Why wont it go away. Im so lost right now.. im unhappy inside.. how do u cope with such a feeling? When all u wanna do is lay on the bed n think..
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Okay so i’m a teen and like a lot of people on here i have been suicidal lately. Now i’m not the best writter so sorry in advance but i just gotta get this off my chest. Like i said before im a teen and i just feel so depressed all the time. I have all of these issues wrong with me i have ADHD, depression, OCD, cold sweats, anxiety, trouble sleeping. really bad acne scars, suicidal, no friends or anyone to talk too and a lazy eye (which may seem kind of silly but im really self conscious about it). Iv tried suicide 2 […]
i dont know why im so weak… why cant i just go already???… i hate being here… if i go to a psychiatrist theyd prescribe me medicine… i could die from OD but thats not the way i want to go… i hate living… im done with feeling like this all the time… im sick of just sitting here thinking about suicide… i need to hurry up and do it… maybe then for once in my life i can be truly happy…
back again. and again. and again. why won’t it stop?? i wish it would stop coming back. that feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness. the utter lack of happiness. it never leaves, just goes to sleep for awhile. almost 3 years now. but now its back and im scared and alone and i cant get out of this hole. i dont want to be here anymore. please just make it stop. i want out. but i’m trapped in this fucking circle and i cant get away from it. sadness. depression. anger. death. the only things i can count on to never leave
Well I’m still around. Just want to post to encourage myself and maybe others to keep trying. Im not sure If Ive gotten any better over the last 8 months. A lot of meds, counselling and quitting addictions and I’m still suicidal.
How i fricking miss you and your texts. How i fricking miss how we talked for hours. How you came after me. How we liked each other. How we would go home together. How you would ***** about her to me. Now tables have turned. Im lonely. You are with her. Everywhere. So close. I never was. So physically close. Do you like that. But i didnt want to freak you out. I could have flirted with you the way she always does. But i didnt want to be her. But now you prefer her dont you. You dont even say hi. You fricking dont […]
I hate how I’m in so much pain the muscles on my body are so tensed n I can’t even relax now I’m stuck in a loop of pain n misery my spine need to get better if not I will be in pain forever I don’t want that. I’m tired all the time I don’t like to be in so much pain I feel like I’m never going to get any better my spine n back are messing up my whole body n the bones everything is different my neck is forward but twisted the muscles are so everything is such a bothersome for […]
the past few years have been shitty for me. my best friend committed suicide july 30 2013 with a shotgun to the head in his bedroom. i was with him the night before and i feel that i couldve done something. as time passes i feel more and more compelled to do it myself. my life is a waste, i cant get further ahead in my career because the college education i have isnt enough which is the result of the economy and unfortunately i cannot make more than minimum wage. thats just the way it is. no one can get benefits anymore, and i […]
.Im hoping to find some like minded people (just one person will be Enough)…who DONT think that suicide is wrong and who, like me, feel it can possibly be a very compassionate act to relieve a painful OR Unsatisfying Life. I want to go for reasons I can explain later but I havnt worked out all the details yet. So its not an exact immediate thing and fortunately Im not so miserable YET as to do ANYTHING to leave. If this resonates with anyone , I would very much appreciate speaking to someone like minded. I dont feel afraid at all of the […]
When do you know when to give up? Because i think its my time. A person can only handle so much. My whole life has been hard. My mom has verbally abused me. Tried to fight me and passed that on to my sister. They think the worst of me. But I’m pretty poplular. Not because im attractive or sluty but because im the person people go to for advice or someone to lean on.
I dont fight or do drugs I respect everyone because I want respect back. On my 17th birthday in june 2014 my mom died. Yes on my birthday. I still smile […]
Yup, that’s me. Moron extraordinaire. I dunno if that’s a word but it is now. I’m a moron. I’m the moron of morons. Im the king of idiots and bad choices and stupidity. God knows other people have told me that enough. But you know what? I’m perfectly fine with being a moron. In fact, I quite like it. Everyone’s trying to be something they’re not and I’m just chilling being a moron. I’m one step ahead of you, society. Ha!
