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I Think It’s Time

by Matt 2/4/2015

written by Matt

It’s funny isn’t it? We make plans and nine times out of ten they never come to fruition. I feel like my clock is ticking down. Do you remember that music video by Nickelback, I don’t know what song it was for, but it had a guy who could see when people were going to die by using little LED clocks above their heads.

Yeah, I feel like that guy when I look in the mirror, only the time keeps jumping around. I think it’s levelling out and there isn’t much left.

I’m cold and shivering all over and I can’t warm myself up. My legs barely […]

2/4/2015 1 comment

Bullying is Hard to Get Over

by hopefuldreamer 5/2/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

I cried myself to sleep last night because I was so frustrated everything just felt pointless and I was tired of feeling stuck and just wish I never got depressed in the first place. I feel like being bullied caused a lot of problems for me that led me to depression and I feel like if I dealt with bullying by talking to someone and telling those who bullied me that what they were saying was hurting me instead of putting my energy into hobbies then I wouldn’t be here. I developed so many bad habits because of it for instance: I hold all my […]

5/2/2013 8 comments

Planning to kill myself at a certain age

by Commodus 4/11/2013

written by Commodus

Hi! Now, let me start off by saying that I am not full of the same deep-seated depression as many of you are.

My family loves me, I was never molested, I haven’t even cut myself. But I still want to commit suicide.

Not now, not even tomorrow. But upon reaching a certain age, I have not decided upon the age yet – it may be 60 or 70 even. But I will do it.

I know what you’re thinking -Â Well, if he’s got a good life, why would he kill himself? That’s just plain selfish!

But the thing is, I’m Asexual. I won’t ever have a wife to […]

4/11/2013 3 comments

When the world turns their back on you…

by Soroxen 1/22/2013

written by Soroxen

You disappear…

What have I done to deserve this?

I’ve always been the good child. The one who would eat all their veggies, do their homework, listen to their parents, do well in school and sports and yet I’m always the one at fault. Reading some of these posts, I really have no right to complain about my life because others have it worse than I do. I grew up with both parents, I’m healthy, and we don’t have to worry about money. What more could I ask? All I’ve wanted, was to have someone to love me or care for me. Unfortunately, some things in the […]

1/22/2013 21 comments

Wrecked-It-Domino (Update on The Life of Domino)

by Domino Jays 1/10/2013

written by Domino Jays

Anyone seen Wreck-It-Ralph?

Well, the title’s inspired by it.

Finals are next week. I’m barely keeping up in one class. That class has the E. The rest of them are B’s or higher. Science has never interested me much, and the only time it did was in Biology. That was the only class I liked. And then Accelarated Chemistry this year just tore my mind to shreds.

Just trying to understand the very basics of Chemistry will send me into a suicidal-crying-fit. Now it’s finals, and I still don’t understand 90% of it. I tried to get out of it before, but I couldn’t. So I just tried […]

1/10/2013 0 comment

My Room

by JustTooLate 1/9/2013

written by JustTooLate

Deafening echoes reverberate off the walls.
Walls painted black by years of neglect.
WallsÂ forming a very small room.
With a floor made of long-lost dreams and aspirations.
No door.
No window.
No light.
Beautiful.

In the center of the room, I sit.
Unable to think clearly.
Why is it so loud?
I only need a moment of peace.
What I wouldn’t give for a moment of peace.
Unable to open my eyes, for fear of what I might see.
And when I finally muster the courage, I wish that I hadn’t.

Filth.
That’s all I see around me.
People living meaningless lives.
Blissfully ignorant.
Secure in their […]

1/9/2013 0 comment

I don’t know

by bbbaron 1/6/2013

written by bbbaron

I never thought I could feel this way. Missed connections. That alone was the miraculous thing. How and why did it turn out this way… I will never understand.

1/6/2013 2 comments

This could be it

by DarkSnow-Leopard 11/26/2012

written by DarkSnow-Leopard

This is what could, as you would say “break the camel’s back”. I may have lost someone I considered a brother, but I could lose the only closest person after him… My sister (not related).

