Tears;
Droplets upon our faces
Screams;
Loud, unheard voices
Whispers;
Little nothings thrown into the wind
Smiles;
One fakes these
Laughs;
A different sound for each of us
Knives;
To cut away the pain on our skin
Pills;
A way to escape this reality of our world
Eyes;
Dark and dull, observing, watching, glaring
Ears;
They hear the insults, the screams, the voices
Mouths;
They talk, they whisper, they scream
Hearts;
They’re broken throughout the day
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Laughs
Why do we reach out to those that have harmed us?
Is it somehow an innate desire inside that they will change and see the error of their ways and realize that after years of degrading us, we’re actua lly worth something?
Dad used to scold me for my self-worth being low, but he kept contributing to it by making fun of my weight, or my bleeding issues. Â How could a Registered Nurse be so cruel, knowing, as a biology major, that the health issues I have are pretty severe?
The truth is, they weren’t severe because he didn’t want to foot the doctor bill. Â Years later, they’re […]
Going on here, I know I would never be able to commit suicide. I’m too much of a wimp to do it, and would only be able to do so purely on impulse depending on my mood and surroundings. But I still have suicidal thoughts. I don’t know why I’m here or what my purpose is for being here. I don’t belong anywhere. Ever since I was a child, I’ve felt like an outcast. I’ve never had a clique of friends I truly belonged to, and if there was, I wasn’t important enough to be invited to hang out, I was more the person they […]
After a hard year of being controlled, ignored and pushed around, it’s finally come that I am moving away from this demoness… I have a blog by the way if anyone wants to read it, how wrathful and hurt she’s made me…
So, let me tell you a story of the bestest cousins who one’s true colors comes to show how evil and a bully she is…. It starts with moving in together, oh, what a bad idea that was!! Oh, I will also post this on my blog as well, which I will post at the end, and it will be the final farewell one […]
We are gathered here today, brought together by sadness and a young girl’s demise
A conclusion reached because of the boy with the lies
Her told her things each day, no one should have to hear
So often in fact, she lived in constant fear
She no longer looked forward, always looking back
Building up her defenses for the boy’s next attack
Day in and day out she heard the boy with the lies
Make fun of everything- from her feet to her eyes
Even the way that she walked was absurd
She remembered every mean thing she heard
Even when she was alone, […]
My hate for you runs deep
but it wasn’t always this way
You made me smile, laugh and forget about the crap that goes on around me,
but now you are merely a contributor to my pain.
I’ve learned to accept you for you and I’ve always looked beyond your appearance
but you would never give a second thought about how I feel.
This is my moment to be selfish, my moment to drown in my self pity
because all this time I have tried to make things better for you. My friend.
I hate that you use me as the butt of your jokes to gain laughs from people who will never […]
She was such a lovely girl, always smiling and laughing, never without a friend. Until she left.
It started like a typical morning for her. the screamo waking her up in the morning she started her routine. getting her uniform on, then putting her hair in a bun, then her makeup. She turned off the music and went upstairs. 6:38 read the clock, time for her to go to the bus stop. She sneaked into her parents room and said goodbye to her mom. Then she went out the door. But not before putting an object that would change her life later in the day. […]
Not one person in this world knows how I feel, not even my boyfriend. How depressed I am, how much I cry, how damaged I am, how sad I am, how long its been, how much I wish to end my life every day.
They think I am just me, little bit anti social but laughs, is ok, they think I am fine.
Is that fucked?
3 years back, my family was in a severe economic crisis – we were broke. Living in a family friend’s house as a whole because we had to move out of our own; my father losing everything he had, spending time in jail and still having debt; having to move to a country quite literally running from money. It was a very bad situation.
But, bad enough as it was, my mother started turning into someone – no, showing a part of herself that me and my sister never knew was in her. She became a total *****. I know it’s unacceptable to be saying stuff […]
Fuck it. Every fucking day starts out like this.
Wake up. Wait for my ***** ass mom to get fucking ready for work so she can drive me to school.
Fucking school. All my teachers are dirty 80 year old cunts who fuck up people’s eardrums with their bullshit.
Next shitty period. Im sitting with my friend and somebody goes “HA, Jason sucks dick!” and everybody laughs.
I go the hell home. My mom yells at me for fucking up in school. My grades suck, and her job is never done until she makes my life even fucking worse than it already is.
