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I’m sorry for who I am

by Zephyr 9/20/2015

written by Zephyr

I’m sorry for who I am. I’m sorry that I can’t let anyone close without pushing them away and hurting them, I’m sorry that I can’t make new friends or act like a normal human being for once. I am sorry that this sadness keeps coming back around and hitting me in the face with a baseball bat. I’m sorry that nobody understands or cares too. I’m sorry I’m manipulative.

and finally, I’m sorry that I found this site, for my constant neurosis and self loathing coupled with sadistic, sociopathic-type behavior. What am I supposed to do? You don’t care to understand, […]

9/20/2015 3 comments

the most pathetic story ever told

by lake-of-fire 8/15/2013

written by lake-of-fire

Depression is killing me and its getting worst. Every morning i wake up defeated wishing i didnt wake up. Its hard to face the day without a drink or cutting into my thigh. I have no value to society i can honestly say everybody around me hates me i see the disgust in their faces counting the seconds till im gone. The only contact i have with people is being used to get drugs or take my money. I hate everything about myself my looks, personality and intelligences. I look at others thinking how great they are and how im practically invisible unnoticed maybe even […]

8/15/2013 4 comments

I’m back to “F*ck all of this” again…

by kcufhumanity 6/26/2013

written by kcufhumanity

Not really even sure what I’m going to accomplish by posing to this website. I hate my life. It’s a pretty miserable existence being me. Not because I live in Africa where I have no food and poor hygiene. Not because I’m terminal with cancer. Not even because I was born to a horrible family that abused me. None of that. After everything that has happened to me in the past couple years especially, I can’t find a reason to keep going. I hate my god-forsaken fucking life. I hope I die soon. I hope to effect that change soon. And just so there is […]

6/26/2013 2 comments

nightly rant

by SadSteve 5/10/2013

written by SadSteve

What do you do when the pain so great that you just want to die but you cant because you know that if you do you will be pretty much killing your mom, dad and a couple of kids who look up to you. Â What do you do? Â I cant find a job. Â If I had money I would smoke some weed and I wouldn’t even think of suicide because when I’m high the reverse happens and I start thinking about survival. Â But I have nothing. Â I watch the damn Illuminati controlled TV all day. Â Even McDonalds wont call me back for an interview. Â I’m […]

5/10/2013 1 comment

Who takes the blame?

by Hope-Grows-Here 4/17/2013

written by Hope-Grows-Here

Do you ever think about if you were to kill yourself who all would blame themselves for your death? Like if your bestfriend blamed themselves because they didn’t take you serious enough or your ex would blame themselves because they broke your heart and weren’t there when you needed them the most to because you were taken advantage of in your sleep? Or the girl/boy you like would blame themselves for saying hurtful things to you? Or your mom/dad would blame themselves because they make you feel guilty for everything you do?

4/17/2013 4 comments

Its here again.

by Ink 3/19/2013

written by Ink

ThisÂ awfulÂ stillness. This heaviness in my chest that saps me of all my energy and leaves me feeling depressed an hopeless. Â I can’t cry and there’s nothing I want to do. I don’t want to stand, sit, walk, run, play video games, watch tv, draw, hang out with friends, read, go for a car ride, write this post. Nothing. There’s just nothing. I don’t want to exist. Â How selfish is that? haha. Mom, Dad. You suck.

3/19/2013 0 comment

Influences

by lifeasweknowit99 3/18/2013

written by lifeasweknowit99

I get the feeling that you need something for security, as in cutting/self harm, something that indicates that your still alive. I am not going to sugarcoat this, because for people throw a pity party for themselves. Even if your going through something, because we all do, you are the author of your own fate. â€œBut my mom/dad/both donâ€™t care about me. I did that because of what they did to me.â€ Like I said, itâ€™s up to you with what you do with your life, donâ€™t let other people influence how you walk down your own path. If you do drugs, alcohol, smoke, donâ€™t […]

3/18/2013 0 comment

unheard cries.

by deadeyes 2/22/2013

written by deadeyes

Im here bc i need to pour my heart out somewhere rn. what better place than here, in public, to people who feel what i do? i used to post regularly on this, i’d always try to look on the bright side of things, try to hold on. but what bright side? what do i hold on to? there’s nothing,anymore. im tired of being my own hero. i don’t plan on staying here much longer, maybe until the end of march, little before april starts, maybe around 20-25th. i really don’t know how to tho, the pills i tried last time did not work. i […]

