So, it turns out im an alcoholic… thats the first time ive uttered those words fully.. i wish i could sya i felt better saying them but what i know ive to do next is rather unappealing. after this weekend im going to stay off the whiskey, and off the beer and off the vodka and cider, not that i touch that swine piss, and off puteen and all that. puteen is any irish alcoholic drink, ranges upwards of 80% and is illegal to brew here, yes im an irish stereotype, a motherfucken drunkard. anyway, heres me enjoying one of my last drinks. i dont […]
So I’ve been absent from this site for awhile. I’ve been busy clearing out my shit and NO WAY IN HELL would I have imagined what a heap of junk I’ve accumulated; I actually wish I had a huge pit of fire to throw it all into lol..I know this is something I have to do or I’ll feel like I’ve left a mess behind and I believe that would fuk me over if there is an afterlife..I’m just covering all my angles here. ITS STRESSFUL as for some reason I still have attachments to some of the junk but at the same time I’m […]
i want to die I am completely useless and worthless I can’t do shit like my mother in laws says im shit junk dumb im shit im shit . i hope i die. Worthlessness worthless worthless worthless
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Ugh, I’m f*cking hungry and all I wanna eat is junk food!! Â There’s like nothing in my apt and I’m too depressed to go out.
Eating isn’t much enjoyable anymore because apparently I’m allergic to everything (soy, dairy, wheat, gluten, rice, seafood). Â What I can eat tastes like cardboard so while I am f*cking hungry, I don’t really *want* to eat. Â At least the foods I’m “supposed” to eat. Â -_-‘
Well I’ve got bananas and sour blueberries, but no real food. Â I ate my salad but ugh. Â It’s salad. Â Just. No. Fun.
I want to eat pizza and chips and sushi and noodles and everything and anything carbs!! […]
I’m twenty-year-old female. I live alone and I’m in my 2nd year of college. I’m struggling with depression since I was 12. My mum had depression and I think she passed it on to me. All I think about everyday is how I can kill myself; I spend hours thinking how and I don’t have answers. I don’t have a “bad” life, I mean I have everything, but I’m still not happy. Last year I messed it up. I don’t know how I fell in love with my best friend’s dad, and I tried everything to stop it, but I couldn’t. When his family found […]
i keep struggling to find myself.. as if who I was completely dissolved into air and what’s left behind is a hunk of junk. today, I’m late for school again. I don’t even want to be here. all these teachers trying to educate us on nonsense that were never going to use in life. I dread school because of how stupid the administration is. I can’t wait for my junior year to be over and see how my senior year goes… if I make it…
This is my last post.
after playing ssl on some stuffs ( #ResetTheNet ) , i already don’t have money for eat and pay my place.
everything dissapear.
everything “told” me i’m just a junk.
off course it’s not my fault because i can’t prevent  my eyes from watching a stupid people do whatever they do
God sorry..
after finish creating this post, i’ll go
fuck that, i will hang up myself now.