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why can’t you let me sleep!!

by kateralia 9/26/2014

written by kateralia

Yet another day I am woken early. Why this time? I don’t have a friggin clue! No kids to watch, no food to watch, no doors to be left unlocked & I dont need to go anywhere. Not that I can cos the only key I have is the garage door remote & they stopped working & cannot be moved manually.

So here I am, finally having a good sleep, when my friend wakes me up, to inform me that they are leaving. I dont remember agreeing to go anywhere today, & the kids are dressed & not playing xbox & she has a key to […]

9/26/2014 2 comments

by natecat 9/24/2014

written by natecat

What’s the point of suicidal thoughts if they won’t ever be translated into action? They’re just torturous. Getting better looks like a giant, long, leaking tunnel- almost impossible to move through. Yet death isn’t an option. How do you remedy this?

9/24/2014 4 comments

today for the first time in like 2 yr i felt like ripping my skin off myself. cutting my arms up from palm to armpit to remind myself what real pain feels like again. everything seems so backwards, theres no way forward apart from down, down, down. how am i supposed to move forward if everything i do gets ignored or pushed to the sidee. i just want a home, somewhere ill make my own, somewhere i can chill, somewhewre i can be myself. has that ever happened? i dont know what to do, i just dont.

by tma 9/21/2014

written by tma

9/21/2014 1 comment

Hard Knock Life

by DayDreamer6 9/10/2014

written by DayDreamer6

Okay, well where should I begin? First, you should know that I’m not a very open person. At all. Second, I’ve been “depressed” for about a year now. Or maybe longer, I don’t really know. Not many people know about my depression. And yes I’ve self harmed many times.

This is currently my second day of missing school and I’m so far behind already that it’s frightening. I lack the motivation to do anything anymore. I’ve basically ruined every relationship I’ve ever had. And I’m currently destroying all my friendships because I don’t have the energy to keep up with everyone. Have I tried discussing this […]

9/10/2014 6 comments

It’ll take an act of congress – update — The real bullies

by Strahd 9/9/2014

written by Strahd

So, nothing has really changed since my original post of the same name. I have been taking college, mainly for personal than for getting a career since I am pretty much unemployable. As of recent I told my mom when I got out of the military that I was going to eat myself to death, and 8 years later, a month ago my doctor told me that what I am eating is killing me. So perhaps a self fulfilling prophecy? So about the bullying well, for example college won’t do me any good, because society likes to kick people when they are down, if you […]

9/9/2014 2 comments

Contract of devils. Beware my God, The King

by Bisban 9/8/2014

written by Bisban

“Or are you just going to become a humble little butterfly”

It’s just me and little Leroy; always has
The only thing that’s right in hell is the ground
Chained, masked, neck to the boulder
Humble white death, utter-doom-child of all calamity
The insulin, the insulin

The saga in the year of the Horse, dark
Taken, under the ‘Blood-Moon’
But fate was already written
My little Leroy, your pure cosmic soul
Will you transfer through, our tears of ours lives
You are my forever, transfer the data
Leroy The Number One, I love you

Nobody knows our history, it was just you and me
Forever and the after, you will always […]

9/8/2014 2 comments

by hellblau 9/7/2014

written by hellblau

I can’t pretend that I know what love means, neither how it dies. I lost control, everything around me goes on but doesn’t move. Maybe this was real love, too late we realized about what we had and lost. I’ve wasted so many years my love. I wouldn’t like this to be my conclusion.

9/7/2014 1 comment

Depressive Personality Disorder

by depressednihilist95 9/3/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I feel like I have this disorder. It’s not official now, as it had been removed due to controversy, according to good ol’ always-100%-trustworthy Wikipedia. Still, I just can’t help but wonder why people are so positive if everyone is going to die, and we all live just to be slaves to people that have more money or fame than us. I always think about whether or not I should or if I am going to off myself. I don’t do it, though, because I have the slightest hope that something good will last until the day I die, and I also feel that I […]

9/3/2014 3 comments

when the ground leaves your feet

by 061106 9/3/2014

written by 061106

For the past year everything has been going wrong. I keep falling down deeper and deeper, I don’t even know what the light of hope looks like anymore. My senior year was supposed to be my year to shine but it wasn’t, from start to end everything screwed up. Apart of me feels like god has really forgotten about me this time, of everything that has happened I have the need to look past him and wonder if I should even question his existence. In September, a month after school started I got into a school bus accident with an eighteen wheeler, I got seriously […]

9/3/2014 1 comment

I am terrified

by marine105 9/1/2014

written by marine105

Right now, as of this moment and the myriad of moments preceding this one, I am terrified.

Why? I don’t know.

I suffer from a fear that I cannot name or pinpoint.

It’s not a fear of something real. It’s not a rational fear, proportionate to the degree of danger I’m facing.

It’s an all-consuming entity, enraptured with me and enveloping me in its inescapable grasp.

I work a job, something that I’ve been able to manage (to some extent) for about a year and a half now.

I’m about to start a new work schedule, and I’m working a bit more than I’m used to.