2/22/2013 2 comments

my life

by bigsby01 9/29/2012

written by bigsby01

this is my story its kinda long but hear it goes will I’m 19 my life isn’t hard. but I’ve been bulled ever since i can remember just because I’m dyslexic doesn’t mean I’m stupid. i can control this i was born like this i know i spell things wrong you don’t have to point it out to every one in the class. also the teachers make it feel like its my faultÂ if i don’t come to them and ask them to spell check every thinks. I’m so sick of asking for help i want to just do it on my own for once […]

9/29/2012 6 comments

Decision

by Dawn 7/10/2012

written by Dawn

My grandparents were gonna let me see my dad in California before I go back to VA but he can’t afford to get me back in time for court, so again, not gonna see him. This game that’s been going on between them my whole life. So I have a choice. Go back to VA early with my sister or stay the rest of the summer here and go back when we were planning to-at the end of the summer. If I leave early, I know it will break my mom’s heart again and I’ll have to be with my grandparents longer. But if I […]

7/10/2012 3 comments

turkish freak

by godofwar1990 7/8/2012

written by godofwar1990

hi.sorry for my bad english beacause it’s not my first language.
i’m from turkey .i’m 21 years old male and i am(was?) university student .i have AD/HD(focus problem) and serve social anxiety. ihave gone to doctors here they gave me some drugs like fluxetin and propranol and some others but all of them were useless.also my doctor told me nealy all of my problems are from fear from soicety.
i came to this site about 3 month age searching about suicide and now i’m some kind of addicted to it. i check it every day and i don’t know why!!
all of my life i […]

7/8/2012 1 comment

Wish it could only affect me, and me alone.

by AnnoyingGirl 6/11/2012

written by AnnoyingGirl

I’ve hit rock bottom. Depression has been biting me my whole life, and I let it influence me so much, my grades dropped so much I’m getting kicked out of school.Â Don’t know if I would cry or laugh about it, cause I’m so pathetic.

Anyways, anyone feel they relate? If only this decision to end this bullshit won’t affect my mom, dad, and sister, I would be easily and freely slipping into non existence right now.

6/11/2012 2 comments

Your life does matter :)

by GodLovesU 5/31/2012

written by GodLovesU

Yes life can be difficult, I won’t deny that. We do go through our good times and bad times. Ive had depression for 2 years and still trying to heal from it. I used to cut myself, which eventually made me feel worse. I never really had friends that I could talk to, so basically I thought that I was complettely alone. Then I realized that i’m not,Â because I have people at my church that I can talk to and God. Oh btw i’m 15 and my name is Deana. For the people suffering from depression try to look at all the positive stuff […]

5/31/2012 36 comments

Im Sorry

by savemefrommyself97 4/5/2012

written by savemefrommyself97

Im going to keep this short, and I`ll be back.

Mom, Dad,and well everyone else, You`ll never read this but Im sorry. Sorry for everything. Im sorry your daughter goes to sleep wanting to kill herself. Im sorry you dont understand. Im not trying to act like a whore, but if being wanted is what keeps me alive let me keep it. I cant do this anymore. Im going to wait till im on the anti depressents, Im going to pretend everythings okay. But if one more thing happens..Im gone. Out of this world.

“If you want to help me, help me die”…Im not happy anymore..And i […]

4/5/2012 4 comments

I really don’t want to live any more…

by rose363 3/5/2012

written by rose363

I know what you’re thinking… “I’m going to tell this depressed person, either to contact professional medical help, call mom dad family or friend, just don’t do it because all life should be valued.”

Please don’t tell me this again. I’ve been to countless therapists over the course of my entire life so far. All I want is for someone to understand why I would want to kill myself, not just make me feel stupid for wanting to, or telling me that God has all the answers, or make me feel bad for being selfish that I want to kill myself. I just want someone to […]

3/5/2012 7 comments

What to do…i can’t bear the Shame!!!!

by Honi 3/3/2012

written by Honi

In my whole life of 21 years, i have been a loser only throughout my life, my mom-dad loves me a lot, and i have never been able to make them happy, i just want to make them happy and give everything to them, they have sacrificed a lot for me, and i am such a loser, i could never give them what they wanted, th only thing they wanted from me to get good marks throughout my schooling and college days, which i never could, i have already wasted huge amount of money, more than $10,000 on coachings and education, now the ultimate thing […]

3/3/2012 1 comment