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Some day I will be able to..

by falling_soup 2/17/2015

written by falling_soup

Some day I will be able to:

Be free
Live on my own
Be who I want to be
Live far away from my mom
Be happy?

Let’s be real, I will never be happy. I can never be free because I am trapped to my mentally ill mother. I am all alone. My stomach is in knots and I can’t seem to stop the anxiety and the emotions that come with the thought of killing myself. I will never be able to “stomach” the situation that for the last 16 years I have been put through. My life is never going to change. I am trying to do the best […]

2/17/2015 5 comments

I am just too tired of life

by FoolOnTheHill 2/16/2015

written by FoolOnTheHill

I really feel somewhat desperate to kill myself right now… but I know I won’t… Often times I think about hanging myself or electrocution. I never follow through though. Sometimes I want to be alone yet I crave to be understood and not be so god damn alone…. Idk I do have some friends but I have the most trouble reaching out to people. I honestly believe they wouldnt understand what I’m going through or what I’ve gone through……… I just hope I can keep going and living…. I’ve come to several conclusions to help myself but I never tried them. 1) help someone else […]

2/16/2015 1 comment

Want to go back

by confused31 2/16/2015

written by confused31

I’m on Zoloft. I started when I went to the children’s part of the peninsula hospital. Is there something wrong with me? Is wanting to go back there bad? I was good for maybe a week after I left and now ever since then I’ve just wanted to go back. What else can I do. Life sucks even though any other person would love my life. Everyone talks about how perfect my life is and I’m just ‘acting’ sad and depressed for more attention. Just because my life seems perfect doesn’t mean it is. My life should be perfect. I have everything I need but […]

2/16/2015 2 comments

living with schizophrenia

by maxwell 2/15/2015

written by maxwell

its not an easy life i live its far from it, the fact that i hear voices telling me i’m going to die and they are going to come after me till i die is extremely petrifying and that is just the tip of the ice berg i live in constant fear that someone is trying to kill , that someone is in the house trying to get me, i always hear foot steps as if they are right behind me, im scared to sleep of even shutting my eyes for that matter i don’t sleep for 3-4 days at a time till i pass […]

2/15/2015 4 comments

Death

by restrictingheart 2/15/2015

written by restrictingheart

I’ve always wondered what would happen after I died. I think no one will miss me. I think that I am so broken and damaged I just cause other people pain. I can’t forget everything that has happened to me and move forward so easily. I just become a burden to others because of how weak I am. I used to be able to hide everything but I am just so tired I can’t bring myself to pretend everything is okay anymore. I am tired of talking to people and trying to fix myself. Sometimes I find myself hoping that I will get stronger, get […]

2/15/2015 0 comment

scars

by maxwell 2/15/2015

written by maxwell

We all have our own stories some may be worse than others but Every scar that buries deep within my skin holds its own story, every one of them shows a victory, its showing that I have won yet another battle with life, so why hate me and judge me for what lies on my arm, you don’t judge a soldier for a battle wound or scars because he got that fighting a war for his life, I did the same thing I have won a war for my life and these are the wounds and scars that have been left behind for me to […]

2/15/2015 2 comments

Just a vapor..

by AfflictedSmile 2/15/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

”Does it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are?” – GGD

The answer to that, yes. Not because I think my life holds anymore value than the next. We are here as a vapor. We are nothing but a wave in the vast seas. So many waves have already come, and so many more will replace ours. In 1-200 years we probably won’t even be a distant memory. We won’t matter. What’s sadder is knowing I don’t matter now, in the presence. If I did, surely those around me would realize my struggle to find any form of hope in […]

2/15/2015 4 comments

My own worst Enemy

by greystreet 2/15/2015

written by greystreet

Im so angry and frustrated right now. Why me? Why has this been my life? I never asked for any of this. Those were my thoughts and feelings for some time. I was angry at god. I was angry at the world. I was angry at my parents for the childhood I was robbed of and the issues I got because of it. Not anymore though. My anger or frustration is all directed inward now.

Why cant I get better? Why cant I get past my childhood? Why cant I let go of all the pain and hurt that haunts my every thought? Im not a […]

2/15/2015 4 comments

I don’t want to go on.

by failed-at-life 2/14/2015

written by failed-at-life

I’m 25 years old in a couple of weeks, and I have absolutely nothing to show for my life. I have no job, no experience, no skills. I’m still a a virgin, have never been kissed properly, never had someone who loves me. I don’t even have anyone who even cares about me all that much. No parents because they died when I was a child, no other family because they emotionally abused me all throughout my life and then disowned me. Only four friends. Two of which don’t even bother to talk to me unless I remind them I still exist. I feel invisible. […]

2/14/2015 7 comments

Nothing Special

by DownNout22 2/14/2015

written by DownNout22

That about sums me up I suppose. Although how I feel normally is just well below that. Holidays tend to make me feel even more melancholy, Valentines is no exception to that. Just that like many, issues with women tends to be one of my largest problems, so a day specifically shoving relationships in your face is a nice extra special twist of the knife.

