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Lonely heart

by darksky21 4/18/2013

written by darksky21

How do I even begin to explain the way that I am feeling?

Itâ€™s a sense of emptiness;

A sense that you would care not to have.

I have no drive or motivation to do anything.

Iâ€™m sick of living the life that I have.

Sick of living in this body of mine.

I canâ€™t seem to get out of this rut.

I can only wish that I were someone else.

Wish that I was happy, but doing that gets me nowhere.

I have no destination.

My future is unknown.

I just want to disappear.

I want to eliminate my life, but Iâ€™m scared of the unknown.

I just wish I had the desire to live and the […]

4/18/2013 0 comment

Beautiful…you’d think she’d have no problems.
Yet she found me on facebook…and blast my soul, I almost missed her message because it was in the “other” part of my inbox.
She then told me how she had seen my post on sp and decided to read my others..and that she enjoyed my writing and that, most importantly to me, I was an inspiration to her..to HER..to anyone. She signed her message “Just a stranger passing through”..for she thought it was weird to write me though she didnt know me.

I replied as quickly as I could, letting idiotic words and sentences tumble across my keyboard but […]

1/31/2013 1 comment

do things get better

by mylife 8/5/2012

written by mylife

i understand how you feel but as young as you are you need to talk to someone, I have felt the same way for as long as i can remember, now 50 im still suffering in silence everyone thinks im strong and inside im screaming for help, i dont have the courage to ask for help and ive also passed this on to my children, my daughter has recently told me that its my fault because she has severe depression as i gave her to my mum when she was 2, i also had another 2 children to the same father whom abused me physically, […]

8/5/2012 4 comments

Logic Check

by Sumer2 6/20/2012

written by Sumer2

Dez, it is time for education…

Heat Sensors, Cameras, etc, etc etc.. who is in charge of it
all? some retarded american female and male. useless bastards
that have sex all day long and poop. nothing divine nothing special.

Do not talk to me about heat sensors or any of that stuff.

i am the master of codes and hardware is simply not above
codes.

codes are below everything but it guides everything dez.
it is the quantum reality, at quantum reality, we spend pennies
to run tests dez, and tests suggest , this game is mine to win
yours to lose if you do not hire me into […]

6/20/2012 2 comments

leaving earth

by ividivi 6/7/2012

written by ividivi

i dont want anyone to kill themselves. not me nether

like i said in a previous post “i dont belong”

wondering what life would be on the other side. lay down all my burdens. i picked up a knife and i cut my wrist so deeply i ended up in the hospital for 3 days. im now not even aloud to handle a butterknife without supervision so to speak. im not suicidal for god’s sake. im tired. if people would let me. i would leave. if people knew how i feel. they would know what i mean.

its like jogging for miles and stop and you have no […]

6/7/2012 5 comments

I Tried

by Rain 3/21/2012

written by Rain

Trying..to be happy for the sake of my friends. I know I burden them and all of you with my constant sadness. I try..and sometimes when I type the faces, they arent real. Theyre cover ups. I’m crying right now…i started crying inadvertantly. Not sobbing or moaning..just crying. Tears stream down my cheeks and plop onto my keyboard..because of the pain i feel inside..so much pain that its starting to bleed through to the outside…it hurts. This isnt just any breakup..this is THE breakup..the breakup that will break me..is breaking me. And the fact that im sitting here crying silently with tears tumbling out of […]

3/21/2012 3 comments

Is there anyone like me?

by idunno 3/15/2012

written by idunno

i wanna become an actor/ err maybe an astronaut/ psychologist….eventually when i get better

I have ADD, severe social anxiety issues, i’m scared of people I’m a high school dipout due to loosing friends/paranoia (i have one close friend)from depression due to selective mutism, Im paranoid, some OCD,Â I’ve had a past some mild sexual abuse…I’m a loner, use to be suicidal, use to think of it everyday but now im better.(i’ve attempted it),I might have avdp, and maybe social ptsd I can be really sensitive but I always bounce back. I’m a mad genius, usually a step or two ahead. I am kind of random, […]

3/15/2012 2 comments

talking not cutting? does that work?

by sparkeyes 3/8/2012

written by sparkeyes

Okay so I am making an effort right now to talk. Â My hands are busy on the keyboard but my self control is kind of waning. Â But I thought I would try and talk instead. Â Will someone talk to me? Â I tried calling a friend but that didn’t work.

3/8/2012 30 comments

One more teen with a sad story….

by UnknownAngel 2/19/2012

written by UnknownAngel

My life seems to have fallen apart.

The First thing that happened was my mum leaving my dad , yeahÂ alrightÂ parents break up all around but my mum left me with my dad and my three brothers.My life was never gonna be the same.

The Second thing that happened was disgusting I was still 8 and my oldest Â brother was 15 . One day I asked if I could play some songs on his keyboard and he turned round and asked me to kiss him and he’d allow it, so I did ’causeÂ IÂ had to practice this song for my lesson. Then after that it happened more and more […]

2/19/2012 1 comment

Quick.

by Alexis 4/24/2009

written by Alexis

I will make this quick because I’m preparing to die any minute. I’ve become so fed up with the world—with all the people who said they’d be there for me when I needed them. I’ve fought with depression for years and its finally got the better of me. I sit here writing this feeling myself drift in and out of consciousness after taking 12 Oxycodon pills and slitting my wrist and I’m kind of upset I’m getting blood all over my keyboard. The love of my life doesn’t love me, isn’t that a pity party everyone goes through? Only I’m not sure people truly understand […]

4/24/2009 6 comments

Pain

by fifi514 3/23/2009

written by fifi514

My life was perfectly fine until things started in the 5th grade. I was your normalÂ self-centered, bratty, know-it-all, drama queen, annoying, 10-year-old, until my mom decided she was leaving my dad. That day broke my heart, and tears are now splattering on my keyboard just thinking about it. When she told me the news,Â an unnatural shriek escaped my mouth, and she was surprisingly laughing at me, though I was standing in a pile of tears. Later that day my dad attempted talking to me about it, but for the first time in my whole life he put his head in his hands and cried right […]

3/23/2009 1 comment