I’m in no rush to grow up, I’m only 15 and I’ve put so much pressure on myself to become this “final product” and comparing my self to people who I think are better and thinking “why am I not there?” “why am I not as good?”. I remember I always wanted to be a musician and to do something creative with my career and I still do but I find that I was never encouraged or supported very much even at a young age and as much as it’s nice to really say I can pick myself up and support my own dreams somebody […]
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When i was about two years old, my mum left me in a small house with an 11 year old babysitter for a whole weekend to get drunk.
I remember people telling me that i would have been in care if it wasn’t for my Dad, although now that i’m growing into my teenage years he doesn’t pay any attention to me. I live with my Nan and Granddad. My Granddad is maybe the only person i appreciate, along with my best friends. I obviously love my family, but i feel awkward around my Dad, and my Nan’s constantly drunk and angry, and she’s spending all […]
I am a 25 year old musician. I have never had a problem with depression until recently. I was happy, touring in a band, making money doing it. Then everything came crashing down. Now all I think about is everything that I have lost.
My best childhood friend dies unexpectedly, then my mother, then my friends turn their back on me.
I have lost all inspiration, I hate everything I do. My girlfriend who I live with are becoming more and more distant. I’m stuck 1,000 miles away from home with a shitty job, nothing to show for myself, and all I want to do is curl […]
I am so so sick of being compared to my sisters. “SHE already has all her French credits, shes in grade 10!” “Look, SHE got an A on her test!” “You should be grateful that your sister is so involved in the school, it makes you look good!” just shut up.
I dont want to take all my high school courses in French, I dont have to. I get good grades, never below a B- Im a fair musician, Im a good writer, Im a fair artist, so you can shove it about how FANTASTIC my sisters are! I dont have many friends, I dont need […]
I don’t really care what people look like. Ugly people have every right to happiness and success as the beautiful, but I don’t feel that way about myself. I have not been able to look in mirrors since 2002. I’m so fat and ugly and I want  to die. I will never be able to accomplish anything good in my life and I will only get uglier as I get older. But how do I do it? I need it to be painless and it must be successful.
I have always felt ugly since at least 8 years old. I remember getting in trouble at school […]
I feel like my life has no direction and that I’m going to amount to nothing. No one in my life knows how unhappy I am. They don’t know that I cut. They don’t know that I think about stepping off the curb when we’re waiting for the light to change. They don’t know that I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
They already have all these plans. Doctor, environmentalist, musician, journalist. I don’t know what I want, and it terrifies me that time is passing so quickly.
I have found this site helpful mainly because I now know I’m not alone.
I’ve always been depressed, since my parents split when I was 4 but I’m now 23 and I dont have anything to show. I had dreams to ve a musician and let them die.I came up with this idea to kill myself (the word suicide disgusts me) about two years ago but my future roommate convinced me better. I convinced myself that it was because she had feelings for me and I could find meaning in life by taking care of her and her child. our relationship got more intense, but […]
I have grown so weary of the tired old statement that those who commit suicide are selfish for not thinking about the effect on their families. I always get a small laugh of disdain when I hear this idiocy. When in truth nine times out of ten the Family itself is usually at the very root of the persons suicide. The Family are in My opinion the selfish ones. They demand so much from you,lord over and dominate your life. They make you trade away the things you love for what THEY approve of. They only think of themselves and how you can best serve […]
My Story,
All my lyfe ive been compared, contrasted, and told i never tried my best. Im a sophomore in high school and this year especially, ive been having many thought about suicide. I have strict asian parents who dont take anything but a’s. I have a lot of pressure on my shoulders and when i told my parents ive wanted to something else besides a doctor or do another major than pre-med, they would get mad or tell me im stupid. Ive wanted to chase after my dreams as a musician and an artist. My parents never accepts the idea no matter how many time […]
This will probably be somewhat incoherent. I apologize in advance for that.
I am 25 years old, and just graduated from a university with a degree in music. I took out nearly $60,000 in private student loans to get the degree, to say nothing of the federal loans.
My job prospects now are no better than they were when I was in high school, and are in fact worse, thanks to the economy and my foolish, self-indulgent decision to get a music degree. The worst part is that my family cosigned on the private loans, and they’re going to destroy their credit along with mine. I could […]