I used to think pretty highly of myself. I’m tall, I was in ok shape. No adonis by any stretch of the imagination, but neither was I grossly out of shape. Bit of a tummy, but unless I have my shirt […]

2/14/2015 4 comments

7 and No More

by greystreet 2/13/2015

written by greystreet

My life story is crazy. There aren’t enough paragraphs to explain it all and I dont want to bore you with all of the details. I can tell you that Ive had two different therapists tell me that I needed to write a book because no one would believe all of it. The very short jist is a rough childhood, abuse, lots of anxiety and fear, bad relationships and much much more resulting in ptsd, depression and anxiety. I tried my damndest to overcome what I could and try to make a life for myself. I had a great job, great relationship, great income and […]

2/13/2015 4 comments

First Post- I just need someone to talk to?

by xXBeautifulScarsxX 2/13/2015

written by xXBeautifulScarsxX

Ok, so since this is my first post, I’m not going to go into my story, but I honestly just want someone to talk to. My friends don’t care or even really talk to me, so I just feel so alone. I have so many problems and I just keep them all the myself, but I’m finally starting to break. I’m 17, a senior in high school, and this is supposed to be the best year of my life. And so far it’s been the worst. It would just be nice to finally talk to someone about all of the shit I’m going through 🙂

2/13/2015 7 comments

A loneliness that’s become hard to take.

by nias 2/13/2015

written by nias

No love is no life, loneliness is no life. I desperately need to be held, to be touched, to be loved; a body longing to be caressed.
The warm feeling of two people sharing that moment of passion, the beauty of love. How I wish that a woman would want me, could give me love.
It’s just a song, no woman will ever want me.
What’s the point of continuing if I’m to live my life on my own.
For I am alone, I am empty, I am nothing, and who’ll miss nothing?
Just a sad and lonely creature looking for its death.

2/13/2015 0 comment

Blah

by lostinthewoods 2/12/2015

written by lostinthewoods

I hate my life. I love my life. I’m a playboy.

2/12/2015 4 comments

my sisters… i need you

by disposablegrl 2/12/2015

written by disposablegrl

i’ve had many things taken from me throughout my life…

mother/father: robbed me of safety, acceptance, and unconditional love, i never stood a chance with the two of you

molester: robbed me of a childhood, feelings of worth and value

rapists: robbed me of dignity and pride

myself: robbed me of peace and tranquility

but you… nothing compares to what you have done… you stripped me bare, consumed me body and soul only to regurgitate it back in my face with a look of disgust only to say– not what i want… you leave me crumbled, a pile of used discarded remnants of something that was at some point […]

2/12/2015 4 comments

Seeking Advice

by Kaleb 2/12/2015

written by Kaleb

I’m not looking for suggestions on how to Exit, but rather how best to tie up the loose ends of my life in advance of my Exit. I want to leave in a manner that is as compassionate and uncomplicated as possible for those I’ll be leaving behind. There is a great deal to consider here, and it is very difficult for me to process the details in my current emotional state. I’m a practical person, and what I need is some practical advice, and unfortunately I can’t consult any of my trusted friends for obvious reasons. So I would appreciate any thoughtful words on […]

2/12/2015 2 comments

Maybe I should Die!!

by EmoGirl2250 2/12/2015

written by EmoGirl2250

My life is hell ive been in a house that i hate with bullied for 2 years

my moms boyfriends house his kids hate me and i hate them

they got my hooked on weed and it fucks me up

ive been pushed down stairs they have burned me beat me and one forced me into sex

Im 13 and im not a virgin

ive regretted my life since i moved to this hell hole

people at school bully me i tell them to go to hell or say fuck of or even give them the finger

2/12/2015 2 comments

living here will be the death of me

by 12ccht 2/12/2015

written by 12ccht

My mother resents me so much. She always has. I was always the reble, the introvert, the undesirable fat one, whenever the family was dressed for an occasion, I was left home alone. So many nights I wished somebody would’ve just broken in and murdered me. Now I know for a fact my mothers life would be ideal without me. Her words tear me apart. I want to fix myself and lose weight and be confident for once in my life but she could care less. I hate living like this. I wish someone would end my miserable life, I would be erased and forgotten […]

2/12/2015 1 comment

help me

by track 2/11/2015

written by track

My parents are back to arguing. My grades are getting worse slowly and my parents keep pressuring me to so better. I’m getting bullied in school and I feel like all my friends hate me sometimes I just want to end my life. I don’t know what’s the point in living if there’s no goal and at the end you just die like a slowly rotting bird.

2/11/2015 3 comments

do you think anyone actually cares

by stupidppl8 2/11/2015

written by stupidppl8

im debating whether or not to kill myself simply because i dont think anyone is there for me like im there for them and i just feel so alone. i dont know if im becoming depressed or not but everyone in my life is constantly making me feel like a sad story and that im not good enough and that i dont belong there . But judt to let you know i probably wouldnt kill myself beacause i dont have the guts to do it. id probably just try to pull the trigger and break down crying.

2/11/2015 7 comments

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