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I want to rid the world of my filth.

by blue-eyed-suicide 9/8/2015

written by blue-eyed-suicide

Hi. Hopeful title I know.

So I’m a 21yo male with aspergers. I live with my mom, I can’t communicate, I have no friends, and I barely interact with my family. I do not want to feel happy, I want 100% with every fiber of my being to die. I’m not taking antidepressants because I figure if I’m sad all the time that will give me more of a motive to kill myself. I was on them for a while, and every time I tried to socialize I just got suicidal again. My dad is own antidepressants because I can’t hold a relationship with him.

You might […]

9/8/2015 3 comments

Are you dead yet?

by Rory959 9/7/2015

written by Rory959

When did you ever leave?

I didn’t

Where the fuck are you?

I’m still here

I’m going to let go

But you can’t…can you

No I guess I can’t let her go. I never have been able to. I still hold her hand in mine, I still look into her eyes, I still hear her voice in my head. I can still feel her presence…as if she’s standing next to me. Is she? Am I crazy? Am I ever going to be able to forget? No Rory you can’t let her go can you, you weak fuck. […]

9/7/2015 2 comments

It’s been over a year

by Chelseamx 8/28/2015

written by Chelseamx

I miss my grandma. I wish I could hold her hand again.

8/28/2015 3 comments

Tuesday

by Chelseamx 8/26/2015

written by Chelseamx

Why do I have to feel this way everyday. I’m so sick and tired of crying. I have no one to talk to. They’re all using me. This is my only way to let my feelings out. I don’t think I should hold them in anymore. But I don’t want to be here. I miss my grandma. I don’t want to be alone anymore.

8/26/2015 1 comment

Where Labels Go To Die

by ifuckedthequeen 8/22/2015

written by ifuckedthequeen

They die or metastasize in the soul. It all depends. We either foster these gender roles that are completely and utterly wrong and bullshit and hold to ideals that were past down from lesser ideologies. I think that goes for suicide as well. If someone really and truly wants to die then who is somebody to tell them otherwise. We may offer an alternate choice and our personal salvation but it is totally up to that soul to accept or reject and continue following their own path. We have such deep belief systems either rooted in religion or even the general societal attitude towards death […]

8/22/2015 4 comments

Eventually

by bluu 8/16/2015

written by bluu

Should’ve happened a long time ago but it didn’t.

Should’ve happened but it didn’t.

It will happen,

Eventually.

How much longer do you hold on knowing you will fail miserably?

Life will get even worse in a couple more years.

It will have to happen,

Eventually.

8/16/2015 0 comment

The Countdown Begins….

by Butterflybae 8/9/2015

written by Butterflybae

This is my second post on here….when I say post, I mean not just making a comment on someone else’s account.

I promised a friend on Saturday, that I would take one day (today meaning Sunday) to really consider what I am doing. What I am planning to do, in hopes that I would find something within myself to hang on. He is a spiritual person, however I am not, at least not anymore and haven’t been in many years. However, it didn’t hurt for me to want to hold onto something, it didn’t hurt me to try. So with an open mind and heart, I […]

8/9/2015 13 comments

Guilt is the most painful companion of death

by bluu 8/8/2015

written by bluu

Nothing to look forward to.

Nothing to keep me strong.

She died alone, her last few days on earth

caged. Knowing this, my heart breaks.

The stars were never meant for me to see.

Just a shit hole, that is what will always be.

Many, many times I passed up security for true love, because I wanted love that was passionate and consuming. It has been almost two years, and only within this past month, I begun to heal in some way from him.

She died lost and scared, thrown away. Her body tossed into the incinerator.

Knowing this, my heart cannot bear.

I […]

8/8/2015 0 comment

Please forgive me, M. But I will never forgive myself

by bluu 8/8/2015

written by bluu

You were vulnerable and I left you.

I felt I had no choice.

Nonetheless, I threw you away.

You needed me to take care of you,

I did not value your life.

I do now, so very very much.

My deepest, deepest sorries.

I am hurting so much.

But you, you paid for my incompetence with your life.

I prayed for you the night before they took your life.

I didn’t know it would happen that way, that day, I would’ve came for you. I would’ve ran to you.

Please believe me.

God did not answer my prayers that night.

God has never answered […]

8/8/2015 0 comment

At the end of the day…

by luke23 8/6/2015

written by luke23

…when all is said and done,it all boils down to one simple but nevertheless a very haunting question which he ask himself,”How much more can a man take before he breaks?” How much pain and regrets can one hold in his heart before his mind snaps and gives away to oblivion

I ask you all fine people, how much more can one take when he realizes that he has reached his end and he has exhausted all his faith and reasons to live in this world.That is when he takes the leap to his death and starts on a journey in search of peace through eternity.

