If I can’t live a happy life, then I don’t want to live at all. I’m miserable, I don’t know how much longer I can wait to he happy.
I’m thinking whether I should seek help for my depression. (Just a self diagnosis) Everyday there is just something that makes me feel more and more miserable. I feel like such a disappointment and am just wondering before I actually do kill myself and leave my family to grieve. Should I actually seek help or is it not even worth it?
So I swore I’d never post here again, that my last post about being tired wasn’t going to lead to another. That it was a one time venting thing. So why’m I here again? Good Lord, I don’t even know. Maybe it’s because I want to off myself, but am too afraid to do it. Maybe because I’m all talk, and just desire some kinda of attention, even if its just negative attention. Perhaps its a plea for help, so people talk to me. Maybe its so I don’t feel as miserable and alone. I created Tumblr for the same reason – as an outlet […]
suicide should be an option if you have absolutely no answers or other viable options for your situation. I don’t care about “justifying” it to people, that guilt trip only lasts so long. How do they justify trying to keep someone alive that doesn’t want to be nor feel they have a reason to be? they says the suicide people are selfish well I agree it is very selfish that they want someone to be miserable every freaking day just so they don’t have […]
This is just not worth it. It never has been. I wish I would’ve been aborted. Then I wouldn’t be feeling so hopeless all the time. More abortions everyone!!!!!! I am the proud father of two abortions, and those two decisions were probably the best choices I ever made. It would be nothing but selfish of me to have a child. I am miserable which means my kid would probably be too. Experts say that 50% of your happiness level comes from your parents. If there was an abortion clinic for 34 year olds to abort themselves, I would make an appointment ASAP!
im really fucked up in the head & i just want to die so i can be at peace but im too afraid to kill myself im extremly miserable that im still here … why dont i have the balls to end it ? death is all i think about i even wish i get sick with cancer or something so i can die cause im too scared to do it myself …. i want to go im tired of being/felling sad,miserable,worthless,unloved,invisible,ugly,unhappy etc IM JUST TIRED & READY TO GO
I am, or at the very least I feel like, the personification of a rather unfortunate or miserable concept.
The lonely romantic, the darkest corner of an existence, personified.
I, being a potential paradox invoked unnaturally upon the world, would naturally fall privy to this bleak state.
I feel as if I don’t belong, like I never was meant to be, in this world. And the world senses my foreign nature, and it tries to exorcise me from itself; not unlike our bodies attacking and destroying an infection.
It can be a slow and grueling process, but most of the time, the world ends up the victor.
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Never in my 18 years of this miserable life have I ever wanted to kill myself this much
I set myself limits “if you can make it to then you can make it” but recently I’ve never been this depressed . I just want to end all of this , I’m no good at anything , even my own parents thinks the worst of me so what’s the point anymore
life fucking sucks. i really wanted to jump in front of the train today. I’m completely miserable and that’s all i could think when i was waiting for the train.
A lot has been changing in my life lately.  With all the treatment shit and then I got a therapist.  I don’t really know if the therapy helps.  Professional help is just not my  thing.  Lately I haven’t been feeling like myself.  I haven’t been on here for weeks and it’s like a large chunk of my life is missing as odd as that sounds.  I thought I had come to a point where I didn’t have to rely on SP anymore, truth is, it has made me half of who I am.  I feel like I’m going crazy, god damn it.  At least crazier […]
I just started this thing tonight. I needed a place away from everyone else. A place I could hopefully make someone understand but at the same time I hope no one does ya know? People shouldn’t have to understand what this feeling is. It nags at me constantly. Maybe I’m different from everyone else on here and maybe not. I dunno. Don’t care either. I wanted to kill myself when I was 30. That was a year ago but my roommate’s dad died a week before and with my horrible sense of obligation I tried to stay and help. But now? Now I’m feeling that […]
I cant stand my life anymore. Ever since i lost my dad my depression and anxiety have gotten worse and no matter what problems arise i always just grin and bear it act like it dont bother me. I would have ended long ago if not for my mother, i know it would just destroy her. So im forced to continue living my miserable life
You never came back, you said you would but you didn’t, and I guess it’s more fool me for ever thinking that after all that’s happened you would. But they said have faith, in time you’ll see, he’ll come back. But time was of the essence, so I took it upon myself to come find you and even tho I thought I never would have I did. You were happy and I saw that which only made it worst. Cause I was miserable. Couldn’t you see what you’d done to me? You made me want you so much that noone else would do. So […]
I’ve never imagined I could be as devastated as I am now. I don’t believe in god but as my life progresses it is hard to believe that this amount of bad luck is random.Â
I’m not going to talk about the years of abuse I endured in my childhood or the fact that my mom died when I was four. I won’t go on about my dad’s alcoholism, and after this sentence I won’t mention the blister acne that adorned my face from 12-21. I won’t dwell on the murder of my best friend in high school or my family’s lack of funds. No, those […]
i need to die …
i am 17 & will be 18 in 3 months i have no job,not graduating,extremly insecure,have no friends nd feels like i have no family i need a job more than anything but nobody is hiring me nd that along with everything else is making me ore miserable than i already am i am also bipolar nd serverly depressed i was on medication but i ran out nd my mom wont refill my perscription she acts like she cares infront of pp but really she doesnt because ive been like this my whole life nd im only getting worse nd not once has she acted […]
for fucks sake or ffs…
I don’t know why I’m such a liar to myself.
miserable few months.
one good day, one good day!
and I just think yay.
depression is gone,
and the truth. no, no it’s not.
it’s in the bathroom it’ll be back soon.
I just haven’t felt good in a long time and I felt good yesterday. then the impending doom of my situation weighed back on my shoulders this morning and a day in bed and no eating ensued.
I think I would just like to do something about this,
instead of facing the false hopes of future days.
you’re bi-polar buddy.
-2Oblivion
I am really feeling miserable. I have just divorced and found a gf whom I really
Love. She is so cute at times and sweet at times. But she is so self centre and thinks whatever she have done is right. She love to deny the facts and shout at me with serious attitude problem. Most upset is she like to be uncontactble, likes to hang the phone and likes to Mia when quarrel. I have some bad debts with me due to first marriage. I hope to have someone to enlighten me, I always burst out crying with the state I am in and […]
You’re not supposed to want things, because wanting makes you miserable.
Yet if you don’t want, you have no ambition. You can’t change a given thing unless you want it changed…
Me, I want but I don’t know how to achieve. I feel stuck. So very stuck. Wanting makes me unhappy because I can’t have what I want. I can’t do enough and be enough to get what I want.
And if I don’t want I will still be miserable, unless I accept of course but wouldn’t that be resigning? I just can’t accept things. The guilt is too much.
I’m so confused.
Is it ok to want things or […]
As I cut deeper and deeper, I think about all of the wrong I’ve done. I think of how much we once loved each other and how we have nothing now. You are the only one I ever want to be with. You never stop loving someone. You either never did or you always will. I know I will always love you and I know it will be the death of me. You tell me you love me, but you can’t handle my depression. I always have been and always will be here for you when you need me. You make it sound like you were […]