I go to karate. My instructor […]
I’m sure i’m not the only one here who puts on a fake smile, laughs, talks, and pretends to be a perfectly happy person. Everyone at school, besides my best friend, believes the act. I started cutting again 2 days ago. The wounds weren’t deep at all. If i hadn’t done as many as i did, they could pass for cat scratches. Since it’s winter, wearing long sleeves all the time isn’t suspicious. I prefer to anyways, though, because i have 4 years worth of scars on my arms (i didn’t used to have to worry because i had quit for almost a year so […]
Oh my lovely alcohol, oh how you do please me
Fill my heart with sadness, and electrifying glee.
A sweet yet bitter liquid, that seeps into my veins
You dull my mind, you free my spirit, and take away the chains.
Sloshing in your frigid flask, you ask and tease for more
With jest and greed I indulge thee, and pass out on the floor.
No memory of prior things, convulsing laughs and tears
Ups and downs, a roller-coaster, yearning for more beer.
Dancing jigs to country music, strange and quite erratic
Thank god nobody’s watching, it must be quite traumatic.
Spread out on the cold concrete, bottle in one […]
Ok–I’ve been on this earth for 45 years. Im in decent shape & until I lost my job made a decent living. For the past 30 years I have been building up my courage to commit suicide. At various points in my life I have tried suicide. Cutting, sleeping pills and have thought of running my car into a truck (but why ruin some strangers life) so I have not done that. Many people have told me that life gets better. By living I have proven that hypothisis wrong. My point of this post is to state that were I sucessful in my first attemp when I was […]
Everybody is sad
But no body cries.
everybody is down.
but all they do is lie.
everybody laughs smiles and hugs
but nobody loves.
everybody giggles
everybody is shyÂ
but deep down everybody
is breaking down and crying.
everybody sleeps and goes off into there dreams
but no body sees the kids who cry themselves to sleep.
Dreams are your utopia! The place you wanna stay
but when you wake up you wish your life away.
Going to school a hard thing to do,Â
especially with friends who don’t care what you do.
You’ve told them your down but they don’t care
they just sit there and stare at you blankly because
what your going through, they don’t understand.
Its hard to live
but its […]
I am the girl who is always seen when doing nothing.I am the girl who all the rumours are about.
I am the girl who never smiles, laughs but always friendly.
I am the girl who will help the world but can’t help herself.
I am the girl who can see the beauty in every one but herself.
Who I am should not be the question but who I want to be.
The answer is happy with me and able to help me.
Not to be self-centered do not get me wrong, just able to self-love.
Words have the meaning you put to them
Well I choose to make room for them
In my head heart and soul
I believe them to be true
But as my head well knows
Most people never show
The meanig behind their cruel words
For jokes, for laughs, for a moment of fun
They’ll go out of their way in their very busy day to make fun
Of my looks, of my beliefs, of my intelligence
Now, I know a few people who say that these lies are purely that
Lies that are told from someones fat ass
But I take them to heart
And that’s when I […]
“How Nice To Feel Nothing, and Still Get Full Credit For Being Alive.”
by MilesToGo
written by MilesToGo
That’s a quote from one of my all time favourite novels, Slaughterhouse 5 by Kurt Vonnegut. I have plans to get the book’s mantra, ‘so it goes’, tattooed somewhere on my body.
Which, is kind of at odds with posting on a suicide website, isn’t it?
I don’t actually know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know if I’m depressed – I’ve never gone to a doctor or a counseller. I think about suicide on a near-daily basis; not in some abstract way, but with regards to methodologies, and having a suicide note on my laptop which I regularly update to correspond with the messages I want […]
Dear Whoever Is Reading This,
Hi, i’m Maya. I’m 13 years old now, & turning 14 in a couple months. I’m very short for my age (4’11), I have long black hair, I’m Japanese, I’m a dancer, & I believe that God made me beautiful. Seems great, right?
Lets start from the beginning of my life. From when i was first born to about age 8, i was the happiest kid you could ever meet. I was an angel child, too. I never cried when my family was trying to sleep, I was nice to everyone & everyone was the same toward me, teachers loved me, I […]
I’m only 13, but I’m smart enough to see the truth. The world has gone to shit, and there’s nothing I can do about it.
My life has been one big downhill fall. I don’t mean to sound whiney or “emo”, but I can’t help it. I completely seclude myself, so I don’t have to deal with the idiots of the world. Homeschool is stressing me out, but I’m terrified to go to normal school. I pick my nails and skin, and continue because the pain is the only feeling I ever have other than apathy and melancholy. My parents don’t understand, my brother doesn’t […]
Last post.. hope you all find your way in the world. Life ain’t always beautiful but some things are worth fighting for. I think what most of us need is just someone to listen to us once in awhile. Always remember to return the favor. Molly if you see Amatura, tell her thanks for the laughs. it wasn’t personal. good luck to you all. last one up, turn the lights out and lock the door please. a little song I used to like when I was a kid. Later.