What I thought was once lost, I’ve found in you. I know you’re going through a lot at the moment, and I understand, but I feel as though I’ve already fallen for you. I wish I could take all your pain away, I do. I’m here for you, and would do anything to help you stay. I will be your light in your dark corner, as you’ve been in mine.
I took this photo, sunsets usually make me feel better. I really don’t like being alone but what a beautiful view isn’t it? I can’t complain
Cold air and the warm light. Hope you like it. Merry Christmas.
Hugs
I have so much I want to say. You don’t know me at all. But for now all I’ll say is this.
i asked my mom for three things for Christmas. Three little things. I wanted to drive an hour to see a light display. I wanted a small tabletop tree to decorate and I wanted no gifts, from anyone. She did none of this. We have no tree. I didn’t and won’t get to see the light display. And I have gifts from my grandparents and am elderly great aunt and uncle waiting. I don’t feel worthy of gifts from these people. I am chronically […]
This is Zetsumei’s character song/poem from my SP anime.
In blackest night,
no light shall reach me.
Gathering the broken,
it’s time for our sinful killing spree!
Konbanwa, Zetsumei here
and Zetsubou’s my game.
You can’t play so face your crime,
’cause time picked you as prey.
The numeral of change engraved deeply
marks the funeral of Humility.
Scattering feathers dyed red,
despair bows Virtue’s head.
Konbanwa, Zetsumei here
and Zetsubou’s my game.
You can’t play so face your crime,
’cause time picked you as prey.
Not even the white moon shines down
so drown in this flood of ash.
Para won’t hear, “Yes, my lord” anymore,
when the hoard is marching ashore.
You know… It’s so tragic it’s almost funny. At times I feel like I have everything figured out, all my I’s dotted, all my T’s crossed. And in the end. I really don’t have shit. I have nothing. Zip, Zero FUCKING ZILCH. When it comes right down to it, I am a goddamn fucking wreck. Emotionally, Mentally, and Physically, all round I am Fucked. Fucked. Fucked. Fucked. Fucked. Fucked. I’m so Fucked that I really don’t even know how fucked I am. I keep thinking, keep telling myself “oh just take one more step, one more breath, have just a tad, a smidge more compassion […]
There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.
It’s been a while but sadly i’m back here, anonymously telling the world my thoughts.
I made it a good two months through school without cutting. But i’m starting to act up again. Less than a month away till exams and as usual I can’t cope with the stress in my life. Everyday for the past 6 years I have thought about killing myself. Not once have i had a day of a peaceful mind. But it times like this, when i’m under to much stress that I can’t just push away these thoughts. Its times like this i sit on my bed starting at my […]
The wind bit and pulled at her skin, tearing through her jacket and into her bones. But she was already cold. No, not from the weather- her soul was cold. And tired. Oh so fucking tired. She felt the chill in her heart and figured wandering about outside would chill her body to match. Dusk had settled on the hills, the light dimming rapidly as the northern wind snapped its icy jaws on her now-red cheeks. As her heart cracked, she stumbled, tears rolling down her face. But she couldn’t feel them. See, she was numb. Inside, and out. The earth was wet, but she […]
Hello my loves! So the point of these mini stories I will be writing is I want you all to be able to escape into a tiny pice of beauty that I will be writing. I also hope to inspire each of you to find your own piece of beauty throughout your day 🙂
The sunlight pours through her bedroom window, its tendrils of warmth caressing her pale face. She can feel the heat wrap itself around her lips, nose, ears… that little smile perches on her lips. She gently stretches out across her bed, her tired joints crackling in protest. Slowly sitting up, she takes […]
Scream into the night
Scream for the right
Scream for those who cannot
Scream for those who fought
Scream for those without sight
Scream, for there is no light
Scream for those who hurt
Scream for those beneath the dirt
Scream for those who lied
Scream for those who cried
Scream for those whose tears run red
Scream for those that wish they were dead
Scream for the terror
Scream for the horror
Scream for the might
Scream, for you have lost the fight
Gorgeous, that’s all he knows her as. He knows she has a real name, and that there’s a real face behind that picture, but he likes to imagine that same face laughing, smiling, blushing. He feels something in his chest when he speaks to her, but he feels for the other as well. They are friends, him and her, and their playful banter often lasts hours. She calls him cruel for the compliments he gives, and he calls her Gorgeous. The makeup runs down her cheek in the picture, but when he pictures her, he sees those piercing blue eyes looking at him, or some […]
I don’t want to die necessarily… No, I can firmly say that in this very moment in time and space, I do not want to die.
However, I cannot firmly say what I want. I walk outside in the morning; I feel the dew settling on my face and the cool breeze that kisses my cheeks… I see the sun shooting tendrils of light through the light cloud cover, and I see the grass swaying with every breath of the wind. However, sometimes these things evoke nothing in this heart of mine. Nothing.
Now, you would think that feeling nothing would be a beautiful reprieve of the […]
Pretty soon the time is coming for me to leave. I began doing things to ensure that I will lead a peaceful life ahead. I deleted all useless photos, chats and notes. I am spending the last six weeks breaking every bond I have with another human being. For all traces to be removed, and there will not be a single hint as to my existence in the light. I am not popular so no one will care when I’m gone. I don’t have friends or loved ones here so one will be sad. No party is needed because no one will attend. No goodbyes […]
Imagine if you will a dark room painted with light and shadow. Objects stand in various positions casting different images, but something is wrong. Shouldn’t the light cast the shadows? No, instead in this case, the Shadows are casting light. The objects, enveloped in the deep black have somehow determined to paint it with some sort of luminescence. But this imaginary construct does not exist, in fact, beyond being impossible, it is metaphorically maddening. Yet, this is the image of myself , of the tears , that fade into black , because they are themselves black , they are the blood of the world that […]
I hope you don’t mind me making a post for this.
I’ve seen you leaving loads of comments here lately, including on my long rants. They’re often long and always thoughtful and helpful, and I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate them. 🙂 You’re a light here.
and it is depressing the hell out of me.
the last few days it has been cloudy, chilly, and raining off and on. i actually really like fall, but i’m light sensitive, and a lack of it can make me more depressed & lethargic. no, i don’t own a light box and i can’t get one unfortunately.
i really want to enjoy this fall, but so far i can’t. i’m just really down. it’s coming up on the one-year anniversary of when my family broke apart, and i’m not taking it well. though it’s better having some distance between now and when it happened, and though that […]
Its hard.
Really hard.
Ever since I started to fuck up the only light that lead me out of that dark place.
Now that light is closer to me, though it feels a lot dimmer.
I fucked up. I fucked it up.
I killed it. I destroyed its own self and now im messing around with things i think I know to try and fix it.
I make the light dimmer.
I know i need to learn to be able to stand alone.
I can. Can I?
Is it really me all the time?
It is.. is it? I think it is..
Times have changed and the light […]
I just want to say a bit, fat, hugemongous thank you to all of my very punny peeps who enjoyed the pun post. I truly hope you all enjoyed it- I hope I was able to kindle some joy in your hearts. If any of you have a horrendous day, just dance your way over to the pun post and remember that there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Have a wonderful evening my lovelies 🙂
Four years passed in a blink of an eye,
left behind a bird can’t fly,
Every miss and every flaw,
All the tears and all the woe;
Striking now like blinding light,
A beaten soul through hopeless fight,
“Only if” won’t bring you back,
Nor the sorrow that shades the track,
Should I do IT should I not,
Time will tell though not a lot.