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kill me now

My Life

by Ylem 3/13/2016

written by Ylem

Is this thing I’m living even worth calling a life?

Where the fuck is this thing going?

Where do I see myself 10 years?

I see myself a depressed fucked up doctor slaving it out for my family that I love so very much, and still floating around in this world not even connected with my own body, just to keep them happy.

When the fuck am I going to do something for me?

What do I want for me?

I WANT TO DIE!!

That’s what I want for myself. I don’t want this thing called life anymore. It serves no purpose for me. I find no joy whatsoever in being alive. […]

3/13/2016 11 comments

The dark hole

by Drowning 3/12/2016

written by Drowning

so over my short period of life iv had to deal with addictions because of this fucking void that needs to be filled so in high school it was weed I smoked weed everyday to till this fucking dark hole and then after I left college guess what that void needed next alcohol so I went though a period of drinking everyday because that void didn’t like weed no more then the void needed food so I eat and put so a hell of a lot of weight but then the void didn’t need food just the alcohol was enough to keep it filled so […]

3/12/2016 5 comments

someone kill me please i cant do this anymore

by herecomestheavalanche 2/19/2016

written by herecomestheavalanche

sitting on my couch my stomach hurts my brain hurts im full of tears and anger and rage and hate and wind and shit and garbage and i just want to die

please someone come here and blow my brains out cut me up murder me i can’t do this anymore

this sucks this sucks this sucks this sucks

i hate life i hate life i hate life i hate life i can’t do this anymore i can’t do this anymore i can’t live i can’t live i can’t handle being here with myself alone and lonely i want to chop off all my limbs and organs and […]

2/19/2016 3 comments

Such a fucking fucked day… And it has just begun!!!

by Ylem 1/7/2016

written by Ylem

This has got to be the shittiest day of my life. I’m at that point. That point. The point that scares the shit out of me and yet excites me at the fucking time. The point where I could just die right now and I wouldn’t give a fucking shit.

Please, someone just kill me now. I can’t stand this shit anymore.

I’m sitting on my bedroom floor. I’m bleeding out. I can hear people talking in the living room. I’m not calling out for help. I’ll just listening to music and drift off.

I hate my head. It keeps torturing me. Why do I have to go […]

1/7/2016 2 comments

If you love me you’ll kill me

by MissDysphoria 10/15/2015

written by MissDysphoria

I find myself waiting for the crosswalk light to turn to go, watching all the speeding cars fly by. I like to stand as close to the edge as I can and just imagine the feeling of stepping out into traffic, and the feeling of the impact of the first car to hit me. the only thing holding me back is the possibility of some how surviving that…and all those people watching…me. I was told it only gets harder from here. Right now is harder than I can stand, just kill me now, I hate life.

10/15/2015 1 comment

pain

by bubbles1128 10/2/2015

written by bubbles1128

I’m not afraid to die. Actually I prefered if someone would kill me now. Remove the burden I place on everyone’s hearts. I cut and I feel better. Everyone says I’m sick but am I really? I’ve found release. Please let me die already

10/2/2015 2 comments

Whats wrong with me

by Imtotiredforthis 6/9/2015

written by Imtotiredforthis

I’m not new to this site I’ve been here before on a different account. I left because I thought I got better. But today I just kind of broke down and I don’t know why. My sister is graduating from highschool I’ll be a junior next year. It all hits me pretty hard because I’ve never really had any friends so id always hang out with her. And this year I talked to some of her friends which I’ve even considered to be my friends but I don’t think they feel the same way. Anyway I just want to say I’m a piece of shit […]

6/9/2015 1 comment

I think too much

by T-Rex 5/15/2015

written by T-Rex

Sometimes I think I think too much. Actually, I know I think too much. What the fuck is this? Second post in like a week or something. Clearly I’m falling downhill, I made a strong vow to myself to not come back here and post unless I was in dire need of venting, and I guess I’m there.

1. Worried as hell about my new summer job, as I will miss a lot of other events I wanted to do this summer

2. Wanted to teach myself multiple languages this summer and can’t now because will be too busy

3. I’m ridiculously inadequate in terms of every single […]

5/15/2015 1 comment

Hi

by Ikkin1 6/12/2013

written by Ikkin1

hi i dont really know where to start but i guess i can start by saying im suicidal. ive been depressed for a long time and im still not sure why. i really wish i could have the courage to tell someone but i dont . im too scared they’ll make fun of me or will worry too much and i dont want that. i really know i need help but im just not sure why im so scared to tell. my dad is so understanding that he could help and my mom could help too i just dont know… i also dont know why […]

6/12/2013 4 comments

Why.

by roseannad 3/2/2013

written by roseannad

I am scared of myself.
In the day.
I am pretty, I am smiles, I am the girl who aids.
At night?
My skin starts itching.
Then aching.
Burning.
I don’t want to die just yet.
I break perfume bottles.
Eyeliner caps.
Anything to get the words from my head on my skin.
Nothing stops it anymore.
I stood on the roof.
Three floors up, that white concrete calling me.
I shouldn’t want to jump.
What’s wrong with me.
Why do I hate myself.
Monster.
I can’t save myself from my mind.
I am falling again.
I cut my palms then left words on my […]

3/2/2013 5 comments