Thank […]

8/6/2015 6 comments

We carry these things inside us that no one else can see they hold us down like anchors they drown us out at sea.

by luke23 8/5/2015

written by luke23

8/5/2015 2 comments

“The rain falls because the sky can no longer hold its Heaviness,just like tears,it falls when the heart can no longer hold its pain….!”

by luke23 8/4/2015

written by luke23

8/4/2015 3 comments

Infinity / Broken

by Bisban 7/25/2015

written by Bisban

Grimer
Invite, to hook
The game
The final
I was never
From the cycle
I’m going to go
And then you can
Go back, to your true
Electric
Or you can get a hold
Bill Clinton for me
Creation, of the blossom
Ados, Dominis
Save my m!@#$%^&* life
What are you thinking
Gravitate, anyone
Donald Trump
Obama, Obama
Do you know, yet

7/25/2015 1 comment

back to the old house

by death bunny 7/24/2015

written by death bunny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbgdCzGfFt4

today we finished bringing all of my stuff back to my old room where i grew up, in my parents’ house. for two years i tried escaping this place, and six months ago i succeeded. then depression took hold of me once again, and now i’m back here. crushed between these four walls i’m hurt. i can’t handle the bureaucracy ending the contract of my old place. i am tired. i am broken. it feels like the world is slipping through my fingers. i need a quiet place to put my head for a while and forget about everything, and the old house isn’t […]

7/24/2015 2 comments

12-24-13

by Sammi6xoxo 7/18/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

Haven’t been on in a while, but here’s a thing from forever ago. Memories are bittersweet.

You’re my weapon of choice when I need to be defended. You’re the stronger side of me when I feel like breaking. You’re the tougher one of us when I can’t fight on. You have the sharpest tongue when my words fail to come.

You’re a source of comfort when the world is harsh. A shoulder to cry on when hope seems lost. You’re someone to hold when I feel alone. A sound voice when I’m out of control.

You’re a flower in the snow trying to survive. You keep your head […]

7/18/2015 1 comment

I know something you don’t know.

by sickfromthemelt 7/10/2015

written by sickfromthemelt

Get over it.

Oh… well then, that changes EVERYTHING -_-

Why does everyone say that?

I’m not pissed because my team lost or some shit, I’m pissed because I want to fucking die, you asshole.

Yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when my employer fires me for no reason and rips me off, yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when some immature prick threatens to kill me on the street, yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when you insult me and everything about me, yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when someone breaks my heart completely and leaves me unable to […]

7/10/2015 7 comments

Don’t give in

by AfflictedSmile 7/10/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

Just wanted to share some love to all of you who are struggling.

Maybe you feel like you can’t go another day. You feel like taking your last breath. You feel the weight of the world on top of you, caving in on your chest. You feel it so much it’s went from just being mental, to a real physical pain. You feel you don’t belong or have a place in this world. You cry yourself to sleep some or most nights. You have suicidal ideation. You think about what this world would be without you, and probably feel it wouldn’t even notice your absence.

I’ve been […]

7/10/2015 4 comments

just read and try to understand.

by cant.fixme 7/2/2015

written by cant.fixme

When the sun goes down
and the sky is full of stars

Would you let me in
would you hold me thigh

When its dark inside
and i cant find myself

Would you call my name
and make it feel alright

When i fall back down
would you bring me up

would you kiss me right
and make me feel ALIVE
_Y.T

7/2/2015 2 comments

I Want to go ‘Home’…Whatever that Means

by LooneyLou 6/21/2015

written by LooneyLou

I just don’t want to be here anymore. I want to close my eyes and wake up far away from here. I want the ocean to roar around me with every wave, as I watch them crawl up the sandy shore. I want to be in a dark hole in the ground. I want to have a place to hide, a door to shut, a place where no one can ever make me feel this way. I want things to just stop and go away, I can’t take it anymore. I’ve been so nice, and accommodating, but people still say I’m a ***** even though […]

6/21/2015 1 comment

Increasingly Hostile!!

by RealTalk30 6/13/2015

written by RealTalk30

Lately I’ve been losing my cool with people more and more.
Past few days has been nothing but conflict with people I know as well as strangers. I lost my job back in February because I simply have no patience with anyone. Starting to think I’ve reached that point where I might not be able to work well with others at all.
People just make me so mad.. and i can’t seem to hold back my anger.
I’m currently trying to get free medical insurance so that I can see a doctor, get a cat scan and blood tests as well as seek behavioral therapy […]

6/13/2015 2 comments

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