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Coward

by SlowDeath1 10/13/2015

written by SlowDeath1

The only reason I’m still alive right now is because I’m scared it won’t work or it will hurt. I know how I want to go, but it isn’t a guaranteed death…there’s the fact that I may be found, and there’s the fact that I just get really sick instead of dying. I’ve been researching to see if my method will really work or if I’ll just lay there forever with a messed up stomach. If I could be sure that I would just slowly leave, I would do it in a heartbeat.

I’ve said goodbye to everyone I need to. Only two people picked up […]

10/13/2015 19 comments

If You Know How To Use Kik …

by anthropophobia 10/10/2015

written by anthropophobia

Kik code for a group 30 large all from SP!

suicide project kik group

Scan it by swiping down in your list of conversations.

10/10/2015 40 comments

Cancer maybe?

by hopeisafourletterword 10/8/2015

written by hopeisafourletterword

I recently looked up a particular symptom I’ve had for about 5 months. All these random health sites list the same boring possible causes, as well as several cancers that could cause it. Not many people would feel the same but I’d be really relieved if it was cancer. Especially if it was advanced. I could quit school, quit my job, quit everything, and live out the rest of my days however I want with no one blaming me for anything. Most likely just wishful thinking though. The symptom will probably alleviate itself in time and turn out to be nothing. But I can dream, can’t I?

10/8/2015 4 comments

Wasting time

by TheRoadSoFar 9/28/2015

written by TheRoadSoFar

I really wish I could talk about this with anybody, but I know it’s not a good idea. It never was. It will never be. Empathy and caring are just fantasies or lies people tell you to make you feel you are living a better life.

I see people of my same age around me that excel at one thing, or even more. They can do whatever they like. And then there I am, a good for nothing fuck. Every time I try something, I fail. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s just never meant to be. I could write a book with a list of […]

9/28/2015 3 comments

I will be taking the rope soon.

by Phobia 9/24/2015

written by Phobia

I don’t think people understand the true meaning of depression, or what it really is. When you are depressed you see your life as something meaningless, hopeless, worthless, loneliness, and the list just keeps going on and on as it continues. I attend a high school and people notice that I’m always somewhat depressed or feeling down but yet people never approach me and end up ignoring me and don’t really seem to care about me or what I have to say. When people do end up approaching […]

9/24/2015 4 comments

Protected: Untitled (I had at least 100 ideas, but couldn’t choose one)

by Tristeza 9/23/2015

written by Tristeza

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

9/23/2015 19 comments

Reasons

by violinplayer22 8/6/2015

written by violinplayer22

It seems like everyone has a good reason to commit suicide. Cyberbullying, bullying, leaked photos, bad home life, no friends, and the list goes on and on. I have none of those. I’m just a normal teenager, with a nack for getting into trouble, a soft spot for people in need, and a family that I could never just abandon. Yet I desperately want to. But I cant. Do you know how much a little oblong shaped solution to my problem costs? Way more than a 15 year old who babysits can afford.

Anyway, I’m getting off topic. My reason is simple. I wasn’t made for […]

8/6/2015 3 comments

add it to the list

by goylem 7/26/2015

written by goylem

I’ve totally fucked my life. Over the past 7 years I’ve self-injured. At my worst I didn’t care if I lived or died, I just needed an escape. Something to shut up the voice in my head, and let me breathe again. Now I’m almost 20 and the career that I’ve dreamed about my whole life is impossible because of the scars I have. And I understand why it’s a PDQ, but that doesn’t help me not beat myself up for fucking this up. And I also know that my mental instability was caused by circumstances beyond my control and occurred at a time in […]

7/26/2015 0 comment

It never lasts long

by disgusting 7/19/2015

written by disgusting

Just seconds after my last post, I see him with some girl. Mr Nobody Likes Me. Yeah right. He’s gorgeous enough to have them lined up and on a wait list until 2045. I can understand that he’d never no chance in hell go for me but what I can’t understand is totally ignoring and writing someone off who would do anything for you. Must be that he convinced himself that my love can’t be real since I’m so ugly it must be that I’m jus desperate or crazy. If somebody wanted time with me I wouldn’t ignore them or write them off. He damn […]

7/19/2015 1 comment

The Race Between Suicide and A Cure

by PenroseKate 7/7/2015

written by PenroseKate

I’ve been suffering for a long time now. I spend 80% of the time I’m not at work locked away wishing the days would end and that I would never wake up.
I have a good life. Better than most probably. If I was to write a list of pros and cons the pros column would be at least five times longer.
BUT. It doesn’t seem to matter. Every stress and every pressure I feel so extremely. I struggle to shower and get out of bed of my days off, spending at least two days a week in my room. I cry when a stranger […]

7/7/2015 0 comment

Been a tough week at work. Who wants to play a game with me?

by NWren 7/3/2015

written by NWren

Been a long week at work. I don’t want to get into it and still have 39 days until I can see a doctor and start getting help. Who wants to play a game I made up to help me through the hard times?

