It has been almost a year…
Since I lost the man I love.
Since he gave up.
Since my daughter lost the father she never got a chance to meet.
 Since he shot himself.
I was six months pregnant with his only child.
She is perfect.
She looks just like him.
But he won’t ever know that.
He is gone.
He has been gone for nine months and twenty-nine days.
It feels like it has been centuries.
I watch the one video clip I have of him just so I don’t forget his voice.
No more, No more
Love the lost that will never be found
Feed our devils that we have created
Feed them until they want more
Never ends, it never ends
Until the day comes to bring us all down
Live the life of pain and despair
With a tint of happiness and reason to care
Expected to do well and make the most out of it
To make the most out something that cannot be dealt with
Only the “creator” as they say can move it all
All the myths and stories here to the call
What the shit are with these fucks?
What the fuck is with this shit.
I am fucking done.
So. Fucking. Done.
The devil is with […]
its my birthday. . and im all alone. . .no friends. . no love. . no nothing. . just me. .
im spending my birhtday on omegle and chatroulette. . . how big a loser could i be. . ? i lost everything. . .
i lost my love. . i lost my mind. . i lost my integrity. . i lost my tears. . i lost time. . i lost my friends. .
only two people have wished my on my birthday till yet. . only two people. . only two . . . =) its 1:40 am on the 5th of Jan here . . im […]
i’ve literally been crying none stop. i feel so unneeded. it’s like just one something good happens to me it’s gone in a flash, or like if something good has been going on i’m just waiting for something bad to come. i’m so paranoid. like i can’t be happy, cause if i am something bad is bound to happen. plus my bestfriend of 5 years isn’t even there for me. all i do is need someone to talk to, to get this all out…everytime we make plans and i go to tell her she bails on me. not to mention i’ve been a cutter for […]
I’m not suicidal, even though I have been in the past, but I want every one reading this to know they matter and that there are people around you who care and love you.
I lost one of my best friends just a week ago to suicide. He was depressed and under extreme pressure in his academic and social life. He didn’t believe that the girl he had been in love with for four years had any interest in him and that he was too dependent on her. She didn’t tell him while he was alive, but she loves him and thought that he deserved more […]
How do you heal from a broken heart?
Most people would say time but it has been 22 years and the pain is still raw.
Knowing what you have to do and doing it is 2 very different things.
I know I’m the only one who can allow myself to heal but don’t seem to know how to do it.
I know looking at the past I miss out on the now and the future.
I know remembering what I haven’t got or miss instead of looking at what I do have robs me of happiness.
Yet I seem unable to let go of my […]
I love someone, they dug me out a dark hole when I fell in love when them and now they have put me back in their, changing me, making me feel I can’t do the things I love. I’m lost.
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