Even though I know I can […]

9/1/2014 5 comments

anxious… helpless:(

by lovemyshihtzu 8/31/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

me and Ryan kinda jumped into things very fast. He moved in with me after two weeks, but we were happy as can be. I was always weary that he was lying to me, because that’s just what I’ve always been used to. But everything he said always added up. He was extremely supportive of everything, including my mental illnesses. we were in everything together. Ryan comes from a very rough child hood. Him & his siblings were taken away from his parents when I believe he was three. He found his mom when he was 18, and moved in with her. I actually met […]

8/31/2014 0 comment

Dead for a while now.

by Powdered 8/31/2014

written by Powdered

I’ve been dead for a while now. I have removed myself from friends and family, acquaintances, reality. I have sat in one room for 2 days now. No one has missed me or checked on me either. Not moving except to go to the bathroom. Well, longer than that if you want to be technical. For about a year and a half, I have gone through the motions of living. I have a steady job and income. But I realize that I’ve been dead for a long time. At least dead to who I used to be and maybe I never really was anyone to […]

8/31/2014 2 comments

I’m 20 years old. This is my goodbye letter.

by deadford34 8/21/2014

written by deadford34

if you’re reading this it’s because I finally found the strength to do what I have threatened and wanted for so long. Think what you want, that I’m a coward or I’m weak. I can’t handle the thoughts or the pain of this. She was my entire world and my savior. I fucked it all up. I can’t forgive myself. I can’t forget. I can’t move on. I can never love someone else and now the only one who truly loved, accepted, and knew me is gone because of me. I don’t understand how she can move on. I can’t stand the thought of her […]

8/21/2014 4 comments

Just Another Lousy Poem

by KissOfDeath 8/20/2014

written by KissOfDeath

It’s hard to pick yourself up,

after you fallen.

It’s hard to “cheer up,”

when you have felt this way for years.

It’s had to “move on”

when your life is a stop sign.

8/20/2014 2 comments

Just about had it with myself..

by Amswilli 8/19/2014

written by Amswilli

I’ve been miserable for as long as I can remember. I’m a fully-grown adult now and it’s followed me everywhere. My situation in life is a complete failure, socially and financially. Unemployed, birthday coming up and no prospects for anything. I am about to be evicted and have no plan whatsoever for the future. Everyone who knows me I am a burden on, and honestly I think the world would be better off without someone like me here. I’m worthless, so it wont matter if I’m not here anymore. I’ll be missed by a few, but they will be relieved when the nuisance that is […]

8/19/2014 0 comment

Doors

by lostchild445 8/18/2014

written by lostchild445

My hands are shaking, I don’t know why
I’ve been here before
Yet for some reason I can’t help but cry

New doors, but all of them so far away
The old ones are slowly closing
And they call out strongly my name

What will become of me?
I cannot be sure
But I know there is no cure for what I am

So simple yet so complex
I am unable to see through the fog
And I’m afraid I’m destined to choose wrong

One bad door is all it will take
One wrong move, one mistake and I know
I’ll end up where I have been before

I reach […]

8/18/2014 0 comment

HUMANITY IS FUCKED

by JadedGuy 8/18/2014

written by JadedGuy

My life went to shit in my early 20’s after my mom had turned my dad into a psycho and i thought he was the bad guy until i realized what an evil human being my mother is. now i am almost 30 and Her being evil has ruined my life in so many ways i cannot even descibe the anger i feel thinking about it. I had a great childhood and never had any extreme hatred towards my mom until after they divorced and my dad kicked me out of his place for not having a job and stealing a bit of money which […]

8/18/2014 2 comments

We Are All Legends

by teardownthewall 8/17/2014

written by teardownthewall

I saw someone write that they are Sisyphus and I thought it was poetically fitting for people in our condition. I myself am Atlas, damned to carry the world on my shoulders without given a moment to shrug. We are all legends and gods in our own right. Perhaps that’s why our deaths are so tragic.

I’ve finally decided to take that final step and let the world roll from my shoulders. I’ll give myself a month to tie loose ends and let my family adapt. I told them I’ll be leaving in a month. They think I’m just going to move away, having no idea. […]

8/17/2014 4 comments

i can’t…

by meris 8/11/2014

written by meris

everything is crumbling beneath me, i’ve lost two jobs. me and my dad are getting evicted, and we have to move out by the 28th and we still haven’t found a house to live in. i wrecked my car the other day and the whole right side is totaled, then i found out, my windshield is cracked and now my battery is dead so we have to buy a new one. i’m sick of everything. and i’ve had close calls with attempting suicide again like one time, i was driving down the road and i was speeding and i almost just threw my car off […]

8/11/2014 4 comments

Just tired!

by Helpless_girl 8/11/2014

written by Helpless_girl

I’ve suffered more pain in my 19 years than most endure in a lifetime. I’m so tired of going to bed every night hoping I won’t wake up, only to do just that and have the pain reply itself. No one in my life cares or even notices. I’ve attempted to end it once before, but I woke up in a pool of my own vomit instead. I tried to move on from suicide, but my life is a void. Nothing but lament can fill it. Everything jut seems so unease for me right now an I can’t stop this pain I’ve been feeling, it hurts […]

8/11/2014 1 comment

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