Ya well i broke up with her about 3 months ago didnt wana hurt her honestly but It because I am Bi and I like more guys I have boyfriend and well I am Gay.Came out the closest 2 months ago and ya since then people are still talking shit and it doesnt stop. I honestly dont know what i did wrong but I hurt my ex it’s weird I would still do anything for her anything anything still feelings there for her cus we went out for 2 years and they just wont go away..However, meet my boyfriend on Facebook and he my […]
I swear I’m a danger to other people. Everyone that means something to me, that I truly love with all my heart, gets hurt because of me. I don’t intentionally hurt anyone. I’m not that kind of person. But something bad always seems to happen to people that try to help me. It occurred numerous times in the past. And it just keeps coming.
This past week has been terrible. I wanna keep going; I just don’t know how anymore. I don’t want to invite anyone else into my life. I can’t take it anymore. I’m beyond saving at this point there is no use in […]
Ever since I was born life has never been easy for me.  My mother suffers from a mental Illness, my father was abusive and my uncles where thieves and drug dealers. I can’t remember back to when I was young, but I still have a few very vivid memories. When I was two one of my brothers and one of my sisters passed away. When I was three my mother and father split up.  My sister and 2 brothers and I got put into foster care only a year later. We moved on to abusive carers who beat us and punished us harshly. I remember being […]
Hello guys. Been a few days since my last post. But I just wanted to ask if any of you knew some good songs to listen to when I’m feeling down. I want sad songs please; something I can relate to. And thanx <3 <3
That title is ironic, I am alone.. For now.
So, feeling a bit better than I did last night, Finally got through to the person I wanted/needed to talk to. Maybe things can be okay… For now.
I got a letter from CAMH which is who are doing my mental health assessment, I have this like, thing (i’ve forgotten what it’s called) to fill out, basically just about me.. Nothing mental yet though. I went to the beach today, With my family. And we took our dog who loved it, bless her. She’s so tired now XD just like me I guess… But no sleep. Not yet. […]
My brother died when i was 9. Withing a course of 4 years, 10 more family members died.
I was diagnosed with manic depression and anorexia at the age of 12.
I use to be a major self harmer.
I am proud to say it has been over one month. <3
At the age of 13, i fell in love, and lost my virginity to a boy who i thought would never leave.. 4 days later he left. I wanted to die.
He called me a slut, easy, whore, ****, insecure, ugly, disgusting, fat.
I have forever thought of myself as these things, since he has said them because at one […]
I have a mental health assessment on the 23rd.. Really fucking scared.
Also have seen/spoke to daniel since last night… I’m kinda worried, I prefer to know where he is.
People are going to think i’m crazy.
I love you.
<3
How do you guys cope with feeling bad? Cry? Cut? Distract yourself? Get Angry?
Have any of you ever tried fainting?
Whenever I feel bad, I usually cry, but every once in a while, I’ll faint to feel better.
It feels good.
Really good.
For 3 seconds I forget about the world
For 3 seconds I forget about everything
It feels like
A 3 second suicide
What feels better is, when I wake up, for a few seconds, I get really light-headed
Almost as if I’m high
It feels like floating
You guys should try it
It might put some of you out of misery for a while
Just don’t over-do it, I’m pretty sure it’s not that safe
Anyways, […]
“You are never a loser until you quit trying.”
“Keep trying, even when you want to give up for miracles are real”
“Never the let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present”
“Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines.”
“One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you like everyone else.”
“Nobody can take away your pain, so don’t let anyone take away your happiness.”
“Stop trying to escape your reality, change it. Your past doesn’t define your future.”
“The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us […]
Have you ever dropped whatever you’re doing and just sat outside, staring at a full moon? I did. It was beautiful. So mesmerizing. To me, it somehow resembled hope. It was like the light at the end of a dark tunnel. It made me feel as if my pain is coming to an end. It gave me hope that there still is something beautiful out there. It gave me the guts to keep on fighting. It brightened up the darkness of the night. It was weird. An inanimate object gave me more hope than a human ever could. I guess silence really does speak after […]
Hello everybody.
Just before I recite my terribly long story, I’d like to wish you all a very pleasant day <3
So .. My story … I’m a 14 year old guy and I have been dealing with a lot emotionally for a couple of years now. Let’s start with my parents. Ever since I was young, everybody thought I had the best parents in the world. Heck, my mom even quit her job just to take care of me and my sister. You might say I’m weird, you might say I’m insensitive for hating my parents when all they do is love me. Right? Anyways, […]
As you can tell by my new post I didn’t hang myself!! I went and talked to my aunt and she is going to help out. My son and I will be moving into her garage apartment this weekend which is a huge help because she is only going to charge me $200 a month for rent and food! She called her church and tonight I got a huge bag of clothes for Broox!!! Little man is styling in his new batman pjs as we speak.
As I’m writing this Broox is laying beside me sleeping with his little legs thrown over onto mine and I […]
i hate myself, my body. everything. people always tell me to gain weight, or i look disgusting. im 5’7″ and 100 pounds. i look in the mirror and see nothing but chubbiness. im a big box of chubcicles< well that atleast made me laugh haha, i think that’s what makes it worse i’ll laugh it off today then tomorrow i’ll hate myself again for it. i reallly need to learn how to deal with things): ijustt dont know how.
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.†They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you […]
you can still email me, but I can text more often than I can email so if anyone wants, I could use the company <3
-lonely puppy here -.-
732-907-9411
I hate feeling sorry for myself. I realize how good I got it. How AWESOME my life would be to most. On the outside this “wanna-be hard ass” or that “beautiful smile that lights up a room” type of happy-go-lucky girl (As my 4th grade teacher would say). This girl who’s loud and fun to be around aka the LIFE of the party; that girl who doesn’t want the party to stop ……. That’s the problem ; that’s who you see … That’s who I allow you to see. I’m SUCH a good actress aren’t I? … because this girl inside , is dying … […]
Please just give me a Chan Marchall eulogy
If I was ever anything at all, it’s all breaking news to me
Breaking down in a rage, just to apologise
It’s really so strange watching all these strangers sigh
It feels like I’m living through my last days every day
On your strongest of days, you couldn’t make me feel any less insane.
Wish the ongoing theme about me, wasn’t “He’s just crazy”
Wish I knew safety
Wish nothing phased me
Wish I felt more than just feelings of unrest
Wish the darkness didn’t cloud me
Wish I wasn’t an emotional wreck
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I don’t think I’ll be able to relate to any song more than […]
Hi. First off, something I want to say is that no matter how bleak things may look, you are strong, and you can make it through this. <3
My story starts about 5 years ago. all through elementary school I was always the most outgoing and fun-loving girl in our little town. I was never without a friend to play with. That all changed the day of my 11th birthday party. It was the most fun party I had ever had. I was so happy because my dad picked me and my friend up in a semi-truck to bring us home. we got there, and there […]
I gotta acknowledge… You guys mean EVERYTHING to me… All of you, this site, I would do anything to make sure nothing bad happened to what I have here. A place to vent, A family, A few people I got close to and some that I would like to, people to care for who care for me. I need you guys. I love you guys <3 Thanks so much for being here for me <3