I’m going to do it, tonight I’m going to commit suicide. By the time anybody finds me it’ll be too late to save me. I just want to end all of this. I woke up this morning and cursed myself for not doing it last night and the only thing that got me through today was the thought that tomorrow I’ll be gone so it doesn’t matter what happens today. I feel guilty that I’m going to hurt my parents and the fact that I know that my mom’s going to be the one who finds me makes everything worse but I have to do […]
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I know I’ve posted quite a few things on here, and they aren’t exactly like most things that people post up. Some of  you may think that I’m on drugs or something, because I tend to be too positive (if there is such a thing!), it’s just that I know what it’s like battling your personal demons. I started cutting 6 years ago, and some days I just want to end it all.
I know how it feels like to hate everything that you are. Changing yourself completely to make others like you. Changing so much that when you look in the mirror you can’t […]
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
I cannot stand a new day beginning. I hate the daylight because i live in the darkness. Today begins a new day to struggle through..i dont have alot of fight left in me. The older i get the more tired i am. I use to dream even in the darkest of times…i use to dream of just living a normal life…a decent home..an education..friends..family..job..a littlte money in the bank..i do not dare to dream of that anymore…i use to be a good mom..but ive hurt my boys..and i cant even speak of that…nothing hurts more than the pain of your children. My heart overflows with […]
There is so much I want to say but so little words that could describe how I feel (and have been feeling for the past few years.) The ones that immediately come to mind include: Tired, apathetic, and hopeless.
I am generally thought of as a happy person because I am always seen smiling whether I’m at work or at school. It’s even to the point that people always laugh at me for smiling so much. The truth is I hate it. I hate smiling, I hate laughing because I just don’t want to. Why should I have to anyways? Â My school life is a mess […]
I’m already dead… there is no life left in me…. my boyfriend hasn’t talking to me in a week. and i need him the most right now… I’ve been getting lots of head aches so i take advil… but i always take one more pill then needed… i know this probably isn’t a good thing… but i just want all this pain to go away.
i went to see my counsellor today.. we talked about how i have been feeling. i finally was able to tell her how I’m in so much emotional pain and i just want it to go away!
my mom and sister fought […]
1. i have CAPD (central auditory processing dissorder)
2. im bipolar
3. im bulimic
4. i cut myself everyday
5. im highly suicidal
6. the principal is like my best friend
7. i have no friends
8. i hide who i really am
9. im totally weird! haha!
10. i have a bf..
11. im not a virgin (of course ive been hurt a lot)
12. ive been raped 8 times
13. my family hates me
14. i was almost bullied to death
15. i almost commit suicide at school but the principal saved me
16. i wish i was beautiful
17. i wish i […]
I’m not too sure what to do anymore. Nights are the worst for this constant depression, days aren’t too bad because if i’m at work I don’t have time to think about them. I have to wear long sleeves at work though, weather it be hot or cold out just because  my scars and cuts make me a little insecure. But that’s not bad. Just lately, it’s been getting worse. I do NOT want to kill myself. I mean, I think it would just make all the pain go away but i want to see what live has to show me. I’ve been thinking lately […]
I feel so completely alone. I don’t see the point in living.
Almost all of my family is fucked up, they love me but they’re mostly alcoholics and/or deluded. I know my dad will miss me, I hate to do this to him. My mom will too, and I care about her but not enough. Neither of them are enough. I’m sorry.
My boyfriend and I are “taking a break”. But I know what the end result will be. He’ll probably find someone else better than me. I don’t think he cares about me anymore. We used to be so in love… I love him so much. […]
What i love:
I hate school
I hate that i am failing
I hate myself
I hate that i am ugly
I hate that i am fat
I hate that no one cares
I hate that i am alone
I hate that my mom is here but not
I hate that only now my dad wants me
I hate that i am on meds
I hate that i cant be happy
I hate that i feel excludedÂ
I hate that my family does not try harder to get me
I hate that things will never changeÂ
What i love:
I love cutting
I love the thought of suicide
I am a fifteen year old girl who hates her apperance who would Love to just finally kill herself and get life over with. I am good at hiding my emotions and i am just so so so tired of going on.
i know people lifes are horribly bad but mine is no walk in the park either. My mom sees what she wants my two older sister care but do they care enough? my dad didnt even want me he wanted my second oldest sister. I have been trying to kill myself since 5th grade. this year i was baker acted twice and i […]
ive tried everything people have told me to do and i am getting no where my mom is still hitting me and she wont stop or minimize the amount and i just dont no wat else to do extept die because 1) if i dont kill myself then she will do it for me.2) i dont want to be alive and 3) i WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean im sure someone on here will agree with me ………….right
if u have a idea in wat i should do comment on this post and tell me so i guess i will talk to u guys on my comments.
… I just got a call.. From my best friends brother… She died at 10:48. They couldn’t save her. They said she lost too much blood… That there was no hope to save her… Amanda…my best friend…you promised me..that we were both stuck here with each other… and you left.. Without calling me, without telling me.. without taking me with you… You alone got me through my hospitalization. You gave me hope. You were the only one that could make me laugh anymore… Whose gonna make me laugh now? Whose gonna tell me it’s ok? Whose gonna remember the times we had at the unit? […]
“And I swear at that moment, we were infinite”
Is my favorite quote from my favorite book Perks of being a wallflower.
I must have read that book a thousand times, it always use to help me when I felt down, and I had a lot of favorite quotes from the book, that’s my absolute favorite, because I think we’ve all felt infinite at one point or another.
One time I felt like that, is on Halloween when I was really little and I was trick or treating, and I saw the moon and it was big and full and I couldn’t stop staring at it because I thought it […]
I guess the good thing about not caring is it makes everything easier. I dont really care about my mom maybe getting upset when I die. That used to be the only reason why I havent tried to kill myself yet. But I really couldnt care less anymore. I always was the black sheep of the family anyway.
I really need to do this. I’m gonna do this.
i am sick and tired of my drunk ass mom she never listens to me or even cares all i want to do is die doese any one have any tips on how to die fast if u do ge back t me cause all i want to do is die right here and right now i cant take all of this anymore more my life is litterly a liven hell it is like there is no god or right or justice jut devil hell and wrong please just tell me wat to do so ii can die and get of this hell of a […]
how did u guys make it through ur depression or thoughts of suiside because i just dont wat to do and i dont realy have anyone to go to so im hoping this website will help me because i am havin a realy hard time with this please i dont have any where else to turn please my mom adopted mom doensnt care about me at all so this is all i have
I am trying to hold on but don’t know why. My mom died when I was 9, my dad has never really been in my life & raised by my grandma & grandpa, they both passed a long time ago. I literally have no family & 4 years ago my life changed forever. It had been 11 years together and was so in love when I found my ex-husband. I was married once before and had one son, but we were too young and I thought thats was love was until I met my ex. He raised my son as his own and really gave […]
So my friend is here. Thank god for that. She really helps me, just by being here and caring. I am so scared of tomorrow because I find out the edict of what my doctor is going to decide. I really don’t want to be locked up again, but you know that by now. I’ve decided to do whatever she says, though, even give her my writings, just as long as i get my say first. My mom is on to me. She found the broken glass. I am so sensitive. Everything makes me want to cut. Everything. My mom is so worried. I don’t […]
So i cut the other day ; over 100 hundred of them. My ex was bothering me and making fun of me calling me fat and ugly apologized and i didn’t believe him. His exact words were “go ahead cut urself i dont care cut ur arm of for all i care” i cried and did it. They are healing but i have never done something like what i did. It hurt really bad i almost passed out. My mom knows and thank god she isn’t mad. But yeah that’s all i really have to say.