My sister and I have been close friends for close to about six years. We have spent so much time together and told each other many secrets. Even though I still act somewhat paranoid around her, I know she still cares for me and we love each other very much. It was only recently did we start talking again since there was a break in our education that allowed up free […]

11/26/2012 1 comment

Again. This time worse

by Dark Instinct 10/10/2012

written by Dark Instinct

I made a post a couple months ago about a girl that I loved who cheated on me and left me. And how I thought that I had nothing left. Thanks to you guys I moved on and forgot about her. But she came back into my life and acted like snitching was wrong. I didn’t want to be mean, so I welcomed her presence. She led me on again and I fell so the same trick. She got me to care for her again and broke my heart again. I’m a moron for falling for it but the real problem is that I haven’t […]

10/10/2012 3 comments

I Just Want To Be Perfect

by melancholia 10/8/2012

written by melancholia

It’s true. And it’s the reason for my suicide. These feelings of hopelessness stem from being an imperfect human being. I have a poor memory, make lots of mistakes – but worst of all, I’m ugly. I am so unattractive. I look in the mirror and fall apart crying, I get violent visions of mutilating my body, hacking it to pieces until I disintergrate. Until I’m nothing anymore. Unrecognisable. Until I die from bloodloss, hopefully, and everybody can forget I ever existed. That’s all I want – to not exist, to never have existed. I wish I had never existed.

I go to bed and pray […]

10/8/2012 31 comments

Its about that time

by itsmytime 9/30/2012

written by itsmytime

I’ve been checking this site out for a long, long time.Â I’ve led a miserable life, anytime I’ve gotten close to ending things I’ve always found a way out.Â Now, I’ve gotten to the point that I’m tired of trying to figure things out, I’m tired of the unexpected, and I’m tired of the self-destruction.Â I’ve always been able to hide any problems I’ve faced, issues I’ve dealt with, people around me seem to think I live a “perfect” life.Â If they only knew the truth, would they still be there?

I have it all planned out.Â I have letters written to those that mean the […]

9/30/2012 13 comments

Nothing to say.

by mudderfker 7/16/2012

written by mudderfker

I guess ill start from the begining… I grew up without a father, for my childhood, I never had fun because I was always forced to do homework from books that you can buy. If I did a problem wrong, I would get hit with a wooden stick on the hands or slapped in the face… I always enjoyed games since I grew attached to it considering my mom was at work. Playing games also were the part of the my life where I would unstress my selfI also never had an actual summer since my mom still forced me to to spend all my […]

7/16/2012 0 comment

This is kinda how it all started.

by mercedes8792 6/16/2012

written by mercedes8792

I don’t know why I’m writing this, maybe it’s to release all my feelings somehow but I don’t think it’ll make a difference. I didn’t have a great childhood. My parents always fought and my dad was/is abusive. It hurt to see him hurt my mom and my two younger sisters. I used to care that he hit me but I got used to it and I just wanted to protect everybody else. Heck, I used to crave him abusing me because in my head that meant scars, bruises, belt marks. Evidence. I hoped that one day it would get so bad that someone would […]

6/16/2012 0 comment

About me.. A little

by Dawn 5/21/2012

written by Dawn

I am fifteen and up until recently my life was fine. I was already depressed but I didn’t have any problems with my life. I know I’m talked about and picked on at school but I didn’t realize how much until after the big event that ruined my life. I know others don’t know that I’m any weaker and more vulnerable than before but I feel like the talking about me and messing with me has gotten a lot worse since my mom moved away. I didn’t have much of a choice but to stay here with my grandparents and my sister. My sister has […]

5/21/2012 8 comments

i just don’t know anymore.

by pinkfade 4/29/2012

written by pinkfade

to begin, i don’t even know why i’m bothering to write here. desperation, i guess.

on the internet i broke away from communities, i got involved in some pretty nasty self-detrimental whole weight issue ones and though
that whole communal thing was great ultimately it just led to healthÂ deterioration. i kind of got out of it, i mean i’m still alive.
i’ve already tried once: to do that whole self-dying thing. it didn’t work. i woke up, rolled out of bed, and went to my eight hour shift/job at the time.
continued on as if it were a normal day. i didn’t think i’d wake up, […]

4/29/2012 2 comments

my life

by Chachi 2/25/2012

written by Chachi

I remember I was the sweetest girl you would ever meet but that all changed when people started bullying me.I got bullied every single day.By everyone and by my family.My mom would always yell at me and my brother would beat me.My other brother would want nothing to do with me.My dad you ask?Lets see he had left me and my mom when I was 5 years old.People would call me fat,ugly,pathetic,Ect.Basiclly all the names in the book.I didnt understand what I did at the time.I would believe everything they said I had so much pressure on me and I still do.That pressure […]

2/25/2012 4 comments