God, if you are merciful, then Let me Die! How long can I bleed? My skin effuses rage, hate, anguish. I am a curse to my family. Pain sears my body. Rather than making a lasting contribution to humanity, I pray, Primum Non Nocere! Remove me so that Primum Non Nocere! She elicited a hairline fracture. A Trigger shattered the side. The vessel stands gaping, bleeding. Dying. Beyond coping resources. So tired. Is one more day of torture really success. “You’re doing so well, one more day.” Then I am loathe to succeed.
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If you want to attempt suicide you better be prepared for pain and/or failure. I have always thought if things go wrong and I feel really horrible I will be able to kill myself. Except that it’s not as easy as it seems. I had a chance today and it hurt too much. No matter how badly you may want to die the lizard part of your brain will do anything to survive. There is so much planning and research to do and even after all of that you will probably die a painful death or have to live with failure to try again another […]
This 60 second video made me burst out into tears and change my entire perspective on humanity. It’s amazing how pure some people’s hearts are. PLZ WATCH!
Made Me Cry https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KNCkuUOwoQ
^ this video is made by a youtuber that I do not support
I find it ironic how wealthy and successful people can be so depressed, yet society acts as if humanity is advancing for the better by replacing human connections with emotionless machines and business practices. Seriously, there are people working on sex robots because they’re so tired of being raped by humanity.
I’ve accepted that I’m too pessimistic or depressing for anyone to like or take seriously. I would have lost many friends if I were honest about how I feel. I remember being judged in therapy sessions for telling the truth, like how I was bored during a conversation.
Still, I don’t know what to do. I don’t really like humanity, nor do I really like existence at all. I try my best to ignore reality and daydream, or think of ideal, romanticised situations that have never happened in my life.
Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??
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Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring […]
Do you ever feel that the nicer you are, the shittier your life will be, and that the crueler people who have no problem walking over others succeed easier?
I’ve always hated the phrase, “It’s just business.”
No it’s not, you asshole. You’re taking the humanity out of the company and possibly ruining peoples’ lives.
Do you trust when you shouldn’t? I mean, are you naturally trusting, and do you never learn? Is that a flaw in a personality?
Dear Who the fuck ever,
I am so sick of trying for something that feels so futile. I have known from a very young age that I will die by my own hand. And you can call that selfish, but the only reason I am still breathing today is because I don’t want to hurt anyone. I do not want to stick A****** with the stigma of a dead, suicidal sister. I love that little girl more than I have ever loved myself. I love you A****, but A****** comes first. If she were not here I would have been dead by my own hand years […]
Like a creature, my nails suddenly grown long.
Parasecting the crystal, the nug. Digging the inner.
I guess Parasect is my second pokemon, then.
I saw it in the manga, and it’s wizard mushroom cap.
How about that… The alchemist pokemon.
My dream, is to catch ….. Now, to take over the world.
Spiraling down. Down to the muk card. What of essence.
Oh, the humanity. What of, is this mankind. Who would of let, to become.
Ash would say, and the other heroes.
Tauros, of the silver bone. Evolved in dire sake, a bullet in it’s body.
The day; the stories. The fights. All there […]
Reality suck , Real Life suck , Real World suck . why human’s Imagination is much better & interesting than this everyday’s boring reality ??
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I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very boring, and especially nowadays become only very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, & very LIMITING life / world / reality ??…
does God (if there is indeed one…!) play such a cruel sick joke for especially creating human’s IMAGINATION inside our heads?? .. especially often the very creative, artistic, […]
I hate this boring, bored reality / real life / real world, I hate this life, this LIMITED world, and I hate people/humans ..!!
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Movies, books, video games, novels, comics, anime/manga, etc etc, basically human’s IMAGINATIONS is a hundred times FAR much more interesting than this very LIMITING reality / real-world / real-life here in this world!
and what’s even worse is that most (about 90%) of humans / people I meet & know everyday are mostly stupid, shallow, superficial, mundane/boring, money and profits and image driven only, ignorant,.. mostly human beings especially today these days are much more bad & hopeless ..!!
(there are -thankfully/luckily?- only FEW humans/people that I like, eg: the very creative/imaginative & ‘other-worldly’ artists who created/made all those awesome fantasy, sci-fi stories, novels, books, […]
That moment when u don’t know if what you want today is what you actually want or what todays brain chemistry is telling you that’s what you want and if tommorrows brain chemistry will tell you the same thing or the exact opposite, in such a case do you take half if it or sack up and drink beer untill everything becomes not thing more than something to piss against, prehoas dogs have the right idea. They sniff something to see if its interesting then they piss on it and keep going.. Perhaps that’s where humanity has gone wrong
To all of you who want to commit suicide, please read this first (my current summarizing conclusive thoughts after reading many posts up ’till now)
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I will firstly try to be brief, and to-the-point with what I’m going to say here
(it’s not an easy thing, especially since I’m not that good of a writer, and secondly, English is not my first language ie: I am from Indonesia, and don’t ask why I can get to this website!…it’s strange, I know. internet is amazing).
It’s been a week that I’ve accidentally found this website, and ever since then following many posts & threads here. I will say this again & again: that I’ve found so many sincere, honest, and also the most heartfelt and even most eye-opening, mind-shifting posts/threads and ideas […]
Some of the thoughts & responses have really reshaped my perspective on life, humanity, truth, and pain.
But unfortunately, I got so depressed again at how humanity & mankind in REALITY are progressing.
I just looked at the latest update regarding Splinter’s story, and my chest suddenly feels so heavy, that I can’t explain it by mere words. Even I have such a very HARD time to sit in front of computer, and write another reply/comment,..and especially fueled with some unfortunate ‘flame wars’ here showed me of how differing each person’s perspective is,..and it makes me eventually ponder, think, and ask this ultimate question, that […]
I am a Christian who has turned into an agnostic (and up to this day, I still honestly can’t find a single valid, reasonable reason to go back into ‘pure’ Christianity again,..though I’m always remain open-minded),
and from my own observations & experiences, & also seeing others, I can tell you this:
God, whatever It is, usually means HOPE.
People need hope, to keep living in this world. otherwise, he’ll find many & any kind of reason to end his/her life (because he/she feels NO hope anymore).
It’s that simple.
Now although I’m very much still questioning whether God is a “He (Him)” (and why does it […]
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