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I don’t belong anywhere

by winterskyout 1/8/2016

written by winterskyout

No social skills, no interest in making friends, no motivation for work or school. No one can love someone who can’t show love to begin with. You can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved. Everything in these 18 years of life have been useless just like me. Why am I here? I didn’t want to be born. I want to stop existing, I want a heart attack or stroke to kill me.

Nothing good comes out of me except bitterness, self-loathing, and hate for this cruel world that has tried to help me but I rejected around every corner. And now I’m unfixable.

1/8/2016 5 comments

by JiminyCrispies 1/7/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I saw my doctor on Tuesday. He said he was worried about the episodes I’ve been having and said he was calling my psychiatrist to bring forward my appointment. I don’t want him to. I can’t see my psychiatrist anymore. She’s going to hurt me. She’s going to kill me. Why does no one see it? It couldn’t be more obvious. I need to tell someone; I need them to help me. But I don’t know who she’s got to. I don’t know who she’s brainwashed. I need help. Someone needs to get her away from me. She’s going to get me. She’s getting people […]

1/7/2016 1 comment

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by Azure11 1/5/2016

written by Azure11

What would happen if I drank a ton of bleach? Would that for sure kill me?

1/5/2016 5 comments

Please just kill me

by abyssgirl 1/4/2016

written by abyssgirl

I want to die I can’t take living anymore I’m going to destroy everything and lose the person who was one of my only reasons for living , I’m just a worthless cowardly piece of shit , I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow

1/4/2016 7 comments

I wish pills could kill me

by evildandelions 1/1/2016

written by evildandelions

I know pills are the least effective method, more likely to leave me brain damaged. I really don’t want to risk that- I don’t have enough klonopin to lethally overdose, but if I mixed it with other meds it might be enough. But there’s still the risk of surviving- maybe taking trazodone with it will make it lethal, but maybe not. I’m not too concerned about the pain of it, as long as it kills me- I probably deserve the pain.

I know losing me will be devastating to my family, to the few friends I have. But that isn’t enough for me to want to […]

1/1/2016 5 comments

I’m Frightened

by JiminyCrispies 12/31/2015

written by JiminyCrispies

I see my doctor on Tuesday. I need to talk to him about things I’m not completely honest about with my psychiatrist or therapist. The only problem is I’m concerned he’ll side with them. My last therapist wouldn’t say a bad word about my psychiatrist, or any other doctor for that matter, and I’m afraid he will do the same. I don’t think he would, but it all comes down to how deep my psychiatrist has her claws in him. If she’s turned him against me, too; if she’s going to make him try to hurt me as well. I want a new psychiatrist, I […]

12/31/2015 2 comments

I want to die so bad

by nicole123 12/29/2015

written by nicole123

Today I saw my old love and I was happy . We just listened to music and laid together . And I felt content . But the second I left I feel so alone . I’m so unhappy . Any second I’m not around something that can make me happy , I instantly become sad again . I really want to die. I wish I could order a hit man to kill me. I don’t think I’ll ever be happy . This all seems pointless as fuck . I have such bad anxiety now anyways around people that I don’t think I’ll ever make friends […]

12/29/2015 3 comments

by happyhappyjoyjoy 12/28/2015

written by happyhappyjoyjoy

I am simply waiting to check out after my cat dies in another 8 years tops (since she’s middle aged for an indoor cat) seeing as how she’s the only person I can really think of who would actually be adversely impacted by my death with how she gets really down in the dumps after I’m gone just for a few days. I am incredibly brutally nihilistic at this point in my life which started from a very young age where I learned hard that there is no system of justice in physics so I don’t believe in good and evil, to me it’s all […]

12/28/2015 3 comments

Protected: Seconds feel like hours.

by whiskered-fish 12/27/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/27/2015 1 comment

Protected: I’m not worth rescuing.

by whiskered-fish 12/18/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/18/2015 3 comments

Still Hunted… Still Suicidal…

by Ylem 12/13/2015

written by Ylem

So, I thought I should give an update on the ‘Jehova’s Witness’ who are trying to kill me.

The year is coming to an end and the court date is drawing near. You know what that means? More threats. They want me dead as in yesterday.

Well… Whatever… A part of me doesn’t give a shit anymore.

Anyway, the harassment and threats have escalated. Since they can’t do it themselves, they have their relatives and church members do the dirty work for them. I’m in hell.

