with my boyfriend for a year now (someone who I should not be with due to a bad influence: Weed, drugs, alcohol), recently he had gotten into an accident (DWI)Â I told him I loved him as soon […]
….I’m afraid to live. But I guess I am going to try. I tried to kill myself by overdose but it didn’t work and I had to spend some time in a mental place. To say the least, it didn’t do a thing. I am still depressed, and occasionally I still want to just stop living. The only reason I don’t kill myself is because I have people I love. I can’t hurt them. I am on different pills now, but I have issues staying asleep and have started having panic attacks. I want therepy but we can’t seem to set up a meeting. […]
I’m dead. I don’t seem dead, I can breathe and taste food and smell flowers, and I don’t look dead but I AM DEAD. My mind has turned into decay, bit by bit it’s crumbling to dust. A lunatic lives inside here, a scavenger that feeds upon my decaying soul.
I look in the mirror and I don’t see my silhouette anymore, all I see is this thing that’s consuming me and my shadow behind it like a forgotten whisper of who I was once upon a time. I’ve shredded everything that has made me once me, my faith and my imagination are gone and […]
Hi, I am new here, and recently I’ve been thinking more and more about suicide.
When I was 7, my mother and 4 year old sister were murdered while I was at school, and my dad was out of state looking for work. In result of that tragedy, I developed bulimia, PTSD, and Bipolar Disorder.  When I began sixth grade, I began doing drugs. I popped pills, ran away, stole, lied. I got pregnant twice my freshman year by the same guy but miscarried both times. I started smoking when I was 14. I was turning horrible. I wasn’t even thinking about my actions ;  I knew […]
I just want to fucking die. I don’t know what to do. I can’t do it because I have a daughter on the way, but that makes it so much more difficult. I don’t know what the fuck to do. My daughter is my only reason to live but she ties me to my greatest downfall… Help
i cut myself
but i try to stop
i have a formal party next week and i can’t have scarfs..
but it seems like a scape way.. I’m frustrated I’m depressed all time It’s not healthy but being sad all day isn’t too
alcohol it’s another scape way but I’m 15 and my parents don’t know tha I drink.. and please I can’t be drunk or drinking all day I’m a teenager without money, in school time and I live with my parents
I’m only 16
I need cutting
maybe It’s time for help.. real help
(sorry if my english it’s bad.. I’m from Chile) […]