I Myself have been secretly depressed when alone its not because i dont like being around people its just that i dont feel like anyone needs me around. Today is the 30 and my friend who passed away almost a year ago’s birthday is tommorrow and i dont think that im going to be able to make it more than a couple more days. I cry once so every often hard and i tend to smoke alot of cigarettes when i do. Ive done everything seen a therapist, taken medication which led to an abuse problem and ive been cleen for the last 5 months […]
I just got done watching The Last SOng, which is a total tear jerking… im in love with this movie and the message it sends. My mom is a cancer patient, she has a type of Leukemia. Ive wasted so much time with her, ive been rude, not understanding, really selfish, and at any moment her health could turn for the worth and she could be gone from my life. SHe is the one person who I could literally not live without, she is MY rock she is my everything and i dont think ive told her enough just how much i really love her. […]
It comes back and just consumes me and even when I try to feel I can’t. I feel empty and I’m alone I should feel sad but instead I feel nothing. Ugh it is the most annoying thing ever! I watched a movie recently, one of those rare weird movies that people typically don’t tend to watch. And I made such a connection I felt understood like I could understand, of course on certain levels because not each person and situation is the same. But I shared a similar pain and it sucks and im so numb this very second that I don’t care enough […]
every time my family talk behind my back,it realy hurt so much,
for a long time even now my famil help me,they support me to….
everyone tinks they are lovely,so do i,i can never except that they have talk behind my back… I cannot let them go..
i used to be a huge cheater,i am a big disgrace,i have had sex with many women,many relationship in my 50 pluss year…of my life,,, i have 3 children,my youngest is 16,
my ex wife an i raised our kids for many years,she wouldn’t give me sex anymore,one day i get angry at her, she takes the kids,but i still get […]
so i burned myself the other day feel like doing it again cause im not satisfied with the amount of damage.school is also tommorow dont know why im trying again at something im bound to fail at.I want to do good but you cant live in the world if you dont want to live in the world.
I do have good reasons for wanting to leave.My whole family is alive and i dont want to watch them die in the next ten years.I want things to like pause forever and the only way i can do that is by dying.this world is crazy nobody is […]
Many people blame us for not letting them in.they blame us for us being alone.they say how are they suppose to know if we’re sad or happy or mad if we never open up.im tired of hearing it.to all you who dont understand.WE CANT.even if we wanted to.we wouldnt be able to.its not that easy dammit.instead of blaming us for us being alone.why cant they look deeper.if you look close enough…you’ll see so much more.pay attention and you’ll see our true feelings.look deeper and you’ll see…
My newest and probably last song. I havent been on for a bit. I have really been trying to feel better. But I cant. She is the most beautiful woman in the world and the 2 of them were my everything. I dont want to do this without them. I cant keep going on faking that im ok. Im not. Soon, I will be gone and I wont be a burden or bother to anyone anymore.
I hope one day she sees this and will know how much they ment to me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-vGzh3tj1Y
My life is perfect today.This depression is deafening. I cant see a thing. My vision is blurred. All I can dream of is death, I just in no way can tolerate one more day, I willingly want to die but I feel im being selfish. Im so much hurt that death looks beautiful. I need the stable peace, I have tried twice this time im jumping off a high building if I can have access to one. Im yet to complete my suicide note. I dont want to hurt my family, but I know im doing it very soon.. everything in my life is in […]
A place where the suffering people ,like us,can live and try to find understanding and support amongst our own. If I dont go SOMEWHERE,ill die soon.. YES,it seems unwise,I suppose ,to draw all the walking wounded mentally ill and despairing desperate together into one place—,but isn’t the loneliness and pain already unbearable and are not many among us already taking extremely risky and reckless chances to attempt to kill th pain? What if we could make a pilgrimage to our very own monument- a monument to outrage,and sadness,and despair.It would be a monument to express ALL the MANY Reasons we are suicidal and suffering.What if […]