Remember I mentioned that 2 guys were shot dead a few weeks back? Well, it turns out those 2 guys were among the […]

12/13/2015 8 comments

Hate everyday of the week

by Blackdog 12/6/2015

written by Blackdog

I fucking hate sundays. Well I fucking hate that sundays have to end cause I really hate mondays.
I have a lot of papers to do and I should have delivered one of them this weekend. I’m lost. My mind isn’t working and I’m having a lot of anxiety right now. I’m so sick of this. Fuck you universe, just kill me already and stop fucking with me.

Fuck the sundays and the mondays what I really hate is myself.
I hate you little piece of shit. Always sad, always anxious. You have a awesome life why can’t you enjoy it.

And stop crying. Just go make […]

12/6/2015 5 comments

Protected: Lonely, raving lunatic.

by whiskered-fish 11/18/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/18/2015 6 comments

The Suicide Guardians: Envy’s Awakening

by Zetsumei 11/18/2015

written by Zetsumei

A lone figure is seen walking to an abandoned village and says quietly, “This village… The buildings are fine but the people are… Their bodies look like unwrapped mummies.”

While walking, the figure hears what sounds to be crying and laughter mixed together then walks towards it, curious.

Suddenly the sound stops and a seated man surrounded by corpses says in a hoarse voice, “Who are you? Has the government finally come to kill me? Good, I need to atone.”

Figure: “No, I’m not here to kill you. I’m a sinner just like you. In fact, I’ve also destroyed an entire town. However, you aren’t to blame for […]

11/18/2015 9 comments

beautiful and i love her

by jano.11 11/13/2015

written by jano.11

but .. she betrayed me … ! who is she … it’s life !! yup … it’s life …

i sow it .. a beautiful and loved it .. i wanted to live it .. i wanted to stay in it .. i didn’t ever wanna leave .. but it’s forcing me to !! i didn’t ever wanted .. it’s kicking me out .. like i am a ball ! why .. know i made many mistakes ! if god is watching he will know i’m not the only one .. alot of people had made many mistakes and many of them got the bless of […]

11/13/2015 4 comments

Protected: what is the point of all this ?

by daitya1989 11/12/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/12/2015 2 comments

escapade

by IWAS 11/11/2015

written by IWAS

I want to die.

Isn’t this blog called “thesuicideproject”? so I am going to write about dying.

in case you are mistaking me to someone like Hazel Grace or Augustus Waters or the dying girl or Kate or anyone else who were dying in books, I do not have cancer nor TB nor any sickness that will cause my death. for short I am not dying, I simply just want to die.

if anyone of you have read J.D Salinger’s one and only published book, “The Catcher in the Rye”, I somehow feel like his main character there, Holden Caulfield, which is technically J.D Salinger fictionalized, because the […]

11/11/2015 3 comments

Suffering

by disgusting 11/10/2015

written by disgusting

I briefly saw the post today about wishing you had cancer, and have seen people here before talk about how unfair it is that those who want to die are perfectly healthy while people who have it all do die.

That’s sort of what a friend of mine has been going through for a long time lately. This friend doesn’t want to die and isn’t suicidal. He’s the 13 yr old gay kid I met when I was 18 and took on as my kid brother. Even though I haven’t seen him in about 18 years, he is and always will be my brother, blood or […]

11/10/2015 5 comments

Day 1- Depression

by ClaudiaValencia 11/9/2015

written by ClaudiaValencia

I think I will start posting everyday that my depression acts up.

Ive been depressed since I was 3 years old on and off. It’s really quite odd though to think of a depressed three year old. Lately I’ve been getting worse though. I thought I had been cured of my depression for a while because I hadn’t felt it there. I think the reason I’m feeling depressed is because I stopped taking my antidepressants for a few days…. I know, not a smart choice.

Im gonna see my therapist at one o’clock today.

I haven’t seriously thought of suicide. I’ve cut myself quite badly though. The wounds […]

11/9/2015 2 comments

I Accidentally Lived

by winterskyout 11/3/2015

written by winterskyout

I’m living, but I’m not alive. Human biology prevents me from holding my breath for too long and survival instincts prohibit the drugs from shutting down my body. The overdose quantity of acetaminophen, Dramamine, and caffeine do not stand a chance against thousands of years of perseverance; and all of that history and perseverance is embedded in DNA, thriving in me and laying dormant. I’m killing it, because I can’t be a part of that humanity. I never belonged with them. I never belonged anywhere. I’m living, but I’m not enjoying life.

I’ve only accidentally made it to the next day. If fate and life were […]

11/3/2015 1 comment

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