i could be meeting somebody I’ve loved for years in about a month and a half 2 months. I’ve never been so terrified its all i can think about. but at the same time i can’t wait. I’ve stopped eating. i cant eat. its a mix of the two. idk i think despite the fear the nerves and anything else it’ll be the best night of my life possibly a good night to end it. idk. its something I’ve been thinking about the last few days. a nice way to go in the middle of the carnage of hundreds of sweating singing dancing people just […]
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Thought I’d share one of my favorite songs (and artists) with you all. It’s called “Hollow Man”, and it’s by “iamsleepless” (which describes my entire life). Enjoy!
Music quote of the day: “How I wish, how I wish you were here. We’re just two lost souls swimming in a fishbowl, year after year, running over the same old ground, and how we found the same old fears… Wish you were here.” – Pink Floyd, “Wish You Were Here”
”Take all of the courage you have left.Waste it on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head.”
I’m the kind of person that can have legacies
But instead I destroy them
And I’ll keep destroying them until I can create them.
I used to have such a passion for life. It breaks my heart every time I realize the extent and speed in which it’s dwindling away. What a waste. Agony grips my form when my thoughts turn to the past and I see what I once was.
All I want to do is go back, because I don’t believe in my future and I don’t believe in myself.
I like this song, listen away.
I am perfectly aware that this is a stupid post but who cares? Is it bad that I listen to music about suicide, rage, and good ol’ depression. Should I listen to “happy” music or should I continue my current listening habbits?
Music from the game Diablo, very “hellish” and creepy as it can get, I bet if there were music in the underworld it would sound like this.
Some thoughts:
I can see what you see not
vision milky then eyes rot
when you turn they will be gone
whispering their hidden song
then you see what cannot be
shadows move where light should be
out of darkness, out of mind
cast down into the halls of blind
and another:
So this is hell. I’d never have believed it.
You remember all we were told about the torture-chambers,
the fire and brimstone, the “burning marl.” Old wives’ tales!
There’s […]
I am so fucking DONE. I want to die.. well I don’t want to die, but I want this pain to go away. I want the constant numbness, guilt, sadness, and every other emotion to stop. I want these voices to go away and leave my head. I want my father to actually love me! Hell I want my family to actually love me! All they do is tell me that I’m a waste of time, money, and space. They don’t support me. They don’t encourage me to live my dream. They don’t encourage me to get involved with my church, instead they act like […]
I’ve always been the strong one. The one who held others up when they couldn’t take it. I never wanted to burden others with my problems, so I tend to fake a smile and say I’m okay. I hate to be viewed as weak. It started when I was little — I was born to teenage parents who had a taste for methanphetamines. They did try to get clean when I was born, as well as three years later when my little brother came into the world. But their lifestyle caused me to take care of myself at an early age. A funny story I’ve […]
I love all kinds of music. However there’s few songs that grab hold and this is one. I could die listening to this. Â (Not that I am, just saying)
So what would your last song be?
I may not be suicidal but i do get depressed because of my lack of motivation and my fear of the future and this is what i like to listen to. So i made a playlist with some music that is nice to the ear and yes i know its hip hop but these songs are not the normal type you see its deep and all about the soft beats and the lyrics. Its poetry with beats. I feel like theres alot of rock and i wanted to put in something diffrent. Do me a favor and atleast listen to The Book  Of soul. Thanks people […]
greetings,
well where do i start?
Im 17 and in my last year of school. i didnt know i would ever make it to year 12 but i have and this could possible be the worst year of my life. i feel tired all the time, i’ve began to cry over simple things like it being too hot while walking home. at night i think about how i could kill myself so i dont wake up thinking about how much im going to fail this year. everyone tells you year 12 is the most important year and at the moment i dont believe in myself […]
Here are a few songs that I have listened to constantly when I feel depressed or suicidal. Hope you like them 🙂
1. Whispers By David Baxter  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIpvxcrdXbc
2. Running Up That Hill By Placebo http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vP0ngiMBnas
3. What Now By Rihanna http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdid9kBnPEU
4.Yellow Light By Of Monsters And Men http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gb9hKzNmgJ8
5. After the Storm By Mumford & Sons http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3RP1VbUaaA
6. Amsterdam By Coldplay http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgfvOqJftIY
7. Hurt By Johnny Cash http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ahHWROn8M0
i live for these moments.
the ones im sitting in the little nook of my room, listening to my favorite song, sipping peppermint tea, and blogging. the moments when im at the perfect temperature with a flannel blanket wrapped around me, and my cat pacing indecisively across my lap and all i can think of is you.
YOU’RE a QUEER, a SISSY, GAY, a FAGOT; little words that do enormous damage to any person, but especially children, may be long forgotten by those who say them, but never erased from the memory of those who endure.
Unless he was in front of an audience, Jimbeau Hinson, Jimbeauhinson.com writer of Setting Fancy Free (The Oak Ridge Boys) Tonight I’m Looking for a Party Crowd, (David Lee Murphy) and other hits, was always a shy, quiet child.
“I always felt different from everyone else at the time, but I’ve come to realize I was […]
Ok,
So my name is Destiny and i just wanted to talk about giving up.
I’ve went through a lot of things, and i’ve moved past them, learning how to work on myself. I live by the motto:
“EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON”.
It has nothing to do with religion, but with just that everything in my opinion happens for a reason. Whenever I hit a point where i dont want to live i think about all the negative, everything. i drive my self into deep stages of confusion trying to figure it all out on myself. Why do things happen the way they do?, Why have I grown […]
My home life really isn’t as bad as some here. But, I’m not going to say it is spactacular, because I would not be telling the truth.
But at home, there is always conflicts. People are always unhappy. And if I want to talk to anyone in my family about my feelings of depression or emptiness or loneliness, they get shoved asside. When I went to the mental home last year and my parents found I was suicidal, it was more like, you’re turning your back on god, or, how could you be so selfish?
I never want to be a greedy person or selfish, […]
I would just like to know about any songs that just change your opinion or decision of something.
Have you ever been so built up with frustration and other emotions and then as soon as you hear a certain song or poem, you just instantly change and start to calm down or approach the subject/event differently?
If so, Please just share some songs or something. I’m interested in what people think of their music
I dont wanna slip up i hurting so bad its like a part of me is fading away i try not to worry because i know ill have it back one day but its killing me to know it’ll be out of my reach for any amount of time at the moment thoughts of suicide are racing through my head so i think im ganna do what i call a cleannsing take an extremly long shower blast my music and cry …….i need it
My names Jillian, i’m 15 years old, and here’s my story, i decided to share the truth.
My first school ever was Green Way Elementary, the first day of school was OK, until i started showing up at school looking all gross and ugly… It’s because when i was younger i lived with my parents, but then they split up because things weren’t working out for them, i seen them fight all the time, i stayed with my dad for a bit because my mom moved away with her girlfriend, while i was staying with my dad he liked to have friends over and drink […]