It’s called “Have To/Get To” and you list one thing you will never HAVE to do again if you kill yourself, but then you list two things you will never GET to do again once you’re dead. I don’t know why, but it helps me so I figured I would share with you guys.

Here’s mine:

I will never have to be laughed at by […]

7/3/2015 6 comments

Months & no progress

by Beast 6/22/2015

written by Beast

Been drinking since last Friday, taken pills to sleep, got really sad on Sunday.. As usual. On Monday I went to work, Just an internship that after 2 months I realize won’t ever benefit me, a guy that’s been there half the time has already surpassed me by far. I’m above average intelligence, I’m strong, but socially.. I’m just the worst. And that matters the most, you can be stupid and weak but manage quite well in life if you have good social skills. Lately I’ve been seeing how others progress with their lives more clear than ever. I only have one local friend now, […]

6/22/2015 2 comments

Preparing to Leave

by ExitProject 6/20/2015

written by ExitProject

Yesterday I decided to make a list of all the reasons why I need to “Leave.” Within minutes, I’d come up with 18. I could have kept going all day. The list has since continued to expand.

I’ve considered suicide before, but I now have firm plans to make my “Exit” in just a few weeks’ time. Despite having spent the past 25 years in therapy, I haven’t been at all successful in changing my unhealthy patterns; no matter how conscious I am of my issues or how carefully I make decisions, I always end up in crap situations and attracting people who are more broken […]

6/20/2015 2 comments

Finally Over

by the-lord-of-the-lamps 6/12/2015

written by the-lord-of-the-lamps

After what seemed like forever of agonizing over my short story, it’s finally complete. Free of grammar errors, and everything.

I chose to write about obsession. It’s toxic and beautiful, all at the same time. The story feature two young boys, blood pacts, and an abundance of flower references (there’s a list with their meanings on the last page, so you don’t have to google them). I call it Hazelnut and Honeysuckle. You can read it here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_hYu-7W-pGpTd4qitNZg1DRrl5hHbu_-EjbxZ06njIM/edit

None of you will probably read it, but I can honestly say I’m proud of this. It’s fairly well written, and people have liked it thus far. I […]

6/12/2015 1 comment

The biggest loser in the world

by gwerg 5/11/2015

written by gwerg

The title explains who I am. The list of things wrong with me doesn’t stop at the age of 18. -Do nothing every single day my entire life but play video games. -Eat nothing but fast food. -have 0 friends. […]

5/11/2015 3 comments

list of complaints

by LetItGo 4/19/2015

written by LetItGo

1. i definitely need more clothes but i fucking hate shopping. its such a pain in the ass not gonna lie
2. life is really exhausting right now and im not really sure why
3. i have this model due tuesday and i have no clue what to do
4. i have the chance to get into a thing but ill have to miss a review session
5. i have a project due in a month but ill probably drop out because whatever i cant do it
6. i have to write this thing for my friend and i havent even started
7. people fucking […]

4/19/2015 2 comments

lucky 13

by bayareaguy 3/13/2015

written by bayareaguy

13 more days until my 60th birthday. I’ll be in San Francisco, visiting the GGB……I wonder………my heart function continues to deteriorate. There is no way the govt would put me high on a list for a transplant since I am on disability (little to no value to the US Govt). If I decide not to jump, I think I may just stop taking my heart meds and let nature take its course. I still have a nice little inheritance to blow on travel.

What do you guys think?

3/13/2015 6 comments

The Kama Sutra

by mick9999 3/11/2015

written by mick9999

OK, so it may not be what we’re thinking of or desiring, but I have a book that takes exerts from the actual Kama Sutra and explains things like Hindu existence, practice, culture and history.

There are some poses in here, but I’m not interested in that, what I found curious was the 64 arts that must be studied along with the Kama Sutra.

There are a range of different disciplines and crafts they must study. Vocal music, dancing, gardening, carpentry, and 60 more.

The reason why I posted this was to inspire or motivate others to maybe attempt all, half or part of the 64 arts. […]

3/11/2015 2 comments

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