Life should be so much more than staying alive. So often, I want to leave, to go on to a better existence. But it doesn’t go any further because I don’t want to hurt my mom & children. And yet what kind of existence is it to merely survive?
I hope you find it in your heart to watch this video and realize how much you really are cared for and how much we need you here.
The End? Sure, you’re in control of that. It’s your life after all, right? But stick around long enough to see you pull through this day… week… month and years. Before you know it, you will have succeeded.
Let life do its job. You? Be the difference in someone’s life… especially in yours.
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I think we should have the right to die no matter the situation. Transgender people have the right to completely change their lives if they choose to. If a transgender male wants to have his penis removed , he goes in for evaluation and see if that’s what he really wants . after a year I think and after tons of questions to make sure that’s what he wants BAM! The penis is gone. Even if family and society disagrees, he has the right to change his life if he choses to and he’s allow to do so. His body, his mind and his life.
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I’m playing Stein’s Gate right now and it raises a lot of time travel questions. If you had a time machine, would you try to redo something in your life? Regardless of causality and everything else, of course. I would try to see what would happen if Trump never became a presidential candidate.
iv been depressed and in the darkness for so long living a normal life seems scary not to say I will be normal but what is normal always ? Beging depressed and suicidal its just about making it though another day without slicing you throat or swollowing a bunch of pills that’s a battle on its own now life on the other hand finding/getting a job you don’t hate paying bills so you don’t get kicked out made homeless then you feel like an out cast if you don’t have what’s in fashion phone cloths etc but u no u should compare your self to […]
Well after calling and waiting for a call back and calling and waiting for a call back and so on and so forth since fucking December, I tried calling the admissions office again today and still nobody picked up. Albeit I called around lunch but when else am I supposed to call? I rarely have any fucking time. Of course I tell my father about this and all he has to say is “I don’t think they want to talk to you anymore. You kinda let that ship sail.” when they haven’t TALKED to me ONCE since I got the application, and I haven’t heard […]
Everything is prepared, in about 20-30 minutes I will go into my bathroom, sit in the tub, zone out to some good music, and fall asleep. I’ve wanted to do this for so long. I wish I could say proper goodbyes to a few people before I go but that would tip them off to what I am about to do.
I wish things could have worked out differently for me but I guess an average life was too much to ask for. Oh well.
Often when i’m stressed, like when there are important exams coming up in the near future (or any particularly significant event for that matter), I have a series of thoughts that run through my head. It’s a mantra that half keeps me sane and half makes me insane.
“You could join the army instead. You could commit a crime instead. You could kill yourself instead.”
Each of these prospects require a varied level of commitment, but over time they become less of a threat and more of an ideology.
Although all three of these options keep bouncing around my head, right now i’m contemplating committing a crime. I […]
They say mental trauma is an invisible wound. I would have to disagree , I can see it in the mirror everyday and I’m sure that those that used to know me before can see
it in my social life.
I can’t believe I am at this point. I cheated on my wife of 10 years, with a woman that I barely knew, and recently she found out about it. I have two great kids, but don’t feel I can be the example as a good man for anymore, as she told me..I destroyed my family, her trust, and replaces the love she had towards me with anger and hate. She says I have literally drained the life from her and wasted her life…I no longer want to be a burden for her, and the financial gain she will get from this is huge, over […]
Hi folks… I am still pretty new here and really enjoying getting to know all of you! I have a hard time sharing all the hard things in life or dealing with them. I tend to make life one big diversion. I get relief from watching sports. love almost all of them. I also like watching British comedy on YouTube, like fresh meat or peep show. what are some things you folks enjoy as diversions?
I’m so sad and defeated. I don’t know how to fix it anymore. I found this site the day twix was posting. I was sad she had to go, and touched by how kind everyone was here. So I lurked for a little over a week. Here I am now. I hope to get to know everyone better and hope I can help someone here because I don’t feel as if I make a difference anymore in my day to day life. I feel so raw and full of hate and sadness. I mostly hate myself for the way I have become. But, I’m rambling […]
What is it all really
we may set ourselves up each day to be optimistic but bad things continue to happen I don’t want to get emotionally attached to anything anymore the despair when someone you care about hurts you or when inconveniences happen is just too unbearable
i don’t want to live life hollow and emotionless but there’s no other way to get by you have to shield yourself from pain is the pleasure really worth all the torment
Iv really had enough now I hate waking up everyday I’m not living life im just surviving each day and that’s a battle life isn’t for everyone and I’m one of them people life will carry on if im here or not so what’s the point the world is a horrible place let alone feeling lonely depressed anxious need to build up the courage to try again
went out swing dancing tonight, one of the most positive and life affirming activities there is and i still want to kill myself.
i mean nothing to nobody and its just like, im a robot, existing, emotionless but on the precipice of tears, like there is something in me that’s like, get shit done before going to bed, and the bigger part saying, just kill yourself, kill yourself dead. it’s gotten so, so much louder in the past few days.
i feel like veronica sawyer in heathers just like been to hell and back, every fucking hour.
i wish i had someone to practice swing dancing with and sing some […]
Life’s serving me a big ole shit sandwich. I’m trying to focus on your advice HDS. Trying to keep myself pumped up. Getting sick of life tea-bagging me. Trying to rise above, take the advice, follow my own advice.
https://youtu.be/qIUXaAuJjVo
i am reeling from the death of both parents in a two month span. trying to deal with a slew of health problems. having an alcoholic husband. suffering from life long treatment resistant depression. and there is that suicidal demon inside who never misses an opportunity to point out how easy it could be to go. it tells me at seemingly random times i could do various things to end this sad life. six months ago i set a deadline. that day was yesterday. how ironic that yesterday i got the first check from my parents banking accounts. i can’t do that to my brother. […]
If you are already on an anti-depressant and an anti-anxiety medication, after a life time of struggle and suicidal ideation; and going through a hard time, running out of money and unable to get a job; how do you feel when a friend tells you that you worry too much, then recommends an essential oil calming combination?
SCREAM!!
Thank you for listening. I just had to get that out. I should have learned by now that those who haven’t been there will never understand. Repeating a hundred ‘la la’s, while sitting in a lotus position just doesn’t pay the electric bill.
I’m just so tired of life. All the responsibilities, all the sadness. I think I’ll fake insomnia to get sleeping pills to overdose on.