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I HAVE NOBODY. I GET IT. I GET IT ALREADY.

by GTSuicide_6 3/28/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

Its frustrating. I have no one.

Here I am typing furiously at a “friend,” saying how badly I wanna kil myself.

And all I get is sarcasm.

All I get is,

“Thats a tad bit too dramatic.”

Really? Really? But you know I want to kill myself. But you’ve heard me. You’ve heard me already you know this.

You know I was sent to that stupid damn hospital. You know its serious.

You know I’m not OK and I’m sad and I’m trying to fucking fight and I’m just SO. FUCKING. SAD. AND. ANGRY. AND. …

I CAN’T.

TAKE.

IT.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh.

OH FUCKING.

SORRY.

PARDON ME GUYS,

IF THIS SEEMS A TAD BIT TOO DRAMATIC.

HA HA HA 😀 😉

3/28/2016 7 comments

I Tell You

by GTSuicide_6 3/21/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

You know sometimes I really frigging think to myself, (LIKE RIGHT NOW):

“FUCKING. SNAP. OUT. OF. IT.”

No yah. Its true. Just snap out if it. There IS no sadness.There is no stress. There is no problem. Get up and move on and live life “normally” because that exists for a damn reason.

But you know what? I can’t,”snap out of it”. I can’t wake up one day and be OK. I can’t pretend I am fine. I can’t because I am NOT.

But still,

once more,

“snap out of it. Everything is fine.”

Sure.

But maybe I’m not.

3/21/2016 1 comment

Not a poet

by onawingandaprayer 10/1/2015

written by onawingandaprayer

Four years passed in a blink of an eye,

left behind a bird can’t fly,

Every miss and every flaw,

All the tears and all the woe;

Striking now like blinding light,

A beaten soul through hopeless fight,

“Only if” won’t bring you back,

Nor the sorrow that shades the track,

Should I do IT should I not,

Time will tell though not a lot.

10/1/2015 7 comments

Mom and Daddy

by emptyalways 3/4/2014

written by emptyalways

“Am I better off dead? Am I better off a quitter? They say I’m better off now than I ever was..”

Dear Mom and Daddy,

You won’t ever read this because if I wanted you to then I would be writing this on paper and mailing to you to get a week from now. I’ve played over in my head a million times how to say all of this to you and I still don’t know how, but let me ask you something..

Did it ever occur to you that I’m not better!? That I’m not okay, in reality I’m worse than ever, and I’ve just gotten a […]

3/4/2014 0 comment

L.O.V.E &; L.U.S.T

by bryan higgins 2/25/2014

written by bryan higgins

Is there a differance? Ya there is ..Love is forever. Lust is just being stuck in what you dreamed about. —-FANTASTIC FANTASY …..THATS TO DIE FOR. BUT THE JEALOUS. FRIEND ALWAYS SCREWS IT UP….THANKS ALOT …..must be. N.I.c.e. having that power over someone. Thanks Devyn that makes 2 girls you did me wrong with.

2/25/2014 0 comment

Does it all have a beginning???

by Shen_Tao 2/16/2014

written by Shen_Tao

I’m new of the page, and I wanted to start by asking people here, if, for them, all of this feelings of depression, the despair, the death wish, had a beginning, that’s to say, some kind of catalyst that started to bring your life down, to the point where ir became unbearable…

When I was 6 years old, I got sexually abused by a guy who used to work for my parents. I was too little to understand what had happened, but still I told my mother ALL OF IT, and she just dismissed it with a casual “You must have dreamed (dreamt?) it”. Obviously, when […]

2/16/2014 6 comments

Here it goes in the life of me

by BrooklynBoxx 12/19/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

Tommorow i have a christmas party, at school.

Its suppose to be 75 degrees outside

While everyone else is wearing short sleeved shirts and capris.

Ill be wearking my skinney jeans and long sleeves.

With such fresh cuts as deep as mine

I’ll keep them to my self

Because their mine

Here goes another day living in the life of me…

14 supposedly a beauty queen

FinallyÂ in her teens

Always out there causing a scene

Skipping meals to finally become lean

WishingÂ she could be truly seen

Here it goes in the life of me..

12/19/2012 11 comments

Just A Lil Letter From Me To You, Lovlies<3

by nolove14 10/5/2012

written by nolove14

Quit Worrying About How You Look, it’s About Whats On The Inside!

i don’t care who you are. your beautiful and amazing in your own unique and special way, please don’t let what he/she says make you stop believing that. the people who hurt you most are the ones who usually are the closest to you…but don’t beat yourself up, and depress yourself with it, because they may have called you ugly. stupid. fat. etc..but only you can believe them..only you can take it to heart. only you can take it as far as it gets. You, are Your Biggest Enemy. free yourself from mental slavery, […]

10/5/2012 4 comments

I want to do it.

by shindy7 9/24/2012

written by shindy7

I hate my life so much. I am thirty-eight years old and I have never felt the warm touch of love before in my life. I literally have no friends and have not had a stricken of luck for 10 years. I have tried to take medicine, but it never works, it just makes me more angry. The thought of doing it satisfies me, but when it comes down to it I am pathetic and cannot do it. I haveÂ schizotypal personality disorder and I also see and hear things. Not only am I depressed, but I enjoy the sight of blood and I love physical […]

9/24/2012 20 comments

Thankyou ^.^

by ShhDontTell 7/14/2011

written by ShhDontTell

I’m still addicted to everything. All The self harm…its so hard to quit but I’m working on it. I went from atleast 5 times a day to 3 I’m almost down to 1 now. I’m getting better. I’m eating more and even though sleep still escapes me I have a reason to be awake,now more than ever. I hope you know that those of you who commented on my posts do help alot. Thankyou

7/14/2011 1 comment

humans are too selfish.

by calmthedarkness 6/4/2010

written by calmthedarkness

for as long as i can remember, i’ve always been different from everyone else.

eventually i came to accept it; i basked in loneliness, despite the fact that it was “wrong” in the eyes of others. it was wrong to sit in my room alone. it was wrong to ignore others. it was wrong to not be like everyone else.

so i put up walls and i lived behind a mask for years. it was nearly perfect, as everyone bought into my lies. they believed that i was the person who i pretended to be.

yet one person knew.. he was the person closest to myself. he […]

6/4/2010 7 comments